Boy, its been awhile since i wrote, alot going on. Happy New Year to you, and I hope everything is well for you.

So, i am smoking, ok, not the most motivated person right now, but, you think i would be. I just went through lazer surgery because of cancer, half because i smoke. I waited since October 2005 for the operation. All is well in that area, i go for followup soon. Not the most pleasant thing to go through.

So, I am smoking again, (YUP) (YUP) and now went to the doctors and i have a tumer the size of a golf ball inside my right breast, its benign, which is good right. Well, you would think, for one who is going throug all of this shit, one would be so motivated to quick. I am having such a hard time with it. My fiance is doing it this time around with me, its easier now than before. Oh well, i say NOT GIVE UP and KEEP TRYING. Eventually we will both be smoke free, i say before spring gets here anyways. I can't wait i just hate wearing nylons. Get the toes all dolled up again.

Enough on that matter. I really miss my mom.

I could go on and on about her. I love you mom and will always miss you, no one can take away that pain inside of me, the sadness that i never got to say goodbye to you. Won"t ever forget. Maybe in time i may forgive, i mean Learn to forgive. But Won"t ever, EVER forget..

As for work and love, everything is good. Still happy and in love with my fiance and work is going to happen this year for me. So long I waited, its my turn now.

So we got a new jack russell, what a sweetie, she is a fast one. They both just love each other. She hops around the house like a jack rabbit. But of course, king just wants to have her, hummmm..... TO KING AND KATIE forever. Don't you just love animals.

Anyways take care and god bless.