This is one of those days when I get more comfort out of cc music than most anything else. Himalayans was the band Adam Duritz was formerly in and they also have lyrics that speak my mind. Half of Adam's songs feel like someone is finally reading my mind or that someone out there could actually feel the ways I do. Half of their songs make me wish someone out there could have feelings for me that Adam obviously felt when he wrote them. It seems like cc songs are alot like mini-journals...and most of them have been mine at one time or another. At the moment I think "Have You Seen Me Lately" and "Round Here" are becoming anthems for me. I have recently begun to add a page of Alternative Lyrics which are always my favorites.

In a world where regret
is a carousel ride
we are spinning and spinning and spinning
-St Robinson and His Cadillac Dreams
This Desert Life

You see yourself descending
from the building to the ground
and you see the sky receding
and you spin to see the traffic
rising up and it's so quiet
and your surprised and then you wake.
For all the things I'm losing,
I might as well resign myself to try
and make a change.
I'm going down to Hollywood.
They're gonna make a movie
from the things that they find
crawling round my brain.
-I Wish I Was A Girl
This Desert Life

All the anger and the eloquence are bleeding into fear.
-Daylight Fading

She said, "Did you think that you were dreaming?"
I said "No."
She said, "Did you think that you were dreaming?"
I said "No."
She said, "Did you think that you were dreaming?"
I said "Sometimes I don't know."
Cuz I was out on the radio.
Just starting to change.
Somewhere out in America
it's starting to rain.
Could you just tell me one thing
you will remember about me?
Can you tell me one thing?
Can you tell me one thing?
Can you tell me one thing
you will remember about me?
Shhhh Shhh Shh
Cuz there's a girl
on the car
in the parking lot
Says: "Man...Man...well come on...
come on...
come on just take a shot..."
She says, "Can't you see me?
Can't you see me?"
She says "Can't you see
my walls tumblin down?
Can't you see my walls
are crumbling down?
And can't you see
my sun stopped spinning round?
And can't you see that sky turn black and brown.
And can't you see that moon go flashing round?
And can't you see me?
And can't you see me?
Can't you see me?"

"NO!"

There's a girl on the car in the parking lot
says: "Man, you should try to take a shot...
Can't you see my walls are crumbling down on me?"
And then she looks up at the building.
She says: "I'm thinking of jumping."
She says "I'm sick and tired of life."
Well everybody's tired of something
- Round Here
...alternative lyrics from Live At The 10 Spot

This time is better than last time
I feel better today
A little discipline can lock you up inside
This time I think you shed a little light
I feel better today
A little discipline can bring you down sometimes
This time I got some other ideas
But I don't want them to hear
No, I don't want them to hear
And it may not seem like a sensible scheme
But I think I'd really like to die
Into the pit of my desire or a bed of fire tonight
-Himalayans...A Little Discipline

Ahh, this time is better than last time
I feel better today
And the music can plays and the elevator sways
But I don't really feel like dancin'
Because elevator dreams never really have much of a beat
-Himalayans...A Little Discipline

"My turn this time," he says.
"Never get better than this,
we never get better than bad."
"My turn this time," he said.
"Now I can do what I want,
now I can walk away mad."
"Cause last time we tried," he said.
"We never get anywhere
We never solve anything."
"It's my turn this time," he said.
And sticks out his chin like a man
Sticks out his chin like a man
"My turn this time," they cried.
And everyone walks in a line
Around in a circle until they die
"My turn this time," they scream.
And diamonds and babies and cars...
-Himalayans...Diamonds and Babies and Cars

Nobody says a word
"You get one chance each life," she sighs.
"And mine is just passing me by."
He walks out the door and she stares up at the ceiling
"My turn this time," they cry.
And everyone walks in a line
Around in a circle until they die
"My turn this time," they scream.
And diamonds and babies and cars...
Don't add up to anything, at all
-Himalayans...Diamonds and Babies and Cars

She planted flowers in her basement
so she has a little color when the sky runs low.
She likes the weather today
She said "It's rainin' in my head"
All of the flowers I've raised
Come up a little cloudy
Life is bitter. Life is cheap.
The cowgirl settles down alone.
Yeah, ten years out of Eden now
She's got a little garden of her very own.
-Himalayans...She Likes The Weather

If you don't stop lyin' on the floor.
You don't know what your dyin' for.
The last thing that you need is imbeciles and indecision.
The discussion nearly ends
-Himalayans...Way Home

Look at all the silly people out there
Can't you see?
Oh, all the silly people lying, crying, dying
Believe me and this is what I see
And if you don't, amuse me
We walk in circles and we walk back between indecision
Between the currents we will swim
And then it's over my friend
-Himalayans...Way Home

One or two people sliding gracefully together and apart
This sort of thing never lasts
I guess I'll realize in a day or more
I guess I'll realize when I'm twisting in the wind
After I say goodbye, I guess I'll understand why
I guess I realize
I guess I realize
-Himalayans...Wishing Well

Jaded. Faded.
Oh. I don't wanna be afraid.
Jaded. I hate it.
I don't wanna be your slave
Every wakin' hour
We break down in smaller combinations.
We spin around in different constellations.
-Himalayans...Jaded

Press it among the best years of my heart and my tears
And I want, and I want, and I want, and I want
Maybe among the earphones of my heart and my soul
And I want, and I want, and I want, and I want everything
And I want to be a raider, I want anything
And I want to be a man
What's the matter?
Didn't you think we were trying?
Hey, what's the matter?
Didn't you think I was somebody else who
could lie in the wake of you smile?
Spent twenty-six stiffening years down the drain
-Himalayans...Sailor Song

I never had light in my eyes anyways...
Maybe things are different these days
- Chelsea

I guess I thought that someone would notice.
I guess I thought somebody would say something if I was missing.
Can't you see me?
- Have You Seen Me Lately?

It does not bother me to say this isn't love.
Because if you don't want to talk about it then it isn't love
and I guess I'm going to have to live with that.
But I'm sure there's something in a shade of grey.
Something in between.
And I can always change my name if that's what you mean
- Anna Begins

She has trouble acting normal when she's nervous.
- Round Here

I wanted the ocean to cover over me.
I wanna sink slowly without getting wet.
Maybe someday I won't be so lonely and I'll walk on water every chance I get
- Time And Time Again

You get what you pay for
but I just had no intention of living this way
- Raining In Baltimore

You try to tell yourself
the things you try to tell yourself
to make yourself forget
- Anna Begins

All your life is such a shame.
All your love is just a dream.
Open up your eyes...
You can see the flames of your wasted life.
You should be ashamed
- Murder of One

I wanna be the light that burns out your eyes
cause I know there's little things about me
that would sing in the silence
of so much rejection
in every connection I make.
I can't find nobody home
- Catapult

But I'm not goint to break
and I'm not going to worry about it any more.
I'm not going to bend
and I'm not going to break
and I'm not going to worry about it anymore
- Anna Begins

You got a piece of me
but it's just a little piece of me
and I don't need anyone these days.
I feel like I'm fading away
- Have You Seen Me Lately

Well I'm all messed up.
That's nothing new.
Hey monkey, when you open up your blue eyes
I don't know if I'm wide awake or dreaming
but all I need is everything
- Monkey

And everytime she sneezes
I believe it's love
- Anna Begins

We only stay in orbit for a moment of time.
And you're everybody's satellite.
I wish that you were mine
- Recovering The Satellites

It's keeping me awake
and Anna begins to toss and turn.
And every word is nonsense
but I understand
- Anna Begins

I woke up Wednesday morning,
sometime Wednesday evening
looking for a piece of something easy to believe.
When you live out on the border
of everything and nothing,
there's nothing but waking and dreaming
- Round Here
(Barely Out Of Tuesday version)

Man I wish I was beautiful
- Mr. Jones

Gonna get me a little oblivion.
Try to keep myself away
from myself and me
- Perfect Blue Buildings

I'm in trouble for the things I need.
Hey Monkey, don't you want to be needed too?
- Monkey

She is trapped inside a month of grey
and they take a little every day.
she is a victim of her own responses.
Shackled to a heart that wants to settle...
and then runs away.
It's a sin to be fading endlessly.
Yeah, but she's alright with me
- Mercury

And why can't anybody see me?
And why can't anybody hear me?
Why is it you don't believe me?
Hey Monkey, why'd you want to leave me?
Why? Why? Why?
Why can't you leave a light on?
Just leave a light on.
Just leave a light on...for me
- Round Here

Wasted away. Wasting my time.
This picture you see
is nothing like the one I wanted painted of me
- Love and Addiction

It's all alot of oysters
but no pearls
- A Long December

What you fear in the night
in the day comes to call anyway.
And we all get burned
- Einstein on the Beach

Hey, hey Mr. Freedom...
what are we supposed to think?
Cuz I'm a very tiny person
and it worries me
- Shallow Days

We're only love...
at it's best or worst
- We're Only Love

Round here we're never sent to bed early
and nobody makes us wait.
Round here we stay up
very, very, very, very late
- Round Here

When everybody loves you,
you should never be lonely
- Mr. Jones

Who wrote the pages of our life:
Black and white
and taught me wrong from right?
Picture a heart that held you tight.
We're only love.
Spin me round and round and round
- We're Only Love

We're all the same here.
Well maybe not the same
but you know what I mean
- Love and Addiction

Seperate love from addiction:
it's not the same.
I know. I see desperation pulling my strings
- Love and Addiction

I play piano and I sing like a hummingbird and
..Oh I forgot that hummingbirds don't sing.
It doesn't matter really. You know what I mean
- Love and Addiction