A Special Song for Grump & I

 Sheena and I had always done so much together. we were so happy and free. i forgot about her cancer, when it crossed my mind, i thought that we must have beat it. A very special song came out on the radio. This very special song made me look over at my grumpy girl, and know that dreams and wishes can come true. i still remember smiling with a tear in my eyes, looking at how happy she was, and how she loved life. i still picture sheena, smiling in the front seat, elbow out the window. This song also reminded me how to appreciate every moment we would have together on this earth. this song had so many different meanings to me, and i sang it in sheena's ear, the morning she died. the song haunted my mind the entire night, and i sang it in my head for her, hoping that she would gain strength from it, and stay with me. even if it was just for a little longer. i never wanted her not to be sitting beside me, in my truck when this song would come on. i just could not imagine her leaving me... ever.

There is a verse in this song that speaks of sleeping and dreaming... and then never wanting to leave that comfort. That night, i remembered that verse, and was terrified that sheena might feel like that, and never wake up to see the light of day again...

My worst fears came true, and i remember going to see her that last time, after she died. this song came on the radio, on the way there...and back. this song which gave me so much joy on earth. this song that gave me so much faith and inspiration, which made me feel that she would be with me forever...

now, a new meaning has come from this most wonderful song. it makes me look forward to meeting up with sheena someday. it gives me hope that there is in fact a heaven, and she will will be waiting there for me. she will be healthy and whole once again, waiting to get in the passenger seat like i long for her to do everyday that i am without her. just having this one thing in heaven is enough to make me want to stay there forever.

i play this song all the time. some days i just miss her so much, and regress to that last night, and i still have such vivid pictures in my mind of what i had gone through with my best friend in the world. it is funny how you can never forget that ominous feeling of fear and abandonment so easily.

thank you creed, for composing the most inspirational song that will ever exist in this world. thank you for that one special song that i will always hear when i think of sheena. it is such and honour to have such a beautiful song as a gift to the two of us. I will hold this song close to my heart, right beside that special place for Sheena, for the rest of my living days...



HIGHER, BY CREED

When dreaming I'm guided through another world
Time and time again
At sunrise I fight to stay asleep
'Cause I don't want to leave the comfort of this place
'Cause there's a hunger, a longing to escape
From the life I live when I'm awake
So let's go there
Let's make our escape
Come on, let's go there
Let's ask can we stay?
Can you take me higher?
To the place where blind men see
Can you take me higher?
To the place with golden streets
Although I would like our world to change
It helps me to appreciate
Those nights and those dreams
But, my friend, I'd sacrifice all those nights
If I could make the Earth and my dreams the same
The only difference is
To let love replace all our hate
So let's go there
Let's make our escape
Come on, let's go there
Let's ask can we stay?
Up high I feel like I'm alive for the very first time
Up high I'm strong enough to take these dreams
And make them mine
 
 

Written by Tremonti/Stapp Published by Tremonti/Stapp Music
(Adm. by Dwight Frye Music, Inc.)/Dwight Frye Music, Inc. (BMI)
Produced, Engineered & Mixed by John Kurzweg



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