9-2-00
Do you ever feel totally inadequate as a human being?  I feel quite like that right now.  For stupid, stupid reasons.  None of which are consequential or meaningful or substantial.  I think I was just left alone with my brain for a little too long in a quiet house.  I tend to get very introspective and dark and brooding if I'm not careful.  If you asked me right now how I am, I would tell you "Fabulous."  Not only because that's my usual answer to that question, but because I have no concrete reason not to be.  I wouldn't answer, "Actually, right now, I'm contemplating my reason for existance as I realize that I'm wasting away valuable time doing nothing."  I just wouldn't say that.
It was my mommy's birthday today.  Yay.  We should have gotten her more presents.  Because everybody likes to get presents.  I brought home some articles saved on a disk so I can start editing for the paper.  Over Labor Day weekend.  Great.  I also apparently have an AP US History quiz (a major one) on Tuesday and have to finish my journal for AP Language.  Oh the joys of advanced placement courses.  Killian gave us a DBQ Friday, which was just a nasty thing to do.  He wasn't there, which made it seem more pointless and insulting.
Chet was at school Friday.  That was weird.  I was thinking about how in my Rain and memories and why I'm a nerd rant I said that Michael Douglas was good looking.  Upon consideration, I have drastically changed my mind:  he was good looking 15 or 20 years ago.  Yes, but I still had a crush on him when I was like 7.  Haha, that's ok.  I was at my locker friday afternoon packing up to go and Mr Clark walked by my locker and noticed my Heath Ledger picture.  He proceeded to mock me.  *sigh*  I clenched my teeth and said nothing.  That man can say anything he wants to me as long as he helps me get into college.
My mom's going on a trip tomorrow to Germany I assume and my dad's flying to Canada.  SO I'll have the house to myself from about 2 till about 530.  I only wish it could be longer.  Yes, yes, I'm keeping in mind the LAST time I was by myself for three days and how incredibly bored and lonely I was, but still.  It's always nice to have the whole place to yourself occassionally.  And anyway 3.5 hours isn't enough to do anything interesting anyway.  I'll end up sleeping till noon or maybe 11, sitting around until 2 when my mom leaves, reading magazines and eating and listening to music until 5 when my dad gets home and then remaining bored.  Help meeeee.
If you've been listening to 99x, you've probably heard the Brand New Immortals' song.  I reeeeally like that song, but I can already tell it's the kind I'll love and then get so annoyed with I can't stand it.  Like Faith Hill's Breathe.  I admit it, I loved that song when it first came out.  Now I want to hit something everytime it's on.  My horoscope today said that I'd get a late start on the day but that I'd be refreshed and ready to go.  Darn right.  I slept till 1240 and felt wonderful.  Of course, it's now 1152 pm and I'm tired.  But I loooove sleep, it's so good.
I....was going to say something, but nevermind.  Some of you may have been grossed out.  I watched 20 Greatest Teen Idols of all time on VH1 today.  It was funny.  Jordan was my favorite New Kid On the Block, and apparently he was everybody else's too.  Don't you remember the New Kids?  hahaha.  I had every tape.  I had the "bio."  I had posters.  Everything.  I loved them so much.  ANd then I hated them.  Ah, feeble fame.  I haven't added any quotes in a long time.  I also never got around to adding the rest of the sequanota pictures.  And tonight won't be the night I do it either.
It's September.  Ahaaaahhehehhahahah.  It's only September.  It feels like it should be October already.  My eye twitch is gone but it's in the other eye right now.  Week after week of AP history.  Week after week of power point.  Week after week of school.  Oh well.  I guess it's not that bad.  I just need to get used to actually doing a lot of work all the time.
I got hit on by three 15 year old guys at the movie theater last night.  That was frickin hysterical.  ONe of them asked for my number.  But the way the one guy approached me was the best.  He asked if I had change for a 5.  Classic, classic.  Those pants I wore friday are so comfy!  Too bad there's no belt loops, because they're a bit large in the waist, so they're always falling down.. I mean , not literally, they're always getting dangerously low, but...agh nevermind.
I can't wait to see that Gwyneth Paltrow movie, Duets.  It looks good even though I really have no idea what it's about.  All I know is it has been waiting to be released for ever.
Hm, I keep thinking there's nothing else to write about but I keep writing.  *sigh*  Haven't heard that BBMak song in quite a while.  Don't particulalry mind.  I'm also kind of tired of that Sting song.  I wish weezer would freaking release another cd.  God.  ANd I never got that other Better Than Ezra CD, which I was planning to do back in....oh, June??  Man....June seems like forever long ago.   It's 1208 am.  I've been online too long.
I discovered a virus on my computer on Friday.  It's the kak virus or something like that.  some little thing on Friday popped up saying "Kagou-Anti-Kro$oft says not today!"  My dad, after hours of trying to figure it out, finally got rid of it.  Stupid emeffing computer jerks out there making stupid emeffing viruses.  What the crap is wrong with you????  HUH?????  WHY THE CRAP DO YOU HAVE TO SPREAD VIRUSES ON COMPUTERS???? WHAT IS SO GREAT ABOUT IT??? YOU'RE A BUNCH OF LOSERS!!!!!!
OK that's all.