I haven't done anything on my site today. And I haven't been to school all week. Monday and Tuesday the school was closed because the waterline or water pipe or something was broken. Wednesday and today, I just didn't want to go. I might go tomorrow. But tomorrow is Friday so why bother going when there�s only one day left to go? I�ll go Monday, probably. Ophelia Lavinia is an unusual name now days. My father must have been the one who liked Shakespeare. I wouldn't know. I've never met him. I started reading Shakespeare when I was 12. That was before my mom decided I was the devil�s child. I tried to tell her about Twelfth Night, which is what I was reading at the time. She asked me when it was on and what channel. She thought it was a soap opera. That was the end of discussing Shakespeare with my mom. We used to get along pretty well. Sometimes I wish things could be that way again. I still love my mom, even though sometimes I say I hate her. My brother accidentally came out a couple of days ago. I sort of thought he was gay but I never asked him because I really don't care if he is or not. I should have updated a couple of days ago and mentioned something about that but I was depressed right because I had deleted my whole website for some unknown reason and didn't feel like updating right then. I guess everyone has a bad day once in a while, some more than others. My mom is pregnant again. I so do not want another sibling. I've already got three brothers, even though Kyle doesn't live with us anymore. There's Kyle, me, Jonny, and Sam. Even though I don't want it, I'm hoping for a sister because I'm sick of brothers (no offense. i know at least two of you are going to be reading this). Hmm.... I don't know. I guess that's it. Oh, yeah. Purple is my new favorite color. I think I'll dye my hair purple. I need more purple clothes. I don't have any. Kyle says he'll take me shopping tomorrow so I can help him pick out Jonny's birthday present. I'll talk him into buying me something. (Kyle, if you're reading this, be warned!)
..::April 4, 2003::..
Once again, I have made no progress on my web page and it's 11:26pm. I like night. I hate sleeping. Unless it's during the day and then I like sleeping. And that didn't make any sense but that's all right because I'm sleepy. I went shopping today. Got Jonny a birthday present but I'm not going to say what on here right now because I KNOW he's going to be reading this. Umm...I got new clothes. Yeah. I got a purple skirt that is WAY too short on me but it's really cool looking. Kyle said it makes me look like a cheap prostitute. It does. I won't lie. Okay, so I do lie. Quite a lot actually and everyone knows it and I don't fucking care. I got purple toe socks too. I love those. And I started to get purple shoes but then I found a really cool pair of platform boots. And I got a purple sweatshirt, even though I don't wear those except to bed sometimes when I'm cold. Speaking of cold...I'm cold now. And I got a purple shirt that looks like a turtleneck but it doesn't have sleeves. And there's this other thing that's sort of like jacket. It's purple too. I got a lot of new make up. Two different shades of purple lipstick and nail polish. And new black eyeliner. I can't live without that. But I can't find glitter. I need more glitter. I've only got two colors. If I'm going to go buy all of this make up and clothes, I'm really going to need a job. I don't have one at the moment. I'm still begging Kyle. I think I already owe him over $100.00 but he knows I'll probably never pay him back. If I do, it's going to be a miracle. I'm really sleepy now. More than I thought. And kind of cold. So I'm going to go take a nap now and see if I can get warm. I might update again later tonight and work some more on my site but I doubt it. I probably won't be back again until tomorrow.
..::April 5, 2003::..
I'm back and I'm not in a good mood. I have the headache from hell and I think I'm getting a cold. I'm probably not going to do much work today but we'll see, I guess. I'm probably going to do more writing today than anything. I started writing a story called The Antique Key. It's a very dark story about a house where someone was murdered and the new occupants who move in. I've seen stories like this done many times but this isn't the usual someone gets killed and the ghost haunts the house story. It's 1:00pm now and time for my nap. I've found that, if I sleep some during the afternoon when I'm not doing something else that I don't get so depressed and irritable. I usually can't sleep at night and maybe that's wrong with me sometimes. I'll probably update the site later tonight and add a note about that here.
..::Later on April 5, 2003::..
I slept from 1:30pm until about 6:00pm and I feel a lot better now. My headache is gone and my allergies aren't bothering me so much anymore. I wrote a little more of The Antique Key. I'm not writing it straight through the way I usually do. I'm writing it as each scene pops into my head, with a little help from Jonny. Right now, I'm going to work a bit on the site. Maybe another update on here when I get finished with the rest of whatever I'm going to do on here.
..::April 6, 2003::..
I finished part of the Ophelia section, although I may add more later on. I need pictures of me. I have two digital cameras but I lost the cord to one of them and the instructions to the other, which I have never used before. So pictures might be a long time in coming. I'm still sick today but not half as bad as I was yesterday. I feel a lot better. I'm going to try to get some more work done on this later but I don't know.
..::Later on April 6, 2003::..
I think I'm all right now, not sick anymore. This first page is confusing. I really need to do something about these update thingies. If I put the most recent one on the bottom, it's going to be hard for people to see it. But if I put them in reverse order, it doesn't make much sense to people who want to read the thing chronologically. I'll think more about this later.
..::Even later on April 6, 2003::..
Three updates in one day. I'm getting good at this. Anyway... I have the Writing page finished, the Fanfiction page finished, the Original Fiction/Non-fiction page finished, and my Erin story is up. And I swear, this is all for tonight. I'm going to think about what to do about how to order these update thingies (see above update) and tomorrow I'm going to play soccer (something I hardly ever do) with Jonny and his friends. So bye-bye for now.
..::April 7, 2003::..
I still haven't decided what to do about the order of these update thingies. I know I can't leave them this way and I can't keep continue doing them because this page is getting really long. However, I want to keep all of my past updates so I can see when I've updated what, if that makes sense. I think what I'm going to do is reverse the order of updates on this page and, at the end of every week move the list of updates to a different page but put them in chronological order so that I can see a list, in order of things that I've updated. It makes sense to me whether it does to anyone else or not. And now...I'm off to school. I've decided to walk today because Kyle won't drive me and mom isn't going into town. Oooh. Something about my mom later this afternoon when I get home. She is being such a bitch lately and I don't see what I've done to deserve it.
..::Later on April 7, 2003::..
Today has been hell. No, that's wrong. My LIFE has been hell. Yeah, that sounds a bit better. I went to school today. That sucked. I thought I looked pretty good this morning before I left. I was wearing my new clothes: black platforms, black leather pants, and a purple tee-shirt. And purple lipstick and my other usual make-up. Which, unfortunately, included about two pounds of black eyeliner. Jonny and I walked to school because even walking in the rain is better than riding the bus and it wasn't that far anyway. By the time we got there, it was pouring rain. I had black streaks running down my face from my eyeliner, all of which was NOT where it was supposed to be. So I had to wash my face in the bathroom and borrow Megan's make-up. That in itself wasn't too bad but the day only got worse. I managed to fail 2 pop quizzes because I wasn't at school all last week and the teachers wouldn't let me take them later. And I'm usually a pretty good student. I mean, I'm always on the honor roll, although I rarely get all A's. Then in biology I cut myself and got blood all over everything, even though it was a really small cut. I tried to use that as an excuse to go home but they wouldn't let me. I guess I'd missed enough school. Apparently the whole school now knows that Jonny is gay and, while most people couldn't care less, there are a few who do care and are very much against it. I don't see what the big deal is. But anyway, after school I was outside, sitting on the steps, waiting for Jonny so we could walk to Kyle's apartment together because neither one of us felt like dealing with mom and I thought maybe Kyle could persuade her to give me back my stuff. Ashleigh, who is my least favorite person on the planet and she knows it, came up to me and asked me how it feel to have a freak for a brother. I didn't think about doing it. I just hit her. Of course I got caught and Jonny walked up right as I hit her so now he's in trouble too. Detention the rest of the week for all three of us. My life absolutely sucks! And by the way, Kyle refused to talk to Mom for me. He says I'm almost 17 and I have to learn to fight my own battles. I agree with him and I usually do fight my own battles. But it's really hard to reason with my mom when she acts like I'm not even there when I try to talk to her. I think tomorrow I might go to school at lunch and spend the morning going through her closets. I want my stuff back and I have every intention of getting it back. Until then, I plan to play Roxy Music as loudly as I can. I feel like having a long hot bath and then crying until I fall asleep. Maybe I will.
..::April 8, 2003::..
And I did. And it must have helped because I'm in a good mood today. That's surprising. I'm not at school but it's not because I'm skipping. It's because that water line thing broke AGAIN. You would think they would have enough sense to get it fixed right the first time. I mean, the people fixing it are professionals. But noooo.... Not that I'm complaining or anything. Anyhow, I got my stuff back. I waited until Mom went to work and got it out of her closet. I would think she would have realized by now that she's not going to be able to keep something away from me by putting it in the same place every time. Or maybe she just doesn't care.