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I am still not quite in control of myself when I write about Maz. I notice that I put it off, less because it hurts so much, but more because every time I write about her my eyes tear up and I can't see the damned keyboard so I can't get my letters written. And, as just happened now, my husband comes in and thinks I'm crazy, still crying after all this time. Lois said she has the same problem - we get all teared up and our respective spouses think we are a bit
gooney, still being this emotionally involved after "all" this time and over someone so "far away". I have added Loie into this letter, as she is still quite the source of comfort for me.
Ruth, you are and were such a dear to me, and I wish I had been home when you called to tell about Maz's passing. I was here in Nashville at the time on a job interview, which I had told only a few people about, and is one of the reasons I had called Maz that week - to tell her I would be here for a few days and that I was thinking about her. I still have this irrational reaction that she thinks of me being in Tulsa, when I have moved to Nashville, and doesn't know where I am, and in some ways it makes me miss her
more, especially as a lot of the things she sent to me I have printed out at my house in Tulsa, which still hasn't sold and has most of my earthly possessions. It makes me feel more removed from her, and that hurts. She had helped me immeasurably with the events that led up to my decision to move from Tulsa, but she had gotten sickest right before my job interview, which, ironically, was on December 19, and didn't know that I was going. When I knew they were going to offer me the job and I got home on the 21rst, I was SO excited to call and tell her. I hopped onto my computer and started sorting through my mail first when I found the news. I was absolutely devastated, and wasn't able to communicate with much of anyone for the rest of the week. That's why the phone didn't answer when you called, Ruth - I was initially out of town, and then holed up for the rest of the week trying to recover.
A lot of the positive things that have happened to me over the past several years I can directly attribute to having had the friendship and good advice of Maz. When I was being a large butt she was right there to tell me ;-) and when I was doing well she was there to tell me what a grand person I was. I relied on her counsel quite heavily, more than I ever imagined, and I still feel a bit lost without her to turn to for solid, earthy advice. She was a fantastic sounding board, but made sure that it was a two-way street, and I learned so much about her life and family and home, probably not as much as I should have, me being somewhat egocentric and all. ;-)
I also always admired how she stood up for what she believed in. When her and I were on the Saluki-L list together and someone was being an arrogant, rude bastard, she would often write in and say, "My, but aren't we being an arrogant rude bastard?", but usually couch it in such a way that always made me chuckle. Of course, I always thought it was funnier when she said it directly, and have to admit I often evilly urged her on towards being ruder
and blunter, much like myself. ;-)
She taught me a thousand funny words ("snark" and "whinge" being two of my personal favorites) and I used to love to tease her about her perfectionism in her spelling, dedicating myself to catching her here and there in a typo or two, and delighting in yanking on her chain, since she said her mother insisted her spelling be proper. There are a million things I miss about her and always will.
Well, that's about all I can churn out for now. I am relying on my spell check to get this letter into readable form, as I still can't quite see the keyboard. Sorry if this has turned into a bit of a ramble. All my love to you all on this Easter. :-)
Lynne Daurelle
[email protected]
From Maz's Children:
Hi,
we're back, just a quick note to let you know of our new email:
[email protected]
I hope to hear from you soon and would love for you to send that picture of
Emily to us as we have not yet seen it!
We will send some updated photos of her and the new baby, when it is born!
Love
Monique,Rohan and Emily!
----- Original Message -----
From:
To: ;
Sent: Tuesday, August 29, 2000 3:31 PM
Subject: For Maz's Family and Friends
Here is the final version of the letter with all the people who wrote
included. :-)
Hugs,
Lynne
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To Miss Emily, Rohan, Cade, Monique, and Ruth,
Thank you so much for the lovely pictures. We saluki people all over the
world miss Maz so very very, very much, and love to hear anything at all
about her and her family and friends. Everyone was quite excited to
receive
the pictures (when I finally was smart enough to send them in a format
people
could open ). I know that folks would adore additional pictures at any
time if more surface. I put together some posts I received about the
pictures, and have included them here. This is the "second edition"
because
I was unable to keep my files straight and inadvertently left out some
very
lovely letters from people who wanted so much to be included here. I have
humbly asked their forgiveness for my oversight.
For myself, there are some days I swear I think Maz is still going to send
me
an e-mail with some news or some joke, and I get an intensely lost feeling
when I open my mail and there's nothing there from her. I can't believe
how
much I miss her, and want you to know how very much she meant to me.
We all miss Maz so much and are so thankful you have kept in touch.
Please
write any time. We all LOVE to hear from you! :-)
Lynne Daurelle, U.S.
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I would like to get permission from anyone who sent me comments about
Maz's
lovely grandbaby Emily to make a copy of all the comments and send them to
her family. Please let me know if this is a problem; otherwise I will put
the comments together and send them this weekend. :-)
Thanks! :-)
Lynne Daurelle
[email protected]
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Marilena Candeloro, Italy
I see the pics just to day..... hope it is not too late.... The baby is
lovely and her parents too...Surely Maz will be happy from above to see
such
an happy and tenderly family. :o)
Marilena
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Amy Charles, U.S.
Please add my best wishes as well. Emily is a BEAUTIFUL baby! I was taken
aback by how much I could see Maz in her and in Rohan... If we cannot have
Maz physically with us, what a nice treat it is to "meet" her grandbabies
and
loved ones!
Thank you, Lynne, for forwarding Ruth's photos and keeping all of us a
part
of Maz and her legacy.
She is missed. Always.
--Chaz
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Caroline Coile, U.S.
This is an adorable baby and a bit of Maz's bright star here on earth....
thanks for sharing--
Caroline
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Sue Heather, Oman
Thank you for passing on this beautiful photo. It is lovely to see that a
part of Maz continues to live on. Regards to you all and especially to
Maz's
Family - Congratulations - you have a beautiful baby!
Sue Heather
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Lois Kinkaid, U.S.
Thanks! I think I can see some of Maz in little Emily! Cutie pie. Oh
god, I
hope Maz knows about this baby. The family photo is very sweet, too.
Thanks
for sending them. I haven't heard from Ruth in ever so long.
Love,
Loie
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Leslie Kiser, U.S.
At a friend's insistence I got on-line last year to join in the Saluki L
bunch. Struggling with the mechanics of the internet and learning a new
"language", I was nearly overwhelmed with the effort to place an identity
to
the multitude of voices behind the Salukis. Among those voices was Maz.
And
then she was gone before I ever put two and two together as to who she was
and what she means to the fancy.
But for me she will always remain the first person to literally (well,
almost) make my jaw drop and bounce off the table, make me exclaim out
loud,
"Excuse me! Did I read that right?" only to reread it and find it even
funnier and outrageous the second and third times. (Something to do with
an
antique four poster bed.)
Through you all, I continue to know her even better and have become very
fond
of her.
Thanks, Leslie
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Laurie Lehman, U.S.
Please pass on how thrilled I am to see the pics of Maz's grandbaby! What
a
darling, beautiful child. I was going to say "what an angel" but we all
know
that is Maz's role now and she is watching out for so many of us, but in
particular will be safeguarding this new, precious being.
Please keep the photos coming so we might share along the way.
Laurie
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Donna Levy, U.S.
Lynne,
Thanks, what a beautiful family. Maz must be looking down and smiling.
Donna @>--'--,--
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Sari Mantila, Finland
I don't know what to say, probably others have already said everything?
Just
that Maz will always hold a place in my heart... I feel privileged for
having known her, even if it was for a short time. I would like to see a
pic
of her grandchild.
Sari
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Anne Mayea, U.S.
Thank you so much for sending me the photo of Maz's Grandbaby - it brought
tears to my eyes to see her. How wonderful.
Anne
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Cindy Najera, U.S.
Lynne,
Thanks so very much for sending the pics. I think of Maz often. I think
it's
such a shame that she isn't there in person for the baby, but I do believe
that she is in spirit.
Cindy
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Gayle Nastasi, U.S.
Wonderful, thank you, she's adorable!!!
Sigh. Her Gramma must be so proud of her, and I just *know* she is
watching
over her like a hawk.
Maz.... you done good, darlin'. You done good.
--Gayze
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Carol Rivette, U.S.
Thank you, Lynne for re-sending them. I don't have AOL but I couldn't
open
the first set. They made me happy and very sad. I can see Maz's face in
them. I do miss her so...
Hugs,
Carol
P.S. Happy Birthday to you!
Happy Birthday to you!
Happy Birthday Dear Cade!
Happy Birthday to you!
{{{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}}}
Carol Rivette
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Else Karin Rossebo, Norway
Thanks, mom! Loved to see the photos! Tell Ruth and Rohan/fam how much I
miss
maz and how much I appreciated to see the photos! Maz would have been so
proud of them, I am sure she is watching from somewhere from - eh a place
somewhere..... ! :-) Maybe she is a star high up there somewhere?
Yesterday
it was a full moon here - I always remember maz then. I went outside in
the
garden, the air was quite warm and there were stars on the sky while the
full
moon arised - beautiful!
Just let them know we would like to see how Emily grows! :-)
Take care.
Else Karin
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Elise Shartsis, U.S.
Although I never met Maz in person, I felt I knew her....we had such a
wonderful email relationship. We chatted about all sorts of Saluki and
non
Saluki fact and fiction. What an intelligent, warm and funny woman! It
was
very easy to love her....
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Roger Shellard, Great Britain
I can imagine Maz cooing and gurgling with delight from down on high as
proud
as punch. Still sometimes listen to her voice that I have on video
soundtrack
from Lexington when she was cuddled up to my back under an umbrella still
taking the Mickey out of this pom the same as she did the first day I met
her
down in Sydney. I miss her as she was a good friend to talk to whilst I
was
working night shifts, nice to know the genes have been passed on for a
further generation.
Roger Shellard.
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Mary Siegel, U.S.
Thanks, Lynne. Looks like the line carries on in fine style. :)
Mary
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Mandy Manley Smith, Australia
THANK YOU THANK YOU
Sounds a very good idea to me to put them together.
Go for it Mummsie
Her Downunder
M
XOXOXOX
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Kim Stewart (owner of Maz's Kazik), U.S.
Lynne,
Please add that Miss Emily is a beautiful young lady. I know Maz is quite
proud - as I'm sure are Rohan and Monique.
I sure would like to know how "Aunt Cade" is doing ... I've tried to call
several times & never get an answer. Would love an email to reach her.
Kim
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Montrue Stoner-Townsend, U.S.
I just miss Our Maz. I pray that when I go (and it may be sooner that I
think) people love and miss me the way we all do Maz.
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Jaqi Ter HAAR, U.S.
What a darling baby. She looks so full of herself already.
Jaqi
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Peter van Arkel, The Netherlands
To Miss Emily, Rohan, Cade, Monique, and Ruth,
Maz's "brother" Peter van Arkel from the Netherlands wanted very much to
be
included in this "card" from all of us as well. He loved her very much
also.
Lynne Daurelle
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Anne Vigneri, U.S.
hey maz !!!... can you hear me ?? .. i know you can... pretty cool huh??..
your "baby" has a baby !!!.... with "aunties" all over the
world!!!!.......
big hugs..... anne
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Pat Wren, U.S.
WHAT A GREAT IDEA!!! Count mine in! --- and send hugs to her kids who have
got to have some of her moxie...
I met Maz years ago when she was at Santa Barbara with her lovely jeweled
Saluki collars --- wanted one at the time but had blown my wallet --- put
them on my wish list and then eventually lost her address... when on
Saluki-L
in 1996-97? I suddenly wondered if the Marilyn Scott there was the same
one--- a quick email proved it was so we had a jolly reunion online. Felt
like old pals. However she had long discontinued the collars... we just
missed connections when she was here (I am in far northern CA, right near
the
main north-south interstate freeway) and never did get back together
except
online. I miss her intelligence and wit and experience, and still get a
sinking feeling when I realize she's not available online any more... know
she's not far away, but it just ain't the same!!! My mother's name is
Emily
so I am of course partial to that name too... this little Emily in Oz
definitely has an "auntie" in California... hope her family will keep us
all
posted on her progress.
Thanks so much to you and to Ruth for sharing. I'm sure Maz is so proud of
her!!! Hugs back to you...
Hmmm... do I see Maz up in the corner grinning too?
Pat
PS Having lost a friend (father of a dear friend, actually) Friday it is a
reminder of how life giveth and life taketh away...
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