July 8th 1999
I haven't written much since i got this section of my page up! i am sorry for that! Alot has been going on lately and i am having trouble dealing with s soomething that happened. I have started working in the kitchen at the restaurant i work at. i was washing dishes for 10 months and now i am cooking. I like getting the money and i like the people i work with! hehe! In Mirc today i got to chat with a guy i cared alot for a long time ago! He disappeared for months and I was so worriee but gave-up all hope of finding him because nothing doo ever happenes in my life... About the thing that i am having trouble dealing with: I went out with this guy, Eric last year and we went out for two weeks broke up got back together then stayed together for three months and we decided we were bettter off as friends! it was hard for me to accept our break-up but i really had no choice! we became best friends and we were really close for a while! School started and we were into partying and drugs and shit... then something happened and we grew as far aprt as two people could be but we promised to stay best friends through good and bad! Well he ddropped out of school after Christmas and moved to Ottawa! He never called me to talk or even just to tell me that he was alive. I just accepted the fact that he didn't care anymore. He moved back to his parents place about a month after moving to Ottawa and h called me to tell me he wasa lrigth and to talk. We talked for three hours! It was awesome i love talking to him! I actually love him more than life it's self1 he is my reason for living! Anyays... he said he would call back but he never did! He had said something about moving to montreal with his friend Ian but i didn't think much of it! So around my 17th birthday, i thought he would at least call to say hi or something to show that he cared a bit! No call what so-ever! Oh well.. shit hapenes! My friend, Kas brought me to eat out for my birthday and to my suprise all my friends were there. We had a great time! Eric's neighbous, christine showed up to tell me that eric was moving to montreal that week and that he was sorry he couldn't come to eat with us! I was crushed but i was infront of so many peple that i had to act cool! so i did and i ggot home and cryed! My best friend in the whole world was moving away from me and didn't even take two seconds to call me and tell me! I am crushed andI can't seem to get over it! I geus i really have no choice but i just am having alot of trouble dealing with this one... anywqays i am going to go now before i burst out crying or something! oh yeah! my sister is moved in with me! she is going to ottawa u next year! i am leaving for quebec city this suday. I think it will d me alot of good to get away from things for a bit! let me try and sort a few things out.. well i am of for now! i will try and write more often! Later xoxo
