Take Each Day This morning when I first awoke
I was feeling not so great

Because last night. I was here on line and stayed up way too late

I opened up some e-mails
and read them for a while

Some of them were wonderful and some had made me smile

At first when I was reading them I was very pleased to find responses to my poem that I had written here on line

"Answer Me This" was #1 and I was taken by surprise for I only wrote it the day before and you have to realize it is such a wonderful feeling when you know that you have touched someone in such a way...that they wish to thank you very much

But later, I was disillusioned by... some responses, I did not get and also from a few new friends that I have recently met.

They see only sadness and sorrow, it seems, when they read my words. They see no humor or lightness... in other poems of mine they've heard.

They say I am "spoiled" and I am thinking only of "me"

I don't know how to make it ...any plainer for them to see, how my "feelings" are only those of mine.

What else can I do? Everyone's... are their own...and should be respected, too!

Some seem upset and let me know...that when they read my verse, that there are others, on here, they say, who have lives that are much worse.

They say, "Why are you always so sad? You have a husband and a home. You should instead, be very glad that you are not alone."

The do not understand my life, and all I can do is try, to express my feelings in my poetry...and hope to answer they "WHY"

I do not ask for anyone to "feel" the way I do. I'm just one individual with...thoughts and feelings too!

I'm trying now to decide, if I should continue to write on line.

Expressing my thoughts and exposing myself to the world, before, was fine.

I take each day...as it comes to me, now...and write straight from my heart.

The poems you see are really "me" wishing for a brand now start

And if I only "touch" just one of you, with my life will brighten from the very thought...that I've accomplished something..."real"

Written by Maureen       Thanks for your permission