"You’ve got me feeling emotions
Deeper than I’ve ever been loved, oh, oh
You’ve got me feeling emotions
Higher than the heaven’s above"

Kian babbled uncontrollably, making no sense at all. Shane looked at him from beneath the wet fringe that was hanging down his forehead as he had just had a shower.

"What?"

Kian just continued babbling.

"Kian?"

He seemed to be in his own little world, talking faster and faster, barely breathing in between sentences. Shane sat down beside him, placing his hand on Kian’s shoulder he shook him lightly. Kian stopped talking and looked at Shane in surprise.

"That’s better. Now, what’s wrong Ki? Take it slowly this time." Shane’s hand slid down Kian’s arm and rested on the back of Kian’s hand. Kian’s eyes fixed on their hands.

"Kian?"

"I, I…" Kian stammered, still looking at their hands. He wondered if Shane felt the same energy when they touched.

"You what? Come on Ki, I’ve known you 10 years and you’ve never been short of things to say."

"Shane I… I’m… gay…" Shane raised his eyebrows. "I mean… shit Shane I fancy you like hell."

Shane was silent for a long while and Kian plucked up the courage to look at his friend. His face was blank.

"Shane?"

There wasn’t the slightest movement on Shane’s part. Kian had been prepared for some kind of tantrum, but this… this was torture.

"Shane? Jaysus, say something, please?"

"Kiss me…" Shane whispered hoarsely.

"I feel good, I feel nice
I’ve never felt so satisfied
I’m in love, I’m alive
Intoxicated, flyin’ high"

Kian didn’t need telling twice. Shane’s arms slid around his body, their lips touched, their tongues explored each other’s mouths.

Kian felt like everything was just drained from his body; the passion in the kiss made him so light headed. Shane eased him down on the bed, his lips moving to Kian’s nose, his ears, his neck, back to his mouth.

Shane removed Kian boxers and they were now both fully naked. Kian felt Shane’s hard-on rub against his own, and it made him even more turned on. He thrust his hips against Shane to make him fully aware of his excitement.

Shane giggled softly and kissed his way downwards. There had been so many kiss and tell stories about Kian, and Shane wanted this to be more than just sex to him.

He wanted to make sweet love to him. To go on until they collapsed drained and limp into each other’s arms and fell asleep listening to each other’s heartbeat. He was a true romantic, and he knew that behind that lady-killer front Kian was too.

Shane’s mouth reached Kian’s erection, and he carefully kissed every inch of it all the way down to the head, then let his tongue slide back over the shaft. Kian whimpered softly, he couldn’t remember ever feeling that good before. Then he reminded himself that he’d never done it with someone he loved before.

He’d never really done it with a man before either. Well twice, but it had just been random guys he picked up at a club. Straight in there and do it. It had hurt so much, not a very pleasant experience.

"Feels like a dream
When you touch me tenderly
I don’t know if it’s real
But I like the way I feel inside"

All Kian’s senses were numbed as Shane took him into his mouth.

"Ohhh… Shane…" His voice was unbelievably hoarse and he threw his head back, mouth open. He was amazed at the feelings rushing through him; his whole body shook with jolts of sexual energy.

One of Shane’s hands found it’s way around to Kian’s butt. He touched him and then withdrew, bringing his hand up to Kian’s lips. Kian hungrily sucked on his fingers until they were wet.

Shane brought his hand back and worked a finger in. Kian tensed slightly and then relaxed as he got used to the feeling and Shane started to work the finger in and out in rhythm with his mouth.

Kian whimpered and wriggled, the feelings were amazing. Just the fact that something so simple could make him feel this good. It was beyond his wildest imaginations, and he’d been lusting after Shane for longer than he’d admitted to himself.

Shane worked another finger in, then a third one and Kian bit the corner of the pillow to stop himself from crying out loud. He was unaware of the world; the only thing that existed was Shane and the feelings he brought to his body. Those unbelievable feelings.

Kian came all too soon, and although Shane’s erection hadn’t even been touched he came from the pure pleasure of bringing Kian satisfaction. They embraced each other and lay down to sleep.

"You’ve got me feeling emotions
Deeper than I’ve ever been loved, oh, oh
You’ve got me feeling emotions
Higher than the heaven’s above"

Kian opened his eyes and blinked at the stray rays of sunlight finding their way in through the gap in the curtains. Everything slowly came into focus and he found himself looking at Shane’s peaceful features. His heart skipped a beat as the night before filled his mind.

After all those years of torture, he’d finally taken the chance to tell Shane, and the outcome had been the best possible. For the first time ever he felt happy and complete, there was no urge to wake his lover up and tell them to leave. Not this time because it had been more than sex. So much more.

Shane opened his eyes with a sigh.

Kian smiled shyly. "Morning…"

Shane smiled and pulled him close, "Good morning… any clue what we’re doing today?"

Kian pretended he was thinking for a while. "We’re spending the next while waking up, then we’ll have to get up, shower, have breakfast… then we have about 3 hours to do whatever we feel like before we have a radio interview this after noon, and a photo shoot after that," he replied matter-of-factly.

"Sounds reasonable," Shane said and gave him a soft kiss.

After a few more minutes of yawning Shane stretched and sat up. "I’m starting to feel awake, how about that shower?"

He smiled and winked at Kian as he got off the bed and made his way to the bathroom. Kian followed suit.

"In the morning when I rise
You are the first thing on my mind
And in the middle of the night
I feel your heartbeat next to mine"

They spent the morning moping about in their room, talking about their future, and everything else. Then they met up with the rest of the lads, and trying to act normal was a bit of a torture.

Well, the interview was ok, but the photo shot was a bit harder. The photographer wanted them to have a play fight on a big sofa. It was hard being that close to each other and pretend everything was normal.

But when they got back to their room all the torture was worth it. Shane wanted to watch a movie on telly, and Kian liked the idea of cuddling up on the sofa with a tub of ice cream and just be close to each other.

He realised now why he’d never been able to settle down. Not only had he loved Shane, but all those people had never really loved him. None of them had done this much for him, they’d probably all been wanting him for a bit of sex, their own fifteen minutes of fame.

The movie was ‘To Gillian on Her 37th Birthday’. Some flick about a man who’d lost his wife and ceased to admit to himself she was gone. It was quite good, and Shane, being the true-story type, had tears rolling down his cheeks by the end of it.

Kian took the chance and kissed them all away. He felt a warm feeling looking at his crying boyfriend. He just felt protective, like he wanted to take care of Shane. And, he knew he wanted to, and the feeling was mutual, which made it perfect.

"It feels like a dream
When you love me tenderly
I don’t know if you’re for real
But I like the way I feel inside"

They ended up kissing in bed, Shane giving another blowjob to Kian. As he finished off, he took a panting Kian into his arms. Kian caught his breath and soon lay still in Shane’s arms, a happy sigh escaping him.

"Kian?" Shane whispered suddenly.

"Uh-huh?"

"Have you ever been…" he trailed off.

"Fucked?" Kian asked straight out.

"Yeah," Shane said as a slight scarlet colour rose in his cheeks.

Kian nodded.

"It wasn’t pleasant?" Shane could read Kian’s body language from watching him for so long.

"No." Kian said shortly. He felt Shane hand run down his back.

"Would you let me?" Shane’s voice was barely a whisper.

"Now?"

"Well, yeah, but if you’re not ready…"

Kian considered. He wanted this, and he was sure Shane knew what he was doing, and that he’d be careful.

"Go for it," he replied and turned onto his stomach.

He could sense Shane’s nervousness as he found some Vaseline and dipped his fingers into it.

"Tell me if this hurts Ki…" Kian nodded. Shane carefully worked the finger in, Kian tensed and relaxed. Shane worked another finger in, then a third and with that he was satisfied Kian was loose enough.

"You’ve got me feeling emotions
Deeper than I’ve ever been loved, whoa, ho
You’ve got me feeling emotions
Higher than the heaven’s above, oh, oh"

Shane easily slipped the condom over his hard-on and positioned himself.

"You’re sure about this Ki?"

"God Shane yeah, just…"

"Ok, try to relax." He worked the first inch in, all the time watching Kian. He felt his tenseness.

"Ki, are you ok? Does it hurt? Will I stop?"

The pain eased and Kian shook his head. "Don’t you dare stop…"

It was all the encouragement Shane needed.

"You’ve got me feeling emotions
Deeper than I’ve ever been loved, whoa, baby
You’ve got me feeling emotions
Higher than the heaven’s above, oh, oh"

Kian whimpered with pleasure as they both grew closer to their orgasms. He felt Shane’s heavy body on top of him, Shane’s warm breath in his ear, Shane’s lips and tongue on his neck… Shane filling him up in a way he’d never have though possible. And his whimpers just encouraged Shane more.

Shane was the first to come, with a last powerful thrust, deep inside Kian. Kian felt the warmth through the condom. Shane hadn’t yet stopped coming when Kian reached his orgasm split seconds later. Current-like waves flowed through their bodies and it felt like they would never stop coming. But, they did, and they fell asleep in each others arms yet again.

"You know the way
To make me lose control
When you’re lookin’ into my eyes
You make me feel so, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, high"

Kian woke up the next morning by something tickling his neck. It couldn’t be sunlight as the sun was in his face. He turned around to face Shane, who surprised him with a full- on kiss.

"Well, good morning to you too…" Kian said with a smile as the kiss ended.

Shane had a nasty look in his eyes. "I’m horny Kian… and hungry for you… As well as that I could do with a shower…"

His voice was seductive and Kian laughed. "God, are you trying to seduce me?’

Shane didn’t answer. "I think you need a shower too, come on." He grabbed Kian’s hand.

Kian rubbed soap over Shane’s chest, and Shane leaned against the tiles, enjoying the feeling of giving himself over to Kian, who was now completely in charge of the situation. He loved the way Kian had suddenly taken charge. In fact, he loved just about everything about Kian….

"You’ve got me feeling emotions
Deeper than I’ve ever been loved, oh, oh
You’ve got me feeling emotions
Higher than the heaven’s above"

Kian finished washing Shane and turned down the water to a slight trickle. He kneeled in front of Shane and ran his tongue over his erection.

Shane threw his head back and Kian sussed it was ok to go on so he took Shane into his mouth. Shane groaned and this encouraged Kian even more. He’d never really given any one a blowjob before, so he acted on instinct and if Shane’s moans were anything to go by his instinct was pretty good!

Shane came in Kian’s mouth and Kian swallowed, standing up to kiss Shane. Shane could taste himself and it turned him on, so he deepened the kiss, pulling Kian really close to him. The kiss ended.

"You’re fantastic Kian…" Shane whispered in his ear,"‘so fucking fantastic…"

He could feel Kian smile. "So are you Shane… I’ve never been this happy before."

Shane held him tighter, sensing an emotional moment coming as tears of happiness filled Kian’s eyes.

"Oh, yeah, you’ve got me feeling emotions
Yes, you do
Oh, yeah, you’ve got me feeling emotions
Yeah
You’ve got me feeling higher"