6-4-00
Oh God, i hate finals. Yeah, I've been studying all frickin weekend and I don't feel any better about how I think I'm going to do. Especially chemistry. But I'm beyond help in that class. I really think I did well on math (gasp) and lit on Friday. But history....and chem? NO, I don't think so. The only part of Monday I'm looking forward to is IHOP. But that's to be expected. I hate that feeling i get when i'm reviewing and I realize I have no idea who the people/things/places/etc/whatever are because that just doesn't bode well for the exam. *sigh* And on top of that, I CANNOT concentrate. My mind starts to wander after 5 minutes of studying. But I mean it's HISTORY, so how thrilling can it be? Ok, chem is standardized and multiple choice. That's gotta be good right? RIGHT??? Tell me I'm not going to blow it, and I'll be happy.
Why aren't we allowed to exempt any finals?? Public schools do. Wouldn't the possibilty of exempting an exam make some kids work harder to maintain an A? I know I would if I thought I wouldn't have to take an exam. I mean, think about it. ONE less exam would equate to MUCH less stress. If I could be sleeping now instead of stressing over history, i would be SOOO happy!!! Ah, sleep. What a wonderful thing. I never get enough though.
If I had known it would take this long to study for history I think I would have started earlier. At least there's no essay, just a billion multiple choice and some short answers. ANd I hope I have history before chemistry because no matter what, chem always fries my brain. I hate that class. Probably because I'm no good at it. I could take lit exams all day, but put me in front of math and chem exams and it's like my inferno.
My mom keeps bugging me to go buy a shirt to match this new skirt i got, because apparently all the stores are going to stop selling that specific color all of a sudden just to spite me. Or her. Whatever. My thoughts are: study to pass chem or go endure the mall unessicarily. Yeah, killing myself over studying is kinda the lesser of two evils. You know, I don't get all you people who DON'T stress or at least study for exams. What's going on in your head? I may not try very hard or commit myself to studying or give as much time as I should, but at least I care! At least I think about it! Hm, maybe I'd rather be one of you. Maybe not....who knows, i'm tired. I want a nap, but I know if I take one, I'll never get out of bed. I"ll wake up and it will be 6 monday morning and I'll hate myself because I won't study. I can't believe I missed the MTV awards last night!! I was looking forward to them and didn't know when they were! And I know MTV airs the show over and over but it's never the same. The first time is live and funny as crap cuz it's not censored or anything. Oh well. I have to settle for adulterated entertainment. MTV has been airing real world marathons all week or whatever up until the premier next tuesday of the new season in New Orleans. Yippee. I hate that show but somehow, like some black hole of television, it always sucks me in. For some strange reason that's beyond me, I become fascinated by the pathetic lives of these LOSERS on tv- ooh, who will sleep with whom, is he gay, are they gonna kill each other? Maybe I"m trying to live vicariously through them....but that would make my life MORE meaningless, wouldn't it? *sigh*...two more days. TWO MORE DAYS. And three more finals. Then i'm free.
I hate it how nobody ever signs my guestbook. YEAH YOU, YOU HEAR ME??? SIGN MY GUESTBOOK!! I love it when people sign my guestbook because it makes me feel special, and nobody ever does anymore. Oh well. Maybe I"ll start signing it myself.
I got the High Fidelity soundtrack on Friday and that is one great CD. I can't get enough of "Fallen for you" by Sheila Nicholls, "Let's get it on" by Jack Black, and "I believe (When I fall in love it will be forever)" by Stevie Wonder. Three great songs. There's also the Kinks, Bob Dylan, Velvet Underground, and Elvis Costello. Grrrrreat stuff. If you haven't seen High Fidelty.... WHAT THE HELL'S THE MATTER WITH YOU??? GO see it right now, it's totally worth it. John Cusack is great at playing losers with pathetic love lives. Speaking of, have you seen Say Anything? AAAH!!! I love that movie!!! "You must chill! You must chill!!!!" hahahaha cracks me up every time.
When I was waiting for Jessica's break to start at Barnes and NOble on friday, i started readin this book called uh.....hm....The ANswer is Yes. I really liked it. If i had had any money, I would have bought it. I also saw this really attractive guy (barnes and noble was crawlin' with them friday) and we kept eyein' each other, but i think he had a kid. Weird. He looked only about well, ...25....hahaha. He was still fine as crap. This straight black hair that came down to his eyes....wearin' a black shirt and jeans....what's wrong with me??? Why am I so hormonal???? hahaha if you only knew the half of it......
I was really excited last night watchin the news. Have you heard about the cities they've dicovered underwater off the coast of Egypt? Almost intact!! They've brought up Isis and Osiris statues (if you've read anne rice, or if you're semi-aware, you'll know who they are) and that is so thrilling! No, I'm serious! I wanna Be an archaeologist sometimes. And stuff like this just furthers the idea. OOOOH i would love to see that stuff. hm....well enough stalling, i better get back to studying. There's gonna be a frickin map of the world on our history final!! aaah!!! Later.