you are diffrent from me thats all you see, every detail that makes me you brother is simply over looked
but my diffrence is a wall you built made by your fears and your peers,
all the hate you spent was only fear instead this one is for brittany
WORDS ON A SHEET
words on a sheet why are they writen when the only person that reads them is me,
the only one that can understand my dark world is me,
so i sit and sing my sweet songs to myself hoping some day some one will care,
that some one will reach out to me but no matter how beautiful my words,
are i am still a monster on the inside because i have been human all along ........
HOME
without you i feel alone in your arms i find home cant i stay just one night? in dreams i am with you.
damn empathy
REGRET
i have finaly escaped regained the feelings you raped, every day i fill with regret the day we ever met,
all the love i had for you is gone, this is the end of our song,
i wasted so much time and after all my suffering the fault is still mine for letting myself stay blind,
now i have moved on happily and all the feelings for you save regret are gone
i used to be so full of hate and regret. i dont regret anymore
GREEN TEA AND CANDELS
drawing in the blank paper filling it in all with songs and tales i weave and spin but my poem i shall never sing instead to be read and siad how "nice" it sounds while the story never told only sold for a simple compliement with no consent to what any of it meant or the hell and heaven i meant and deserved but whatever i became i rightly deserved
"such a sweet face traped in the stair case with the smell of her own burning hair"
A MILLION SUNSETS FOR ONLY ONE MOMMENT
all this confussion fills my head how can it last the fact you are dead,
i cant even recall all you have said,
in my own path of destruction into mislead apathy and constant rebirth
only to make me stronger in my world pf weaknesss,
what is my worhth would you have been proud or ashamed,
i certinly have not become this creature you named...
i am sorry, but i will never regret goodbye till i let your memories return
sometimes i let myself think about this
LITTLE LOST GIRL
yes she is a woman but yet she is still a little girl strugilng in her dark world,
she is never fully happy not even when her knight in black armor stay behind her in every act of love
yet as a girl she ponders the meaning of the above,
she waits for her fathers love and she knows it shall never come,
in million poems to say the same thing "i love you why do you hurt me?"
and thus this woman will stay a little girl confined in her own prison of low confidence trying to define.
damn women!
BETTER FRIEND
I am less important then the extacy of escaping ones self,
in the reflection of my inperfection you've decided me the last in line,
abandonment and feeling alone are mine,
cummnication is escaping us and our friendship turns to dust,
even though at one time i was the same as you i saw that this leads nowhere and i grew,
as much as i want i know its wrong to wish the same for you,
this is not jelusy but lose that resides forgoten inside...
this poem is dedicated to no one (i bet no one will understand what this one means but me)
DEATH
our ties to life always seem to end in blythe
as people die and thier family and loved ones cry
all those memories are laid to rest
the happiness is buried with the dead
and set aside for a diffrent day
when you force yourself to recall the wasted life
their death only reminds you how life is killing you inside.
death is never dignified
trying to find your own inter link to something left behind, barred up and left behind
but a familiar voice call out to say there is still life inside,
a key opens a door that never really was there before, you scream to fate your not its whore,
so many truths where blocked from you but now are forever unlocked to your mind,
in the corner of your eyes time slips softly and is left behind
THE EMPTY
we are the empty inside
reaching for a sky that doesnt want us
and with bleeding cuts we cannot cure
we spread our shattered wings
and wait for wings to life us up and taste the sky
even though we know these winds like everything will not last
you cant feel waht we feel
because your better than us
we are failed gods, fallen angels, lost humanity and your trash
WE ARE THE EMPTY
THESE NIGHTS AND DAYS SLIP AWAY
STARLIGHT AND WINGLESS FAITH
HOLDING ATROCITYS OF ABANDONED HEAVENS
TIDES OF WATERFALLS BLEEDING HEARTS SCREAMS
LEAVING GENTAL WHISPERS OF CIRCLES EARNED IN HELL
EATTING ASHES OF ANGLES LOST BY SHALLOW GREED
REMIND REASONS REDEMPTION IS A WHORE
SORE SOULS HURT BY SELFISH FLAME
FORSAKE IT ALL AND LET THE FLOOD OF MARYTER BLOOD
CRASH AND CRUSH THE FALLEN AWAY
SO THE STAINS AND PAIN NOR THE EMPTY WILL REMAIN
ANOTHER HEALING HEART FALLS LIKE THE MORNING STAR...