November 4, 2002
Lately, i've been getting tired of my life. Its been the same routine over and over and over. Skoo, work, home, eat, study, sleep, then rewinds. Somtimes i dunt even sleep cuz of MAE and phyzix. And better yet...i'm not working hard enuf. i need to work MORE. *sigh* onlie vsa events have still kept me alive i guess. well, i've goin out here and there lately. that helps. like yesterday, went to go eat out with phuong, her bf eric, and nick...that wuz a breather....but then agin...i also went clubbin on friday with huong and some other peeps but they took off...so it wuz just me and huong...we had fun....emotion tryouts were ok...most ppl didnt even go cuz they either went home or had stuff to do....so i have to have a second audition...but thats later news....and recently...i'm dealing with this roommate problem...some fuck ass decides to bail on us...and leave us in the cold...i can barely make rent as we speak...and this foolio decides to leave at the end of this month...so we gotta cover for december...thats 660 that we have to cover divided into 4 ppl...i dunt have that kinda money...shit....if he ends up really screwin us over...imma gonna get phyzical and kick his ass...fuck i'm serious this time...i havent hit ne1 since 7th grade....and wen u go THIS low...and screw me over...its goin down...yea...so thats my life...sorrie bout all this anger....its just shit that i dunt wanna deal with and that i didnt PLAN on dealin with...but i guess i have to...and i realize how shady ppl can be...and how the ppl close to u can screw u over just like that...i guess i'm just tired of life....in general....but i gotta move on...cant end it like this...gotta get back into skoo and gotta get back into shape...mentally and phyzically...*sigh*....ok thats enuf for now-1930110402
November 10, 2002
So i went clubbin on friday....i didnt really have much fun at all...in one group...it wuz their own group....in the other group....the gurlz werent even dancing(standing in one place and snapping ur fingers is NOT dancing)...and as for the other gurlz in the room(which isnt many) it wuz just TOO MUCH dancing(if u kno wut i mean)....so yea....clubbin wuznt that great...especially since that club wuz dead...im NEVER goin there agin....NEVER EVER....i give up on club Pure...*sigh*...so i'm home now in OC...doin nothing at all...just doin regular errands n stuff...so today...bought front and rear brakes for my car...oil filter...and oil...then went to temple after not being there for sooo long...i miss my temple soo much...havent been there for awhile...miss the people...and i fergot alotta stuff i learned from back then...all my Phat Phap n stuff...but its kewl now...im bringing back a Kinh for myself so i can read it and stuff....so its all good...but yea...now imma get informed bout the events goin on with temple...so its all good...so yea....went shoppin with mom afterwards....then i crashed wen i got home...woke up bout 9pm to help dad with changing my brakes on my car...oil change has to wait for another month or so...so yea....i have to clean my car tomorrow...and find a car scent...cuz my car smells like crap...literally...i cant smell...and i can smell it..thats how bad it is...welps...as for now...i'm not doin much just writing this entry....wen i should be doin MAE instead...but yea....just finished installing progz on this comp for my parents....so i guess its MAE time....latez-2225111002
November 14, 2002
Classes are sucking like shit rite now...i cant even pass one single class...i'm failing every single one....there's something wrong....i feel like giving up....i sooo do...i'm just tired of life...really...i am....life has been fucked up since the day i wuz born....now...lifes really feelin like shit...and even wen i try...i fail....so i wuz a born failure....accept and move on rite?...its hard...and the times are getting harder....i dunt kno wut to do nemore....like i said...i feel like giving up...there's no more motivation for nething...not even joy...life's tough...and i'm not-0944111402
