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[7/20/2001]
One thing I'm truely thankful for is having the appreciation for good food. That is to say, when dining out, the experience should not be rushed nor hackneyed. Instead, going out for dinner should be an event. In these times of fast and faster food, we sometimes forget to sit back, sip the wine (or beer), and enjoy the complicated ritual of picking choice selections from the menu, and just savor the ambience and aroma of the restaurant and its different flavours.
My parents have given me the oppotunity to really enjoy some good food when I was young. Unfortunately, I did not know or fathom just what I was eating at that young age. I mean seriously, gourmet food was when mac&cheese came with hot dogs. A toy came in every Schlappy Meal.... The family had decided to drive across Nova Scotia, taking in the scenic surroundings and its local people. I don't remember too much of the trip, except it rained a lot, and we rented out a cabin for 1 or 2 nights. But I remember a particular meal at a restaurant though. I wasn't too hungry that afternoon, so I decided to order the lobster salad. Visions of a nice salad with some lobster meat danced around my head and enticed my palate. When the meal arrived, it was a WHOLE lobster, still in its shell, with bits of romaine lettice and cherry tomato haphazardly arranged around this what I felt to be an enormous monster of a meal. I loved it! It's days like this when I wish I could dine like a king everyday. ....why, I couldn't afford a meal like that now.
[7/19/2001]
So I took this test
And here are my results Disorder | Rating --------------------- Paranoid: Moderate Schizoid: Low Schizotypal: Moderate Antisocial: High Borderline: Very High Histrionic: Moderate Narcissistic: High Avoidant: Moderate Dependent: Moderate Obsessive-Compulsive: Moderate Paranoid Paranoid personality disorder is characterized by a distrust of others and a constant suspicion that people around you have sinister motives. People with this disorder tend to have excessive trust in their own knowledge and abilities and usually avoid close relationships with others. They search for hidden meanings in everything and read hostile intentions into the actions of others. They are quick to challenge the loyalties of friends and loved ones and often appear cold and distant to others. They usually shift blame to others and tend to carry long grudges. Schizoid People with schizoid personality disorder avoid relationships and do not show much emotion. They genuinely prefer to be alone and do not secretly wish for popularity. They tend to seek jobs that require little social contact. Their social skills are often weak and they do not show a need for attention or acceptance. They are perceived as humorless and distant and often are termed "loners." Schizotypal Many believe that schizotypal personality disorder represents mild schizophrenia. The disorder is characterized by odd forms of thinking and perceiving, and individuals with this disorder often seek isolation from others. They sometimes believe to have extra sensory ability or that unrelated events relate to them in some important way. They generally engage in eccentric behavior and have difficulty concentrating for long periods of time. Their speech is often over elaborate and difficult to follow. Antisocial A common misconception is that antisocial personality disorder refers to people who have poor social skills. The opposite is often the case. Instead, antisocial personality disorder is characterized by a lack of conscience. People with this disorder are prone to criminal behavior, believing that their victims are weak and deserving of being taken advantage of. They tend to lie and steal. Often, they are careless with money and take action without thinking about consequences. They are often agressive and are much more concerned with their own needs than the needs of others. Borderline Borderline personality disorder is characterized by mood instability and poor self-image. People with this disorder are prone to constant mood swings and bouts of anger. Often, they will take their anger out on themselves, causing themselves injury. Suicidal threats and actions are not uncommon. They think in very black and white terms and often form intense, conflict-ridden relationships. They are quick to anger when their expectations are not met. Histrionic People with histrionic personality disorder are constant attention seekers. They need to be the center of attention all the time, often interrupting others in order to dominate the conversation. They use grandiose language to discribe everyday events and seek constant praise. They may dress provacatively or exaggerate illnesses in order to gain attention. They also tend to exaggerate friendships and relationships, believing that everyone loves them. They are often manipulative. Narcissistic Narcissistic personality disorder is characterized by self-centeredness. Like histrionic disorder, people with this disorder seek attention and praise. They exaggerate their achievements, expecting others to recongize them as being superior. They tend to be choosy about picking friends, since they believe that not just anyone is worthy of being their friend. They tend to make good first impressions, yet have difficulty maintaining long-lasting relationships. They are generally uninterested in the feelings of others and may take advantage of them. Avoidant Avoidant personality disorder is characterized by extreme social anxiety. People with this disorder often feel inadequate, avoid social situations, and seek out jobs with little contact with others. They are fearful of being rejected and worry about embarassing themselves in front of others. They exaggerate the potential difficulties of new situations to rationalize avoiding them. Often, they will create fantasy worlds to substitute for the real one. Unlike schizoid personality disorder, avoidant people yearn for social relations yet feel they are unable to obtain them. They are frequently depressed and have low self-confidence. Dependent Dependent personality disorder is characterized by a need to be taken care of. People with this disorder tend to cling to people and fear losing them. They may become suicidal when a break-up is imminent. They tend to let others make important decisions for them and often jump from relationship to relationship. They often remain in abusive relationships. They are overly sensitive to disapproval. They often feel helpless and depressed. Obsessive-Compulsive Obsessive-Compulsive personality disorder is similar to obsessive-compulsive anxiety disorder. People with this disorder are overly focused on orderliness and perfection. Their need to do everything "right" often interferes with their productivity. They tend to get caught up in the details and miss the bigger picture. They set unreasonably high standards for themselves and others, and tend to be very critical of others when they do not live up to these high standards. They avoid working in teams, believing others to be too careless or incompetent. They avoid making decisions because they fear making mistakes and are rarely generous with their time or money. They often have difficulty expressing emotion.
Added Reblogger to my webpage! So now just click on "Comment [x]" and you can quickly add a comment to my entry, if you so wish. It is only a trial, for if reblogger dies, my page won't load either.... or so it seems. Let's give it a couple of days (week) and see where this takes me.
The problem with working hard is that it's hard work. Everything else suffers, your will to eat at a fixed time with nutrition in mind is gone. The social life you dreamed of having can be kissed goodbye. Working out? What's that??
What worries me is that I want to be a nine to five guy. How grand life would be if I could just bottom out of the office when numero "sank" (sad try at bad puns) strikes. Unfortunately, the stubborn side of me takes over, and says "You're not leaving the office until you get this DONE.... Or at the very least, understand enough of what you're looking at to have an idea so that you can be preoccupied with it the rest of the night." I hate myself at times like this. ....sometimes, you gotta do...
[7/18/2001]
Pretty Woman, according to most people who's seen it, would agree that the story is a modern fairy tale of hooker with a heart of gold, meeting the man of his dreams. They fall in love, stuff happens, they reconcile, happily ever after and all that, roll credits.
However, if you watch it carefully, you'll realize it's really the perfect man's dream. It goes: Rich man respected and fear by all his peers is hard on his luck in love. Finds a girl that men overlooked, who turns out to be obedient, faithful, and totally devoted to him (or his money). Fall in love, end of story. Really, that's what it's about. I don't wanna let the wimmen in on the "male conspiracy", but let's face some facts, although obedient may be too strong of a word, we men love the idea of the perfect girlfriend/wife who thinks that everything we do or say is tops. We want every bit of advice given to them as life changing.... Man: Wear the thong baby, it looks good! Woman: Oh my gawd! You're right, it's uncomfortable, but I no longer have a panty line! We want the woman to feel that we are intelligently superior (although in truth, we're probably not), hence the phrase: "I don't date smart chicks." Okay, so back to Pretty Woman. First thing Richard Gere's character (Rich Guy) says after he hires her for the week is "Get a new wardrobe." Julia Roberts' character (Hooker), goes right out and buys a new wardrobe, changing her looks, etc. All to please him; and it works. He's totally enchanted and mesmerized. Heck, she even let him order for her surrendering her diet and taste to him. Men also love the idea of being "first". We want the first hug, the first kiss, the first man she falls in love with. In essense, just like explorers of old, we want to be the first to discover her, and plant our flag on her soil. That's why men date bad girls, but marries the good. Remember the Hooker's rule? She'll do anything, except kiss on the mouth, because it's too "personal", or something hookey as that. See, if she sleeps for money, that's okay, because it's a business transaction. But if you try to touch her soul, you're in for a heartbreak. Well, during the scene where Rich Guy takes Hooker to the polo match, both women and men are like "Where did he find this great girl?". It's the diamond in the rough thing. We get some kind of kudos from our friends like "Good job bud. Way to pick her out of the blue!" Rich Guy takes the poor Hooker, changes her wardrobe, her manners, and gives her several tips in dinner ettiquette. BAM she turns into PerfectGirl(tm). I think deep down inside, most men believe that if they could find the PerfectGirl(tm) who hangs onto their every word, and just adores them like geeks do Bill Gates, they'd be happy. I don't know if I could be so sadistic, but I do fantasize sometimes of being intelligent. Tough, that. So you see now? Pretty Woman isn't just a fairy tale, it's the ultimate ego trip for guys. ....Woman, go make me dinner.
[7/16/2001]
For the last several decades at least (if not centuries), men have been conditioned to respond to the sound of high heels. We invariably conjour up images of sexy long-legged women strolling down the hallway, maybe with a clipboard in hand, but certainly in skirt and stockings; bounching to and fro, shaking her money maker. That and/or the scene in Top Gun, where Maverick and Goose find out for the first time that the girl they were hitting on in the bar the night before was really one of their superiors. Yowza!
I don't know when it started for me, it might have been the crush I had on my Grade 7 teacher, Ms. Gibson. She was only 23, fresh out of teacher's college, and daily babysat a bunch of rowdy, testosterone charged, pubescent 13 year olds. She used to wear heels, and you could hear her clicking down the hallway. Oh boy!! So today, I'm sitting on the throne doing my business, when I hear click-ity click. For a brief nano-second, my brain kicks into Man Mode, and a dreamy looking blonde cascades through my mind. My neurons quickly died when I realize where I was (the men's room), and that no female would be in there with me.... Okay, I petition that we ban men's shoes that click. From now on, it's a crime for men to wear shoes that make sound, unless you're tap dancing for money. ....if you cross-dress, I guess it's okay to wear pumps. Just hang a sign around your neck saying "Man in disguise."
The roar of the engines shook throughout the streets and its surrounding lake front. It's high pitching whines echoed from both the industrial and residential buildings around the neighbourhood. There was tremendous buzz through the grandstands, watching, listening, and feeling the cars as they flew by at mind numbing, heart stopping speeds. Welcome to another year of Molson Indy. For the first time in my life, I was a little part of the action.
Fido, Special K, ms. toxin and I decided it would be a blast to spend the day downtown watching the Indy car show. After a hurried lunch at Subway, We split into pairs and rode down to the races. That alone was half the fun. Today was the perfect day for a bike ride, and a brisk but leisure cruise down the DVP was what I needed to clear my head and raise my spirits. Since neither Fido nor I are morning risers, we didn't get down to the Molson grounds until 1:30pm. By then, more than half of the race had already flown by. We walked up to the window to buy tickets, and found out it was $48 per person. Shocked, we decided scalpers were probably a better way to go. Fido scored big, getting a pair Row 3 Gold seats (right by the pits and checkered finish line), for a mere $60 dollars. One of them was even a pass to the paddocks. I on the other hand, did not score, for I got a pair of Golds for $140. Yeah, shelled out big time for tickets, however, both my tickets were paddock passes. When put in perspective, each gold ticket was $225 each, it was somewhat of a bargain. Anyway, to make a long story short, by the time we sat down, there was only 15-20 laps left. The Toronto track is extremely tough, and there are a lot of crashes. This means that what I did see of race, a lot of it was run under a yellow flag. Whatever, I'm not a car guy, so I am glad I didn't sit there for the whole race. Still, it was fun and kind of exciting. It doesn't beat motorcycle racing, but I guess it was neat. ....Once is enough, it's not exactly cheap. |