Sunday Feb 7, 2005 So....saturday wuz great fun but i screwed up & got 666. u no how if u hav muscle soreness or pain the 2nd day's the worst? same w/ HIs and nervousness. guess i got a bit cocky/lazy & didnt practice enough. this week tho, i'm gonna practice so much & break, assuming i dont revert 2 laziness. ended up w/ a sprained ankle & scraped knee. we went 2 dinner at applebees & the honey bbq chicken sandwich tastes great. i think i offended oleg in the car but hey evrything i say has got sarcasm in it sum how.
friday suliman wuz nice about the volleyball thing....certainly more encouraging than robby(robert).
today dad bought me a new suit at Lord&Taylor. certainly makes me look thinner. i dont no how i'll go 2 gym tomorrow w/ a sprained ankle tho. john's nice. Behaving Like Adults by Ann Maxted is more sad than upbeat. Itz a great book tho. spoiler: Holly gets raped & itz about her dealing w/ it.

Wednesday Feb 2, 2005 sry about the delay in writing here....BUT I WON A TROPHY ON SATURDAY!!!!WOO-HOO!!!!! 4N6--TOP NOVICE IN HI!!! (w/ three 4's which isnt exactly good). but i stayed afterskool yesterday & jenny d & giselle helped me w/ my HI & now itz ROCKIN'!!!!!! SATURDAY, I JUST CANT WAIT!!!!! unless i blank out....in that case 1 more week is fine....o & john, u r just sooo hot....soo hot i never want to see you topless or bottomless or both....lol....
& apparently nane is gonna make out w/ a guy on friday...therefore it is safe for me to hypothesize that she has hired a male hooker.

Friday Jan 28, 2005

i seriously bombed the midterms.....my gpa & my class rank & shit r like down a million points now....so heres the deal: Spanish-95---good but unfortunately THAT WUZ THE HIGHEST GRADE OUT OF ALL MY MIDTERMS!!! AAAAHHHH!!! then ss---91---not bad since tat wuz one of the more challenging midterms...& i got a 92 on the greece test....not too bad but i still got jaded since that culd've been sooooo much higher if i hadnt missed so much class when i got sick....then 95 in math---not surprisingly it wuz the highest in the whole class---but still my average wuz only a 96 & my 8th grade math average wuz a 98!!!! then bio & i totally bombed it. i got a MT grade of 87 & a final average of 91!!!! THATZ WORSE THAN DAVID GE & SACHI & JIM PARK & PRETTY MUCH EVRY FRESHMAN IN THAT CLASS & SEVERAL SOPHOMORES!!!! AAAHHHHH!!!! but then heres the kicker: i got a 92.5 on the earth science midterm that i supposedly failed. wut kind of logic is that? this world makes no sense. i mean, i suck at earth science & i'm great at bio!!!!
itz so lonely being the only freshman in a class of sophomores. i mean itz great since most sophomores r cooler & nicer than most freshman & all but it sucks having a free period like today & having no one to hang with or talk to. damn itz so lonely & boring.

Thursday Jan 27, 2005

I CHANGED THE LAYOUT!!!!! LIKE IT? I LOVE IT!!!!!! ok........calming down....but i'm jus excited cuz u hav no idea how many times my computer froze while i wuz trying 2 change it & yes this is an original layout designed by MOi &................ya i lost yesterday's super-long entry cuz like i sed about the freeezings.....g2g bye

Tuesday Jan 25, 2005

So I seriously blew it on the Earth Science. did so-so on the band mid-term, missed sum questions but got sum extra credit so i shuld pretty much break even on tat one. tomorrow i'm gonna die during the spanish oral section. i understand the grammar, jus cant remember & prolly dont have the correct vocab & definitions. stupid sachi. (sry! i dont mean it).
�'m thinking of going [back] into designing layouts. i'm saying this after seeing sum really pretty layouts on other sites & ya....theres sum pretty pictures on gettyimages.com. unfortunately i prolly wont hav the initiative/motivation to continue designing after the first or second design i make, if i ever do start. & about tat flash movies/music videos idea i had: maybe make a Bonnie&Clyde one or Cleopatra&MarkAntony one w/ Lindsay Lohan's Over & the other one with the water spirit story i drew & the Cold Water Music from that cd. note to self: memorize the friggin HI & come up w/ sum movements. i'm gonna be performing tat THIS SATURDAY!!!! ahhhh!!!!

Monday Jan 24, 2005

I shuld probly be studying like hell rite now, but who cares. O & itz mid-terms week. Wel I guess I did ok on the health mid-term...at least 1/2 wuz jus self-esteem crap & common sense....at least 1/2 wuz never taught to us but on the study sheets....
....then theres the english mid-term which i totally bombed. stupid essay. why dont u go read the Golden Compass & write about Lyra's weakness & how it interferes w/ her test + quest?! I tell u the friggin girl has no weakness!!! so i jus made up three 3-sentence paragraphs about her fuckin curiosity & how it kept getting her into shit....too bad i culdnt think of any shit it ever got her into....so basically my paper wuz jus blank. pathetic, huh? tomorrow i get to bomb earth science ^_^ _{i am such a loser}
btw, lindsay lohan's song Over is so stuck in my head. itz a great song....& if u think about it it duz kinda relate to the mid-terms.....
-cant live without u-
-cant breathe without u-
-i dream about u-
-honestly tell me that its over-
-cuz if the world is spinning-
-and i'm still living-
-wont be right if we're not in it-
-t o g e t h e r-
-tell me that its over-
-and i'll be the first to go-
         -dont wanna be the last to know-
think about it....it totally applies to mid-terms week. i mean, u'd be the first to go if u heard tat the mid-terms were over, wuldnt u? & i'm sure i wuldnt like to be the last to no. & of course we have to be in it together, cuz if i hav to suffer so do u. yes, misery just loves company. '& i'm sure ppl dream about them, or at least have nightmares about them. i wuldnt be so sure about the cant live without u cant breathe without u tho...itz more like cant live WITH u.

Saturday Jan 22, 2005

How sad. Indeed. Then theres the other news of the week, about Prince Harry wearing sum Nazi costume to sum party. Harry boy, wut the hell were u thinking? & since pictures are worth a thousand words, I'm sure sum other political cartoons from cagle.slate.com can speak for themselves. Btw, I think they had sum controversy awhile ago about whether they shuld stop using the Confederate flag & its design in certain state flags. I jus gotta say: THEY AINT USING THE NAZI SWASTIKA IN THE GERMAN FLAG, SO U SHULD DROP THE CONFEDERATE DESIGN. My life's fine...mid-terms next week...stupid me--I 4got 2 pick up a Golden Compass study guide yesterday so now poor Christine has to type up the whole thing & e-mail it 2 me....thank u so much, christine!...i guess i shuld be studying but hey w/ the snow & all, i jus cant feel the pressure to. i hope this cold leaves soon so i can go 2 the movies w/ john & nane. we still havent come up w/ a date & time yet. btw, i heard tat we're gonna be watching Meet the Fockers, which is jus coincidence w/ the last political cartoon.Jibjab's cool. So's Lindsay Lohan's new song, Over. U shuld listen to it sumtime...real good for a child-actress-turned-slut.

Friday Jan 14, 2005-
My computer's being an asshole again. It's not letting sound come thru. & I think I'm comin down w/ a cold again {i shuld've worn tat fuckin jacket to mcdonalds}. But yesterday wuz cool--sci league thing. MTHS got like 1st in evry subject & so did Bio I--the thing i wuz doing. I got the highest score on my mini-team: 68 out of 80 & i'm proud of tat. ^_^ {i'm such a nerd}. & all the other freshman did earth sci...so since u guys only got 1st out of 2 teams, I laugh at u. HAA!!!! I GOT MORE BRAGGING RIGHTS THAN U STUPID ESCI PPL!!! like i said b4, doing good at earth sci is a given since montville's like the only skool district learning esci in high skool instead of middle skool. who in their rite minds duz earth science anyway? starkins totally ruined the enjoyment of geology. {i almost wished i stayed at cms for the 2nd 1/2 of 6th grade...tat way i'd be over w/ esci & never have met starkins}. it's like how stuck-up art teachers ruined my pursuit of becoming a professional artist instead of an official doodler--altho i am quite good. so.....how's life? {i shuld probly be sleeping now & jus 4get about the honey lemon tea tat wuz gonna pop out & save my throat & me from this horrible horrible cold virus}...HAPPY 3-DAY WEEKEND U STUPID UNGRATEFUL PPL!!! {lol jk...lyl...& nane, quit bothering GG & just go out w/ jonny boy...ur alwayz defending him it gets fuckin annoyin...

Sunday, Jan 9, 2005-
So yesterday wuz another forensics tournament. Last place in evry round....just had to put me in the rounds w/ the breakers. pssh. it wuz a great day....as are all 4n6 tournaments....except i jus had to get my period. How cruel is tat? ya.....so....great day

I donno y, but i alluded 2 this 1 dream again...it wuz a dream w/ lucy in it where she wuz introducing me 2 this really tragic, scary, graphic anime series where there were so many sad stories [they were supernatural] & the show wuz pretty popular...[there wuz 1 story i think where i wuz in an underground cave w/ this {good} woman & all of a sudden the {invisible}gods like crashed the cave & killed her w/ the shards...so gruesome & tragic]....& today i jus woke up thinking about anime series's [partially driven by the anime pictures in nane's xanga] & i jus thot i wanted 2 find out more about this 1 except i 4got the name....then i remembered tat it never existed....

so now i've got a new idea 4 the story tat i wuz working on but havent worked on 4 awhile....i culd add the theme of the tug between humanity & nature as the pets all experience & instinctive reversion to the chaos of nature....possibly have it shown w/ how distressed Tallie is during her period of reversion after she discovers immortality...

& this is from awhile ago but Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind seriously poses a question tat may be viable for controversy & debate later as technology advances: shuld ppl be able or hav the right 2 choose to have their memory erased? i mean 4 1 thing the ppl in the movie shouldnt've but wut about those ppl who have PTSD{post-traumatic stress disorder}? they deserve the right to erase those things tat culd possibly drive them mad....i'd be [figuratively] trapped in eternal mental torture after i've experienced certain traumas....& who gets 2 choose, rite? shuld all memories of certain traumas be erased?--then again, tat culd hinder certain criminal prosecutions.. or duz the inidividual person choose?--then again, wut if they're already driven mad by the trauma? shuld there be regulations about wut kinds of trauma to erase? shuld u force criminals 2 keep their guilty memories as punishments? do u erase those memories of psychopaths?--shuld psychopaths forever be punished by their mental anguish, or shuld tat be erased cuz it triggered the slaughters & tortures of innocent ppl? shuld crime victims' traumas only be erased after they have testified against their attacker?--but wut if their testimony wuz false--shuld they lose all evidence tat mite convict the true attacker simply b/c the court believed their 1st testimony or shuld they keep it until a day when they are no longer afraid/capable of testifying against their attacker?--wut if their attacker is never convicted or found?--shuld they keep the traumas 4 the rest of their lives b/c of a glimmer of hope tat the perp wuld be found?--or shuld they hav the traumas erased instantly b/c tat wuld stop the suffering, but wuld let the perp go free? & wut if u had ur mind erased w/o ur consent?--how wuld u be able to complain when u dont remember? wuld their be required memory banks in computers or sumthing? shuld ppl be forced to carry their memories/ their bags of burden b/c those are the cards they are dealt in life?---which leads to the next controversy:

How much of our lives are really controlled by ourselves, & not fate or sumthing? is the [mythological] Greek saying true: man can do wuteva he wants w/ his life as long as its in the limits of the gods? & who decides who these gods r? wut if they are not omnipotent, but r rather like the gvt--capable of being corrupt[ed]? can a better mortal be a god simply b/c [s]he is fairer & good-er? should a mortal be able to take the place of a god simply b/c [s]he is better & fairer? wut if the gods are corrupt/misguided? shuld mortals follow morals[wut is rite as judged by the gods, in this case the corrupt gods], or ethics[wut is right as judged by humans]? is it as that ancient greek philosopher[whos name i 4got] said: all humans have their different individual truths(morals/ethics), or as the other famous Greek philosopher said: truth[right and wrong] is absolute? wut the hell is [the nature of] morality anyway? are we all damned or are we judged after we die? & wut r the standards if we are judged afterdeath? r they as strict as the puritans' code, or r they more flexible? wut if the judges r corrupt? etc...