I don't want to love you; I don't want to love you

God knows I have no right

I don't want to write this down, I shouldn’t'

But I just can't sleep tonight

I have no right to tell you, no right to invade your space

But I have to with all my might

This wasn't supposed to be, this yearning in my heart

I'm above all that, I thought

This time was supposed to be different I would not fall

But your smile was my death and now I'm caught

I don't want to love you, but I have to

And now I really don't mind

Cause loving you isn't a bad thing

And there's one thing you just might find

That out there, somewhere…is this kindred spirit

Who will now love you for all of man's time

Robert Steward

feb 1996

I was making a movie about spousal abuse starring Allison Swartz and Mike Marino the Jersey Comic. Allison started to confide in me, and I kinda fell for her. This love went unrequited because I was a married man at that time. A year later I seperated from my wife.