Although it was very, very difficult for me to do so initially, I did end up talking about what happened to me. It is not hard to imagine what kind of reaction I got from a couple of people whom I told about it. I twas quite hurtfull and disappointing that they were unable to support me in the way that I would have hoped.

Two of my friends, a married couple I have known for years, were the first people I talked to about it. They are both what I would consider to be open-minded about most things in life. I met them years ago in a club and we had a special relationship between the three of us before we all settled down to beingreally good friends. This is why I thought that they would be supportive of me and why I went to them first of all.

It still makes me sad whenI think of how they treated me when I told them about my experience. They started off by saying that it was just me finding "new ways to lose my panties" and that I was obviously "still up for experimenting" and they ended up by making a cheap pass at me and asking if taliking about it was getting me hot.

I haven't seen either of them since and although I am really angry and disappointed in their reaction. I thought at first that they were just joking about it to help me relax and talk about it and I kept waitng for them to make me feel supported but they didn't and it really upset me a lot.

It has however made me more determined than ever to find ways to discuss what happened in a secure and understanding enviroment. Actually, that is one of the reasons I have started the discussion list and posted my experience on this site.

One of the few other people I told about it was someone I never thought would be inclined to help but turned out to be the most supportive of all. I hadn't seen much of her for over the last six or seven years, but when we were studying together we were quite close and spent a lot of time with each other. Although she is not always serious about things and is even wilder than me she turned out to be the best listener and asked things about what happened to me in a really sensitive and understanding way.

She asked all about things like the headache I had before I went out and if I maybe I had still been a little drunk and not realised it at the time and stuff like that. It was so good to feel her on my side and helping and supporting me.

I have told a few others about it too although I never went in to as much detail with them. Maybe if I remember more about it I will tell more of the people in my life about it but for now I want to make sure I only talk about it with people I trust or with others who may have had similar experiences. It is also important to me to feel that I don't have to talk about it all time and that I can choose exactly where and whenI do discuss it.