i feel alone
i feel like i have no home
i feel like life found a way to hurt me again
i feel empty
i feel likr not feeling anymore
i know i can never give up
i know i can never win
i feel alone
TRESPASSED
i now know the full depths of these seas
that first reflection of my impuritys
on the surface is a beautiful hue of heavens warmth
but now i see whats beneath
the dirt on the bottom and mistrust
yet i cant help but love these waters
i have swam in them so long they are a part of me
a place only i was able to go
a warm place only you could show.. you let another see
now you let some one else swim in that sea you once gave to me
MY SKY
wispering hands pass through my sky
they pull the moon out to cry in my sky
i see the moon and recall each lie and betrayl
and my heart grows cold like my sky
a million stars die in my sky
every star a dream a hope a memorie
as they start to fade i try to catch them
but i can never reach my sky
i sit and wait for dawn and daylight
for with death of the moon and birth of the sun
etheir all signs of my stars will be burned by the sun
or the sun will light the world brighter then the stars
i will wait for my sky
HOME
home is just a dream
a fairly tale place where i felt safe
now i know it was a lie
again i watch my dreams die
with broken dreams and broken hope i still wander looking for my home
why cant i find it?
where is my heart at home?
IN A SECOND
a rain drop lands blood stains a murders hands
a life is born a loved one mourns
a lifes work fails a wrong choice is made
a old man dies happy some one gets laid
a wife is beat a scream never heard
a childs first word some one finds their way
i lay in bed alone life moves on
TIRED EYES
i look at life though tired eyes
i have seen deamons cry and angles lie
my heart aches for a home
inside i feel so alone
i look to the sky and try to let the rain wash away my pain
but the emptyness still remains
another hope fades away
i force myself through another day
BIRTHDAY POEM
think of this past year and all it contained
hold dear and tight all that remains
for today forget all you lost on your way in a sense of tragety
remnber how long life is ahead
and what still may become
but today is your celebration and all i can say is happy birthday
DISLODGE
i regret nothing
i am not fates whore
what is past is past
nothing in life lasts
every choice i made was my own
with out regret with out home
REDEMPTION
down in this hole i meet a familer soul
one that crushed me before one i called a whore
but shes changed from before but i am still sore
i forgave her for the past
but in my heart i cant forget
my heart opens to feelings before the pain
finding in my soul love will always remain
THE FEAR OF ONES SELF
my mind muddles in metaphores and madness
poetic verses pour on to paper
just so i can understand them all and
face the darkest of them all MYSELF
igorance is bliss but this is not who i am
if i cant fly i force myself to stand
even if that means alone with out a home
what i see is that i will always be me
so should i follow my heart, my dreams my screams
its hard to follow your heart when its cold
its not possible to live your dreams when they die
you cant breath to scream when you cry
sometimes i dont see the point
FROZEN ICE
thrown from heavens gates into hell and disgrace
maybe it was pride maybe i shouldnt have tried
damed to a lake of ice made from tears
everytime time there is a chance to escape i try
every time i fail i get colder
i can feel my hope dies in these old eyes
i still can cry but how long before my emotion dies
for the beauty of a poems price
the beating of wings cools the ice