Loving Me For Me

 

I know it�s short, but all this is the reproduction of a dream I had some days ago J I know I�m having strange dreams, but not everything that is in this story also happened in my dream. Anyway, I hope you like it! AND REMEMBER: NOTHING OF THIS STORY IS TRUE! IT�S ALL PURE FICTION!

Part 1

Going out of her car, she saw her father�s friend David Coulthard entering the huge building. She followed him and saw him in the lobby, talking to another man she didn�t know � and she new many of those who work for Mercedes through her fathers former job. He used to be responsible for the co-ordination of dates in the formula 1, but now they had moved to Munich and he works there as a kind of manager for them.

David looked up to Julia and didn�t believe his eyes. She still had some of the features she used to have at the age of 15, but now she was 19 � and really pretty. She did not have that typical beauty of a model. Her natural look was amazing, the creme � coloured trouser suit she wore really fit to her skin that had a golden glimmer.

"Welcome to England, Shorty." He welcomed her with a hug. "You�re looking good."

"You�re still that bad liar you used to be!" she hugged Him back.

"Can we leave now?" a deep voice behind her, not easy to understand, asked. She turned around and looked straight into the blue eyes of a good-looking boy. That must be Kimi, she thought.

"Yeah, let�s go." David answered, pushing Julia softly.

"Where do we go to?" she asked.

"To the course. We have some tests. When we�re done, Kimi shows you where you will stay the next week. I hope it�s fine you�re staying with Kimi?! He�s having enough room in his flat." They went to the course with David�s car.

"Ehm, yes. I think that�s fine." She watched Kimi who was sitting next to her and behind David, again. He had opened the window so the wind went through his blond hair. His eyes were now hidden behind sunglasses.

When they arrived at the course, they went to a big garage where 3 F1 � cars seemed to wait for being driven.

"Hello, Julia. Nice to have you here.", Ron welcomed her.

"Thanks for having me." She smiled politely and took a look around. She felt like being home after many years of travelling. Speed, fear and Adrenaline, that�s what she called her home.

"If you�d like to, you can watch them driving over there." A mechanic said.

David and Kimi drove about 20 laps each, then Dave drove them back to the big building and to Julia�s car that she had lent for this week. She hated being dependent on somebody or something, so she pleased her Dad to pay a car for the week she would spent in England.

Part 2

 

"Turn right... stop over there, the red house." She stopped the car. Kimi and her hadn�t talked all the way to his flat, he had only given her instructions how to get to his flat. This silence made her feel kind of unwanted and thinking about staying in a hotel, the way she hat planned it, but David promised her to care about a possibility to stay. "It�s the third door on the left." He growled when they had entered the front door of his flat.

"Thanks." She took her bag and cases and entered the room. It had white walls, white curtains, the bed was white as well. The only coloured thing were the wardrobe and the picture over the bed, showing some dolphins. She started getting her clothes unpacked, still thinking about Kimi�s behaviour. She didn�t know a lot about him. In fact, it was almost nothing. She had heard he was a Finn and very talented. But that was it. Nothing else. She knew that most Finns are often cold and not very friendly, but she didn�t want to believe that this was the only reason for the behaviour he had.

 

When Julia entered the kitchen, Kimi put the dishes onto the cupboard.

"Can I help you?" Julia asked friendly. Kimi turned around quickly. "Oh, I�m sorry. I didn�t want you to get a shock or something." She felt even more how insecurity raised inside her.

Julia was a very shy girl. She didn�t have many friends at home, but the ones she had really loved her the way she was. She was always afraid of new things and it was hard for her to party the way her friends did. She felt bad dancing on parties, thought it was embarrassing for her friends and also for herself. It was also hard for her to talk to people she didn�t know well. She had never been able to talk about her feelings, even people who were close to her didn�t know a lot about her feelings.

"Oh, it�s Ok." It was the first time she saw him smiling since she had arrived this Tuesday noon. "You could put the rest onto the cupboard, then I could cook the dinner." She nodded and started doing the work.

While making dinner, Kimi watched Julia again and again. He didn�t know why, but something inside him forced him to do so. He found her pretty, in her own way. She didn�t have this perfect model - look his fianc�e , Jenni, had. But that was exactly what he liked about Julia. Kimi forced his eyes to look at the meat he was preparing.

 

"So, your Dad used to work for Mercedes?" Kimi asked during the dinner.

"He still does. But not for the Formula 1 anymore. He stopped doing that when Mika left."

"H�kkinen?" Julia nodded. "How long do you know David?" he asked. She felt uncomfortable being asked so much.

"Quite long, I can�t remember the first time I met him. I suppose I was too young. But I haven�t seen him for four years."

When they finished eating, they put the dishes, forks and knives into the dishwasher. Their hands touched by chance. Julia suddenly took hers away, shocked by the feeling she had touching him.

"sorry." Kimi said. She didn�t answer, tried to get this thoughts of him out of her head.

"Do you still need me?" she asked. He shook his head and she left the kitchen. Kimi sat down. He couldn�t believe what he felt when he touched her. He was getting married in about 2 weeks! But she was so different from Jenni. Jenni wanted everything to be perfect. That�s why they had so many arguments during the preparation of their wedding. She wanted to have every little detail to be planned. And he... he simply wanted to get married to the girl he loved.

Part 3

 

"Julia?" Kimi knocked another time on her door. It was half eight, Thursday evening. She couldn�t sleep yet. He wanted to talk to her, being bored from the English Television. They hadn�t talked all day. They had gone to the course together, and Julia had watched Kimi and David driving. But there was no conversation between them, also not when they had dinner together. Both were still shocked from yesterday evening, but didn�t know why though. They also didn�t know that they both felt almost the same. "Julia?" He knocked another time. Then he decided to go in although she hadn�t answered. Julia was lying on her bed, listening to music through headphones and writing something into a small book. He shook her on her shoulder, feeling almost the same warm feeling he had yesterday. She closed the book, her diary, quickly and then she turned around, looking into this wonderful blue eyes again. She was happy seeing him in her room, without having asked him to come. This silence between them made her feel bad.

"I�m sorry, you didn�t answer when I knocked on the door. But I can leave again if you want."

"No, sit down." He sat down on the bed.

"I was bored by the English TV. It�s only trash in it."

"I think it�s the same problem in every country." She smiled and looked into his eyes again. Kimi looked into her green eyes. They were wonderful and he had a feeling as if they wanted to tell him something. Kimi�s face approached to hers slowly. "Well, I better should turn the music off." She jumped out of the bed and switched it off. "Do you also want something to drink?" she asked.

"No, thanks." She went into the kitchen, got a glass from the cupboard and some water from the fridge. When she had opened the bottle of water, she felt Kimi behind her. His hands touched her waist, then one of them put her hairs away so he could kiss her neck. He felt she was tensed, even more when she felt his lips on her neck. She wasn�t sure yet if she wanted this.

"I can stop, if you don�t want me to do this." He whispered. Without thinking, she shook her had.

"No, please don�t stop." His kisses went from her neck to her throat. She turned herself around and kissed his lips. Then their tongs started playing with each other and his hands started to get to know her body by touching under her shirt. She did the same. Slowly they made their way to his bedroom, still kissing and getting undressed. Kimi didn�t waste a thought on Jenni and Julia felt comfortable again for a long time. He knew where he had to touch her to feel good.

Part 4

The next morning, Julia woke up by the smell of coffee and croissants. She opened her eyes and saw Kimi coming in with a tray full of everything you need for breakfast.

"Good morning. I hope you�re hungry." He said.

"Who wouldn�t be hungry after this night?" she laughed. He said down next to her and started feeding her, followed by a deep kiss.

 

When they arrived at the course, David was already driving the first laps. Kimi said some mechanics Hello and got changed. With a big smile, Julia went to Ron who was talking to David who had just parked his car.

"So, you really want to drive today?" Ron asked.

"Yes. That�s what I�ve been waiting for whole last week."

"Alright, David will give you a suite and a helmet and then you can get started." She followed David and got changed. Kimi was already driving.

"But please don�t kiss Kimi�s car or a wall." Ron smiled and let her leaving the garage. She started slowly, then went full speed through the first corner.

"Is David already driving again?" Kimi asked a mechanic when he parked his car.

"What about me?" David entered the garage.

"Who is driving if it�s not you? And where is Julia?" he had a craving for seeing her.

"Why are you asking if you know the answer?"

"Julia is driving?" He was surprised. He was sure it wasn�t David driving when the car went past his car, but he didn�t expect it was Julia or any other girl. He didn�t expect that any girl would drive that aggressive.

Part 5

 

After about 10 laps Julia re-entered the garage and got out of the car, where she was welcomed by Kimi.

"Why didn�t you tell you�re able to drive?" He said, more noticing than asking.

"You didn�t ask." She smiled cheeky and wanted to go past Kimi to talk to Ron, but Kimi caught her hand and gave her a deep kiss.

"You�re the most beautiful driver I know." He smiled. "And I know many..." She kissed him and went past him.

"I hope I was Ok!?!" she said when she got to talk to Ron and David, Kimi followed her.

"Ok? That was awesome!" David hugged her.

"I must confess, I�m really surprised." Ron said. It was an honour for her that he said that.

"Ehm, where can I get something to drink?" Julia asked David.

"There�s an drinks machine over there. You don�t have to pay anything." He replied and Julia went away, knotting the sleeves of the suit around her waist. She had the top of a bikini under the suit. She pushed the bottom for water on the machine and waited.

"You have to kick against it." She got shocked hearing Kimi behind her. She hadn�t heard him coming. He kicked against it and the bottle of water came out.

"Thanks." She said. Kimi hugged her and kissed her shoulders, then her lips.

"Got to go on driving." He said, took another bottle of water out of the drinks machine and made his way to his car. Julia recognised David watching her.

"Hey, what�s up!" she ran towards him.

"I�m just surprised that Kimi kissed you." He looked quite sceptical.

"So what? I like him. And I think he likes me."

"And you don�t mind he�s getting married next Saturday after the race in Germany?"

"He�s not!" she didn�t want to believe what David had just said.

"I�m sorry for you, Shorty!" Julia let her bottle drop and run away. Some hundred meters away, almost next to the entrance to the course, she said down on a bank and started crying. She was so sure that she found somebody that really liked her and didn�t only want to play with her. David sat down next to her and put her arm around her shoulders.

"You don�t have to feel sorry for me, it�s not your fault." She said. A tall dark-haired woman entered the course.

"Hey David. Do you know where Kimi is?"

"He�s just driving." He answered mad. But he didn�t know for what reason he was mad.

"Is that his fianc�e?" Julia asked when the tall woman was gone.

"Yes, that�s Jenni." She looked at her once more. She is really pretty, she thought. "Can I leave you alone?" She nodded and David went away to do some more tests.

 

Julia had called the airport to get the next plane home. She drove to Kimis flat and packed her cases. She needed to get away from here. She took her clothes from the corridor�s ground. When she wanted to leave the house, she went past Kimi and Jenni.

"Julia, where do you go?" he screamed after her.

"Home." She said in a volume that was hard to understand, even for her.

Part 6

 

At home, her mobile often rang and it was almost the same name on it: Kimi. She didn�t answer. He had hurt her feelings too much.

She sat in the living-room, thinking about all that had happened, when her Dad came in, switched the TV on and watched some interviews after the Qualification for the Grand Prix of Germany.

"David went 2nd." He said although nobody had asked. Julia simply nodded. "You�re sure that nothing special happened in England?" She just wanted to talk, but then she saw Kimi on TV. She got hurt seeing him, but she started smiling as well, being remembered at the wonderful but short time they had spent together.

"So, you went 6th, you�re Ok with that?" the reporter asked.

"No. Not with that car. I know what the car is able to do."

"Luckily the car doesn�t change anything about a wonderful wedding next week right? Good luck for that."

"There�s no wedding." Julia got kind of shocked. "And you don�t mind he�s getting married next Saturday after the race in Germany?" David had told her when she was in England.

"I don�t understand... what�s the reason for that?"

"The reason is green eyed, female, German and just wonderful." Julia couldn�t believe in what she had heard. He seemed to have another one. She couldn�t believe to have been so wrong. She stood up and ran away to Liz, her best friend.

"Hey Sweety! I�ve got a surprise for you!"

"I suppose I�m not in the right mood for a surprise."

"Come on. I know you like racing and especially the Formula 1. So... you and me... we�re going to the Grand Prix tomorrow... and behind the scenes!"

"I won�t come with you." She said sadly. Liz didn�t know what happened in England. And she didn�t know that David was a friend of Julia.

"You can�t leave me alone!" Liz talked to her a lot.

Part 7

Hopefully I won�t see him, Julia thinks when she entered the course together with Liz. They went past some celebrities and many trucks, but Julia didn�t give a damn about all that. She just wanted the day to be over.

"Julia!" David screamed when he recognised the brown-haired girl. Julia turned around and saw him coming towards them.

"Hey David. That�s Liz, my best friend. Liz, that�s David." They shook their hands.

"Come with me, Kimi will be happy seeing you."

"No. Please don�t tell him I�m here." But it was too late. Kimi had seen her talking to David and now he stood behind her.

"Julia." He only said. She wanted to run away but she realised that it wouldn�t make sense. Kimi wanted to kiss her but she pushed him away.

"I don�t want to be another girl in your collection, or however you want to call that." She wanted to go away, but Kimi didn�t let her. "I have seen that interview yesterday. You better go to Jenni or that green eyed, German and wonderful girl." Kimi started laughing but Julia didn�t understand.

"That girl... that�s you, Julia." He smiled. She couldn�t believe what he had said.

"I don�t understand. Can... can you repeat that?"

"Damn, Julia, there�s nothing to understand. I love you. That�s it." She smiled and fell into a deep kiss with him.

The End J

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