ASPHYXIATION

It seemed like only yesterday the innocence of youth
Was everything we needed just to hide us from the truth
And keep us understanding

Today it's not just toys and games; we play with people's hearts
Not understanding still of how to fix the broken parts
We try to make things better

So stop me if I'm going wrong, I know not what I do
There's nothing that I'm certain of, there's nothing more that's true
And we may find in time that I am not as brave as you
I haven't got a plan, but if I did, well I'd be sure to follow through

The days have grown more cloudy here, the skies are not so clear
There's less that scares us now but there is so much more to fear
It's not just in your closet now

And there's no hiding under safety blankets anymore
The world is not as pastel-trimmed or rosy as before
It's old and cold and you're alone, so

Stop me if I'm going wrong, I know not what I do
There's nothing that I'm certain of, there's nothing more that's true
And we may find in time that I am not as brave as you
I haven't got a plan, but if I did, well I'd be sure to follow through

You're all alone and nobody understands
It's kinda hard when nobody holds your hand
Just trust in me, and I'll get us out alive... somehow

So stop me if I'm going wrong, I know not what I do
There's nothing that I'm certain of, there's nothing more that's true
And we may find in time that I am not as brave as you
I haven't got a plan, but if I did, well I'd be sure to follow through





BREAK ME

Just one more night and a party that has gone too far
Just one more time that I'm left alone with my guitar
And you're upstairs, back to all the same old tricks again
No help at all

Well once again, I can't help it but I think it's gross
You lost your mind and you're wearing other people's clothes
With latex lips, you come up to me and ask what's wrong
No help at all

Take me
Make me
Do you want to break me?
I'm not gonna be around when others hold your hand
Clue me
Through me
Never wanted to be
Did you ever take the time to give a damn?

One month later we are hanging out in front of school
You're high again, and you're breaking every single rule
Your fucking friends, they just get a kick out of it all
No help at all

I hate it when you go off and do those stupid things
The booze and drugs and the fucking up it always brings
You say it's them, but it's not like you ain't part of it
No help at all

Take me
Make me
Do you want to break me?
I'm not gonna be around when others hold your hand
Clue me
Through me
Never wanted to be
Did you ever take the time to understand?



CRY FOR HELP


Sometimes I feel like I'm the only one who sees
The burning wrongdoings they don't show on TV (Do you see?)(Is it me?)
And yet there's so many who share my state of mind
How can you just ignore the thousands who cry? (Tell me why)
(Tell me why) you believe we'd be willing to die

Well this is just a cry for help to anyone who cares
Anyone who looks outside and ends up feeling scared
Those who clout and feel no doubt are plentiful and strong
And won't discuss the rest of us or take heed of this song


Someday you'll see that it was all just a mistake
Made in a game that we could not afford to play (Then we'll pay)(All someday)
So what do four hundred lives truly mean to you?
Are they another simple power-grabbing tool (you can use?) (And abuse?)
Find yourself another mindless fool

Cause this is just a cry for help to anyone who cares
Anyone who's got a shred of sense in what is fair
Those who clout and feel no doubt are plentiful and strong
And won't discuss the rest of us or take heed of this song


Then you'll retire to your mansions and your pools
And leave the world behind to clean up after you
Well you may rule the land of fools but it's my planet too
And I'll continue living despite what you plan to do (So fuck you)
(Tell me who) will be there the next time you accuse?

So this is just a cry for help that I know you won't hear
What's it like to be the only one who feels no fear?
When it's done, you'll be the one exposed of all your lies
While we'll be left to carry on and struggle to survive
Without you, we will carry on and learn how to survive





SOAP OPERA

Get back home, flip the TV on
The daytime marathon's begun
Rich tycoons and their slutty wives
The drama of their fucked up lives

I ask myself now and then
"Do I want to be like them?
Would I want to cry all night
After yet another fight?"

No, I don't want to waste my time
Growing old in front of the camera
I don't want to live my life
In your little soap opera


Sick of every bullshit line
What's it gonna be this time?
What will be your explanation?
I dread the next revelation

"She said, he said" I don't care
Makes no difference, just hot air
It's the perfect compensation
For self-inflicted complications


I don't want to waste my time
Growing old in front of the camera
I don't want to live my life
In your little soap opera


It's not hard and the problems you've got
Are your own results
Then you play psychologist
And claim it's not your fault
And I've got no time to find out
What you're all about
So drop me a line
If you ever
Get yourself figured out


Cause I don't want to waste my time
Growing old in front of the camera
I don't want to live my life
In your little soap opera






BROKEN CAT

So you say things are going well
And you're bored of your life where everything is right
Then you meet the girl who becomes your world
On a cold and lonely dreamlike night

And despite all your mind's warning pangs of thunder
You will talk and relate for an hour or two
But trust me, man, you don't want her number
You have no idea what you've gotten into

So tell me why
You'd consent to cry
With a broken cat
In her red bow tie
And as you begin
To let her in
You bet she'll never do the same for you


So you've gotten scathed and bruised and broken
Have you learned your lesson yet, my friend?
Don't say she didn't try to warn you
It would all happen with her again

So what do you say when you've fallen down?
Will you turn around and walk away?
Or are you all set for another round?
Can you spare any room for some more decay?

Then tell me why
You'd consent to cry
With a broken cat
In her red bow tie
And as you begin
To let her in
You bet she'll never do the same for you


And maybe someday you'll understand that
This isn't what you want at all
But will it be too damn late then?
Has your life become one great fall?

So tell me why
You'd consent to cry
With a broken cat
In her red bow tie
And as you begin
To let her in
You know she's gonna play her game
You know you're gonna go insane
You know she'll never be the same to you






LEMONS

When I look into my yearbook, I try to find a face
That I can know will help me get up, go on and leave this place
But then it seems that there's no one there that's still left hangin round
Well maybe they've all got something that I haven't just yet found

And now I see
There's nobody but me
Who seems to give a fuck about what's real
Well I can't live a lie like you
So I just think I'm going to
Go squeeze you dry
Then throw away the peel

Are they so much better off when they take what they can get
And is it simpler just to live fast and not have one regret?
Although I see now I'm just as bad when sucked into this fray
Well I am not that kind of person so I wanna get away

And now I see
There's nobody like me
You do everything just like how you feel
Well I can be a user too
So I just think I'm going to
Go squeeze you dry
Then throw away the peel

How can it be
That nobody but me
Can seem to want to know about what's real
Well I can do it your way too
But I just think I'm going to
Go squeeze you dry
And throw away the peel





FRIDAY

Friday, not another weekday
Just another screenplay
Of sentimental tears
Friday, not a time of payday
Just living in the same way
For so many years

And now you say that I should stay
But I just want to fly away
I don't care if I'll be back home by Friday

Friday, a tired, broken cliche
A long forgotten birthday
Of frozen winter nights
One day of Mardi Gras on Broadway
And parties in the driveway
With festive neon lights

And so you say that I should stay
But I just want to fly away
I don't care if I'll be back home by Friday

Yesterday is just a past away
I don't care if I'll be back home on Friday

And so you say that I should stay
But I just want to fly away
I don't care if I'll be back home by Friday




FIAT

Thought I heard it all
Just a thousand times
Stories of my life so hard to see
How can I dissect
The wrong from the correct
When I can't see and inch in front of me?

You tell me that your word is good
But I can't know for sure
Faith is not an option left for me
My neurotic mind
Is running out of time
I'd rather live in cold reality

Make me believe, make me understand
Your word is not a warranty
Show me the way, follow what you say
Remember that your fiat isn't
Good enough for me

A picture's worth a thousand words
An action's worth much more
Cause what you do speaks more than what you say
Substance is the key
To each reality
So tell me what you mean in silent ways

Make me believe, make me understand
Your word is not a warranty
Show me the way, follow what you say
Remember that your fiat isn't
Good enough for me

Make me believe, make me understand
Your word is not a warranty
Show me the way, follow what you say
Remember that
Remember that
Remember that your fiat isn't
Good enough for me




ENDGAME

So this is it
It's how it ends
Some things just couldn't last forever
Between old friends

So now I look into the last day
And now I look and I'm not there
If I could look into tomorrow
Would I even care?

Never thought that it would break
Now I learned from my mistake
Hoping all will come out in the endgame

Another day
It comes so soon
And I have never thought that I would
Live it without you

So go and find what you believe in
Be brave and follow your own way
Hold tight to everything you dream of
I'll see you someday

Just a day that came too soon
Just another Waterloo
Nothing lasts forever in the endgame

One more day till all is lost
One more friendship is the cost
But at least we're wiser in the endgame




JOSEPHINE

A daily cycle of regret is what I'm used to
A life where I can't even recognize myself
You're but a photo that sees what I'm reduced to:
A fool who stares up at it sitting on the shelf

I wonder where you've gone, what person you've become
Just hope and pray that it's a better one than me
When we were just sixteen, we had the biggest dreams
And there was never a thing that we couldn't be

But all the stormy weather
Has cast a cloud of grey
The times we were together
Have those days truly gone away?

-chorus-:
Little girl, I need you to remind me
Of all the things I've been
Little girl, I pray you will provide me
Salvation from my sins
Little girl, I hope you will remember
The days of fun and toys
Cause if you do I can be your little boy

I'd rather look at our old photos in the album
Than stare so blankly at the mirror on the wall
There were no worries or we never thought about them
And here I'm alone thinking of it all

When all the stormy weather
Has marred the brightest day
I thought to myself
"Never has happiness seemed so far away"

[chorus]

Is there chance for atonement
Or am I too damn late?
So all the stormy weather
Has made me want to say
Josephine, could you ever
Come back to brighten up my day?

[chorus]

And all the stormy weather
The raindrops, how they fall
The days we were together
Do you remember them at all?

[chorus]








TERMINATOR

Sometimes I wish I was a Terminator
A machine of metal with a heart of steel
With strength to match a will of iron
And the inability to feel

And I wish I was a Terminator
With a silicon mind in my head of steel
And no room left for doubt or remorse
Every wound is small enough to heal

And I would never have to die
And I would never say goodbye
And I would always wonder why
All the other people cry
Because crying is a human thing to do

Sometimes I wish I was a Terminator
When my mind and my mission would both be clear
When it's do or die, I would do, not try
Cause I'd never know the sense of fear







LOST IN THE WOODS

Here is a tale of a boy who left town
And town after town behind
He grew up in stages in different places
For over a decade of time
And oh did he yearn
To someday return
To the streets and the friends that he'd known
The kids and the concrete had weathered and aged
And left him forgotten alone

Heaven tell who could've seen
The image he saw in his dreams?
He said "Why did these things not turn out like they should?"
A foreigner here in this place once held dear
He'd rather be lost in the woods

Here is a tale of a boy who moved on
After losing the time of his life
With the girl that he dreamed
Would grow up to be
His beautiful fairy tale wife
And when he came back to the street by the tracks
He found her sitting at home
The bride of another, a child and a mother
She now had a girl of her own

Heaven tell who could've seen
The image he saw in his dreams?
He said "How did I know this would lead to no good?"
A stranger to them, he turned once again
And found himself lost in the Woods

And he'll paint a picture for you
The kind you may see in your sleep
And rain will come down
And patter the ground
As the colors shall burst out and weep

He said "Why did I think it so much a surprise?"
He said "What did I know of the justice of life?"
He cried "Would I say my goodbyes if I could?
Then see you no more, I'd head out the door
Don't want to be lost in the woods"

And battered and broken,
The boy ran back home
And under the covers
He wished he had somewhere to go





BLEED FOR ME

I said things weren't right
About the way I feel tonight
I'd never known you'd take so bad
To make it work again

I've seen a flame within
Your cracking shell of broken skin
Slashed down the middle with an iron blade
Is that the price to pay?

And yet again it seems to be
Another way you bleed for me
Although I never wanted any more from you
Than you could be

You heard the things I said
What meant they in your head?
Did you again take my despair
As failure of yourself?

What if I were to say
There was no other way?
What's done is done and you have no
Control of it at all

And yet again it seems to be
Another way you bleed for me
Although I never wanted any more from you
Than you could be

And once again you show me why
We barely have the strength to try
Although I did think things would work out
But there is no end in sight





HEY LUSEE

Hey Lusee, can you see me standing in the corner? 
And by now you'll find out I'm not what you have made out 

And when I'm by myself, I just don't understand 
Why it's not hard to try to not be who I am 
I'm left around again and I guess I'm to blame 
Before you leave tonight, I'll have but just a name 

You kissed me 
Could this be one of your whims of pleasure? 
So screw it, I knew it 
We'd never make up through it 

And every time you're there, I start to understand 
Why you want me to try to not be who I am 
And then you'll leave again and won't be back by 10 
When you'll come crawling back, I won't be there again 

Again I am paying for it 
I can't stay and just ignore it 
Maybe I'm just gonna leave you 
I see, and I won't believe you now

So when we're done and through and I've left out the door 
And you're left all alone and crying on the floor 
Maybe you'll think back at the things I said to you 
And try to change to be like me, unhappy too 





TISSUES (CALL ME)

When all is said and done, it's been well worth the while
Know we can only live so long in our denial
For better, not for worse, tonight will be the last
Day of what will surely be a life-long story past
So please have strength to let it be now

And call me if you've got nothing to do
Call me when you need me there for you
Call me anytime you want
As long as you remember that
You never need to call me yours again

How many nights I stayed up, thinking all this through
How many fights have I had on the phone with you?
And every evening we made up before we said goodnight
To sleep inside our heads while thinking everything's alright
But all dreams have to end someday... today

So call me if you've got nothing to do
Call me when you need me there for you
Call me anytime you want
As long as you remember that
You never have to call me yours again

So call me if you've got nothing to do
Call me when you need me there for you
Call me anytime you want
As long as you remember that
You never have to call me yours again