| If Only Chapter 2 School�. Just think about it, some people see it as a social gathering, others see it as a pathway to a future, as for me, well it was hell�yeah everyone hated it to some sort of degree, but for me I just hated ever single bit of it. I had no friends, let alone no one would even talk to me. I sure don't believe that being the invisible man was only in science fiction� I kept staring at the cold desolate environment through the window. That was my world, just emptiness, no one seemed to care that I was really dying, my will to live was lost and no one could ever bring it back, sometimes trying to fight myself was just a losing battle. "Chad, pay attention" my math instructor politely said, god, you see what I mean by no one caring, for all I know this teacher was caring about the pay from our tax dollars, and he was doing a pretty bad job to add also. Suddenly catching some of the student's jumping to their feet from their little daydreams except for me, there was a knock on the door. "Come in" my teacher yelled, just as soon he finished saying that our secretary came in with a boy carrying along a backpack, a new student I thought. He had black hair with a hint of brown under the light; he had pale green eyes with a nice honey brown colored skin. I guess he's Italian or something, he was about my height around 5'11 if you want to know all the little details, by the way he was dressed he was a skater just as I finished looking at him. I turned to look at the same area through the window. "Class this is Matt" our secretary announced, some of the classmates gave the usual greeting if there was a new student. I assumed he just waved back or something because he didn't make any sound, As the secretary left for our instructor to assign him a seat. "Matt you can sit beside Chad" the teacher ordered him, soon after he sat down next to me, the seats where in 8 rows in three columns with two desks in each section. Great, whenever I try to ignore someone there always there in my face, luckily he didn't say anything to rub it in. ** The day was almost done, it was my last period, which was drama, and again Matt was in this class also, but this is the second class and hopefully only the second class he is in with me. From what I observed, he seemed to get plenty of attention especially from the girls, to take a second look he was somewhat cute. Chad what are you thinking? The chances of him of not being a homosexual are pretty big by the way he talking to the girls and with that I sunk into a mild depression. "I will never love someone " ** " Snow�what a comforting substance, gentle, yet so cold as a independent human heart" "Fire, hot�cannot be controlled like a soul" "What is this I'm feeling, a feeling so strange� makes me want to cry" "Is this loneliness?" "Faces so many together�except me" "Where am I, Who am I, Who are you?" " I must be lonely" Continued�. |