7-6-00  BACK baby, back
It's been a while since I've updated.  I really love this color blue in the background.  I have nothing to write about, really.  Not even any interesting rambles.  I woke up yesterday at 3:45 in the afternoon.  I went to bed at 1:30 am.  Couldn't fall asleep until around 3.  Dozed until about 7:30.  Lay comotose on the sofa downstairs for 2.5 hours.  Wanted to die.  I went upstairs at 10:30 and got ready to go to the pool.  I am tan on the left side of my body.  The right, not so much.  I need to sit facing the sun so as to get baked all around.  Oh, what a complicated existence I lead.  And my dictionary!  I am lost without my dictionary!  I lent it to my neighbor like a week ago for something or other and she hasn't returned it.  I should go retrieve it.  But since I don't have it, i can't look up words i don't understand and I will end up spelling things wrong more than usual.  My dictionary is my friend.  Not really.  But I didn't realize how much I used it until I didn't have it.  Isn't that the way?  I borrowed Stacy's Better Than Ezra CD and I really need to go out and buy it.  I've been listening to it non-stop, it repeated itself about 4 times or so while i was poolside.  Only Jessica Taylor will know what I'm talking about here next.  When I was at the pool today the lifeguard was goofing around with these girls who looked a lot younger and i was kind of disgusted at first but then I remembered Ben.  Yes, Ben.  He'd be 19 now.  Man, what fun.  I was watching this lifeguard, right, and he was taking their picture with their underwater camera, and splashing them and whatnot and I kind of smiled to myself.  Dude, I never realized what a loser I was when I was 12.
ANYway....
I was at Starbucks on Johnson's Ferry and Roswell last night and saw Ryan Beddingfield.  I swear I see him everywhere.  I also saw Andrew Kown again!!!  Jeez!!  I dont know whether I like living in east cobb or not.  Especially when i'm between the Walton/Wheeler districts.  Technically I'm in the Wheeler district since it's oh, all of 2 minutes away from my house, but I'm also close to the Walton area.  Therefore MY Starbucks is overrun with Walton kids every time I go.  NOT that there's anything wrong with that!  *mutter mutter*  Anyway, there's some concert thing going on in the parking lot next to Longhorn's on Lower Roswell on Saturday night.  YOU need to come.  I'M going.  That's reason enough, no?? In case you don't know where that is, Longhorn's is on the corner of Lower Roswell and Johnson's Ferry.  There's an indoor soccer place across the street.  There's a little league baseball field next to it.  The parking lot where the concert is is the Natural Foods grocery store or something along those lines (you know, food I don't eat).
OK, here's something to ponder....
I was reading some women's magazine and it said that it's scientifically proven that people who sleep more....eat less.
.......DUH!!!!
I don't think you need to be a SCIENTIST to figure THAT one out, thanks!!  OK, think about it:  while you're sleeping, you're not consuming food or calories or anything of that nature.  You wake up, THEN you do.  It kind of makes you wonder what kind of stupid people out there read that and went, "Hey that sounds great!  What an idea!  Sleeping decreases food intake!  I'll have to try that!"
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AAAAAAAHHHH!!!!!!
In words close to those of Louis Black, "Don't think about that one too hard or blood'll just SHOOT out your nose!!!"
Oh lord.  I swear.  Something needs to be done about the amount of stupid people on this planet.  They're being allowed to breed!!
Good news!!!  Michael called me from the middle of nowhere in North Carolina!!  how exciting!  He had to go because someone named Trip was shooting him with a water gun repeatedly.  I sent him this really FAT letter yesterday.  He was so sad because he hasn't gotten any mail.  So send him some!  darn it, the address is downstairs, or else I'd write it here.  Hm, it's 4:50.  I'm mucho tired.  My neighbor is setting off fireworks again.  I think I'm going ot cry I'm so tired.  I couldn't even move my eyeballs this morning.  I had to turn my whole body to look at something.  At least I got a good breakfa- wait, nevermind, I didn't eat anything this morning.  I had some left over pasta around 2:30.
This book for AP US is the worst, most worthless boring piece of crap book I've ever read in my entire life.  Even counting all books by Kaye Gibbons!  I mean, it goes on for about 200 pages about Vietnam.  Most of the stuff is so obscure and pointless you have to wonder what the author's purpose is in telling you.  YEAH, LIKE I CARE that Johnson was such a pansy-ass.  LIKE I CARE that one of those many Asian leaders was 6'1" tall.  And I CERTAINLY don't care to read 45 pages about something that I could have written in 2 pages.  All this WHOLE thing on Vietnam is that we screwed up.  Big time.  Johnson had his head way too far up his own ^&* to see that we should have pulled out when given the chance.  EVERY other friggin country in the world saw that it was a lost cause and that Americans are el stupido.  I REALIZE that Communism might have taken over, blah blah blah, but God, why didn't we let the Vietnamese rebuild their OWN frickin country?  They didn't want OR need us there.  70% of why we were there in the later years once we started bombing and whatnot was to save face!  We had had the chance to negotiate with the Communists of N. Vietnam but we didn't. Nooooo, that's too simple.  We'd rather waste thousands upon thousands upon thousands of American lives on a lost cause in southeast Asia fighting for people who didn't particularly want us there in the first place.  What I want to know is, how was Johnson stupid enough NOT to learn from Dien Bien Phu?  Didn't he SEE what happened to the French?  De Gaulle WARNED him.  De Gaulle KNEW what was going to happen.  Yes sirree, but did we listen?  Nope, not at all.  If Johnson were still alive, I'd write him a nice letter telling him to shove it.  What a moron.  Folly #1: hearing only what he wanted to hear, thus disregarding all important evidence to the contrary. Follies 2-10: being stupid and slightly self-righteous.

Well, got THAT out of my system, didn't I?  It'll no doubt creep back into one of my rants again.  Have you read the Albert Camus quotes?  I rather think I would have liked to know him.  Too bad he died 23  years before I was born.  He's pretty interesting.  Some of his small, general statements are just ingenious.  There's this big fat book of all his notebooks that I wanted to buy, but it was like 17 bucks or something at Barnes and Noble, so I bought The Answer is Yes instead.  I read the first three chapters of that while still in the store.  Not that I'll have time to read it.  Once I finish that god-awful history book I have to start my REAL summer reading:  Joy Luck Club, Gulliver's Travels, and Slaughter house 5.  I'm not looking forward to reading Gulliver's travels; not only is the print incredibly tiny, but every time I hear "Gulliver's travels"  I think of Ted Danson.  And that ruins it for me even more.  Sure, yeah, he was great in Cheers.  but he should have stopped there.  Why ANYONE let him go on to films is beyond me.  WE KNOW you don;t have hair, Ted, come on you're not fooling anyone.
And I'm not going to get into specifics here because I'd like to get into college, but aren't comb-overs gross?  Hello, we all can tell that it's not natural.  It doesn't look normal.  It looks reeeeally bad.  Who are you trying to fool?  Hey, I heard bald guys have bigger sex drives anyway.  That's from yet another one of those EVER informative women's magazines that my mother likes to buy.
Ummm.....I don't get that Kittie video with all the girls chasing after the fallen angel guy.  Can someone explain it to me?  And I have NEVER heard of Crazy Town before today, when MTV played two of their videos within a 20 minute period.  They're kinda weird.  Rap/rock.  There's one guy with a mohawk or something I think.  That's cool!!  I don't like Carson Daly.  NOR do I like Jennifer Love Hewitt.  I KNOW every guy on the planet is lusting after her but she's EVIL!!  She's using her breats as a ploy!  It's to distract you, can't you see that?  oh well, you can't say i didn't warn you.  I wonder who'll win the Presidential election (like my segway?)  I really have no opinion besides negative ones on both sides.  Bush and Gore both creep me out.  They're both political losers.  Hey, why don't we keep Clinton in for a THIRD term guys?  Just to see what happens? No?  Well, ok.  He carried us into the millenium, I guess that's it for now.
siiiiiigh
I have to do journalism crap this summer. SIGH.  Can't I just do my job?  Do I HAVE to gather information and rules and crap for these ineffcient, mindless LOSERS we're getting?  God.  Someday....The more life experience I get, the more stuff I realize ISN'T worth doing.  School, for instance.  School in general is not worth attending anymore.  I've had my fill, thanks, no more.  I wonder if I should take a year long travel break between senior and freshman years.  I wonder if I would turn into a lazy bum.  I could earn money by being cute.  hahahaha.  I'm going back to Italy someday if it kills me.  Jenni bought me a bag of Starburst hard candy.  Bless her.  SHe knows how much I love the pink ones.  The pink ones are only in the GREEN bag.  I made the mistake of getting a yellow bag once.  Broke my heart- there weren't any pink.  OK my goals for the next couple days are to get my dictionary back, to get tan on the RIGHT side of my body as well, to talk to my friends via aol and phone, get sleep, buy the Better Than Ezra CD, finish this STUPID book for history, begin the packing process for Michigan, sleep some more, and try not to lose my tentative grip on sanity.
That's all for now, you can go.