9-28-00
Do you ever feel like everything's a mess even though it really isn't?  I mean, one thing goes amiss and suddenly I feel like nothing's right.  I think I'm analyzing everything too much.
On the same note, to those of you who I've seemed angry at...I'm not.  I'm not angry at you.  I'm fed up with a lot of stuff right now and I have NO way to change any of it, so I feel really...helpless?  Annoyed?  Lots of thigns are annoying me right now.  So I'm sorry if you were under the impression that I hated you or something.
I'm trying to put my finger on exactly what "it" is that's getting to me and I really can't.  It's a lot of little things that I'm blowing out of proportion.
Technically, I don't have time to be typing this.  I have a history test to study for- on the entire constitution, no less- a lot of annoying lit homework, math (which I'll do in the morning)....and I think that might be it.  I'm pretty surprised I don't have a paper to write this weekend.  I do have to write a parody of "Why I went into the woods" for lit that's due monday and I'm already supposed ot have it written and typed up but screw that.
I've decided I want to take up kickboxing.  Yeah, I don't know.  It just kind of came to me.  Who knows if I'll ever get around to it.
I'm healthy now but I'm still taking all my medication just to make sure I've killed the little bugger.  I love how it makes me all dehydrated.  That's a plus.  I'm just glad I'm not continually blowing my nose anymore.  That sucked.
I'm going to the play at school tomorrow night.  I'm the ticket taker.  Yay for me, I get in free.  You know, I really don't like how this SAT class I'm going to every Saturday morning until I'm 30 interferes with my life.  Mainly sleeping, but whatever.  Hopefully I'll remember to bring a calculator this week so as not to fail the math sections miserably again.  Wow, I did pretty badly.  We get our scores back this Saturday.
I don't remember if I already mentioned this in an earlier rant, but I really like that new Barenaked Ladies song "Pinch Me."  It's a summer type of song.  I didn't like it until I actually paid attention to the lyrics.  It kind of sounds like Shawn Mullins.
I don't like how I expected it to be cold today so I wore a sweater (my NEW nifty sweater with a "faux" pocket on the front.  I don't know how to explain that.  I also can't explain the reflector on my left boob area).  I actually got quite warm.  You know, the older we get, the less the Magazine Sale Guy has to do with us.  What happened to the coloring book trick?  And the weeples?  I kinda miss that.
I was talking to Michael about this yesterday:  The Jackson 5's "I want you back" has the strange ability to make me happy no matter what.  I mean once I hear that piano intro, it's all over.  I can't help shakin my booty when I hear that song.  Very few songs can do that to me.  Well, Ben Fold's Five "Underground" makes me pretty happy, but not like "I want you back."  That song rules.  No question.  And Save Ferris' version of "Come on Eileen" makes me happy too.  Basically music has the ability to change my moods completely and that's kinda cool.  I can manipulate myself.  I had that FREAKING Greenday song "Minority" stuck in my head for half the day because I heard it this morning while i was getting ready for school.  God that got old.  I'm listening to "Song for the dumped" right now.  That's a funny song.
Speaking of music, congrats to those of you who are going to the WHO tonite.  I'm not a fan, but I"m sure if I was...well if I was I'd be going, but I'm not.  Sigh. 
I found out today that the AIDS Walk is the day after Homecoming and the concert.  And I'm gonna walk it.  Woohoo, if I didn't I'd be a loser.  I've walked it the past 2 years and I'm not going to give up this year just because i'll be incredibly SLEEP DEPRIVED.  We're meeting at the school at 11 am.  I probably won't even get home until....late.  I don't know.  But I'm excited.  That weekend is gonna be awesome.  I already know I won't be doing ANY homework at all.  You watch.  Killian is gonna assign some 600 point paper.  I bet you he will.
Did anyone notice the huge road block on 41 today?  A cop was directing traffic and there were like 5 helicopters hovering overhead.  I kinda want to know what was going on.  Oh well.
Mrs Mozely addressed the entire high school today on how to handle reporters or the media or whatever if they want to talk to us about the accident.  So apparantly we're not supposed to talk to them.  Which blows because I thought it would be funny if a student let his name slip along with his senior quote from last year: "Drive it like it's stolen."  Jackass.  Anyway.  FST is really frustrating.  It should be so easy, and yet I'm doing terribly.
It's Joey Manguno's birthday today!  Yay for him.
It's Stacy Pettefer's birthday next weekend!  Yay for her.  That's also the day of Hands on Atlanta so I don't know what I'm gonna do....help people in need....celebrate Stacy's 17th birthday.....  (I'll probably end up celebrating but, sssh, don't tell her).  OK that's all.  I have to do something productive right now other than destressing on my website.