~ Simulated ~

Simulated
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She smiles but she’s silent
Dreaming her pain away
She smiles but there’s something empty in it
Still- maybe she likes it that way

And you cannot control her
Hold her in your grip
You try to win her over
But it doesn’t work like that

Maybe she’s too real?
The meaning is unsure
You long for what you will never feel
Losing the memory of hope

The crowd is following us down
Down the twisting stairs
The beat is pulsing within light
But still- no one’s there

And in her hand she holds a box
With the moments faded to memories so deep inside
We don’t believe any more- we slowly close our eyes
Still, I refuse to say good-night

In her hand she holds a box
Within it lays my heart
The dusk faded to twilight
Everything fell to dark

Sometimes we pretend our lives away
Fantasy etching every edge
You can say we’ll never find the way
But I won’t give in, we won’t give in

Perfection- is it real?
Can it be trusted, can it be held so close?
Only to slip through the scarred fingers
Of those who tried to simulate it
You can’t simulate this perfection

Seven days and seven nights
A perfect three, a perfect fight
We gave up what our anesctor’s lost dreams died for
For this freedom, a freedom we’ve sold
Because we don’t see it as freedom anymore

And I do love you
I do love you
Even when I don’t understand it myself
I love you, every tear, every drop of blood
Shed- each for my expense
The only person, the one we betray everyday
As I push you away, say you can’t stay
I do love you
A perfection so bereft of simulation in the end...

<--- fall into my patterened tears... [return]
<---<--- catch me as i fall? [AA]