yeah i know it looks like crap, but since diary-x exploded i can't really do much better, haha.

i've been feeling a million things lately.  mostly i miss my old ways, i think. 

i feel like writing again, like maybe it will help me out.  i've been depressed.  mom died, i left home, went to the butt end of nowhere with nobody but me and my love.  i know, it was a stupid move.  what was i really expecting?  heh.

but it was something i had to do.

and now i'm trying to find everything after all that.  find a happy me again.  i left it behind in january 2005.  so, we'll be taking it from there.