.Refresh. 23/1/2009
Happy New Year to all my chinese friends!
I will be blogging here no more. I love this site tho. This site remains.
I will let it dust, rust and be my history.
Shifted..bye!
.Haha. 21/1/2009
Something happened today and it reminds me of the "incident" I had while doing the height & weight taking of the pupils. One fine day, around last week, I was taking the height and weight of the pupils. Well, it's the beginning of the new Term and Semester, so yea it's something I have to do every semester. Ok and the story goes.......
After taking the height & weight of almost 7 classes, back to back, each class consist of at most 40 students, to be exact, after taking like approximately 280 (plus minus the absentees la enh) pupils' height and weight and calling out their names one by one, I was a bit restless by the 8th class. So I continued with the routine, seperating the girls and the boys, instructed them to remove their shoes and called out the 1st name in the list.
Me: Can I have the 1st person?
It took them a while, so with little patience left, I asked..
Me: Ok never mind, I'll call out your name. Can I have *the girl's name* ?
The whole class looked around with a blur look. So I checked if i got the name pronounce correctly.
Me: I repeat, can I have *the girl's name* please?
Still, no reply and this time better, they stared blankly at me, like as if I'm speaking in an Alien language.
Me: (a lil agitated by now, so i hissed) Who's *the girl's name*? You don't even know your own classmate huh?
Everybody still refuse to say anything. So by then, I have a hunch I might be wrong. So i checked again..
After checking, I turned to look at them blushed and said, "Ok, sorry I got the wrong class......"
Wahaahahahha!
And today, I went around to fish out all the absentees. So, this one particular class, i went in and asked permission from the teacher.
Me: Sorry , can i have *the girl's name* for height and weight taking?
Teacher: *the girl's name*!! But I thought I've already send her down to take her height and weight. She didn't look for you huh?
Me: (looking at the girl) Err no.. didn't have her record in my system yet. (btw this girl is the blur nerd looking kind)
Teacher scolded the girl: The other day I asked you to look for her (pointing at me) for your height and weight and u said u did. Where did you go then?
The girl: I did. (she answered in a very so NOT convincing manner)
Teacher: Sometimes I just don't know what were you thinking.
So I took her down with me. But somehow I felt guilty. She got scolded in front of the whole class. So, while making our way to the Fitness room, I kinda remembered someone coming to me for her/his height and weight to be taken due to her absence the other day. And i have a feeling, she's the girl. So upon reaching, I quickly checked, and yeah man!! Her measurement was already in......!!! wahahahaha!!
Poor girl got scolded for nothing... tsk tsk..
.Satisfaction. 19/1/2009
Phew! Everthing that was planned way before, went on smoothly. It was a smooth sailing splendid surprise. We all sure deserve a pat at the back. Two thumbs up! Am waiting for pictures from my Sis.. Wait up.
On a different topic.. I've been facing with a berdengung telinga since Fri. Sigh. It's painful when there's a sharp or loud noise around me. It feels like "Ade air masok telinga" kinda feeling (the air here refers to Water not angin). And mcm difficult to hear. I wanna consult a doc, but before that, i need to know what's the English word for 'berdengung'. I asked around and Maria told me if direct translation, it is buzzing sound. And as usual, the funny Maria, she said but if Buzzing sound it will be buzzzzzzzz, but if berdengung it is ngoooooong. Hahaha! Then shall i tell the doc, "I have this Ngoooong sound going on in my ears." ?? hahha.. But that's besides the point, I'm now worried, according to Maria's colleague, it needs to be treated soon else may lose my sense of hearing ley.. Even though i felt it's a waste to consult doc. but i think i have to. sigh sigh sigh.. One after another, jari masey sakit and now it's my ears.. Watz wrong with me??
.Kenagan Terindah. 10/1/2009
Not sure if im included but im from nyp silat too mah.. so i'll include myself dgn tak malu nye la enh hehe. cuz i think its pretty interesting. furthermore, rite now im really missing abg nana and kak aida.. sigh and rite now i need abg nana to urutkan my finger... : (
Most memorable words from Abg Nana
- "Tak abes2 dgn kenduri die.. kalau tak die, partner die..."
hehehe. For those who don't know the story behind this..
let me share with you.. There was once, in the year of
2006/2007.. me and partner (Rad) kept having events
like kenduri/jemputan kahwin. In short, we always
didn't turn up for trainings and giving that as an
excuse. BUT it was coincidental that we both had
to attend events like that at the same period of
time. so yeah, since then, we're known for that
mistakenly.. tsk tsk
Most memorable words from Kak Aida
- "Kalau competition ko buat mcm ni, aku lari side
kick ko" (She used to say this in a joking way...
that was her known fav line back then when she's
still single mingle..hehe before Ghumaysha popped out,heh)
Most memorable words from both to me
- I cant remember words from both to me at the same
time. But i know both Abg Nana and Kak Aida have faith
in us, thank you for giving us the chance to
participate and rep Nyp Ganda.
Most memorable training
- The Silat in-camp training in 2007. It was tiring!
Jogged all the way to AMK park, ran up and down the
flight of stairs.. gosh..High level of enduramce
i must say. But it was very fulfilling once we've
completed the physical training. After which,
followed by the seni training. It was really tiring
by then. Our legs were all weak like sotong.
cant perform the stunts and cant do this cant do that,
and we got scolding after scolding. kesian kite hehe.
And ouh, another memorable one was the seni training
under Kak Aida. That time seni baru2 start.
It was wholely stretching training (after some running of coz)..
Would u believe me, by just doing the stretching
alone we sweat non-stop. seriously, sweat like pig..
even worse i guess.. Torturous. and i Hate doin the
standing split the most. It's like me and partner we
have to stand facing each other,
stretch up one leg and rest it on partner's shoulder.
The partner will then have to hold on to my ankle and
she will have to move backward pulling my leg.
so it will look like im doing a split in the air.
Gosh! Tat was the most torturous stretch ever.
(For the not flexible one like me, that is)
Don't believe me? please try this at home. heh.
Most disappointing moment
- During our first IVP 2005 We ended our Ganda earlier
than the stipulated time (3min), so right after our so
called performance, Ganda, Kak Aida waited for us at
the corner of the arena. The first thing she said to
us with a disappointing or rather shall i say angry
look, "Ok, u're disqualified." and she walked away.
bang! Felt like we've been shot by a Senapang Gajah..
It was painful! Too painful that i burst into tears.
And it was our Vice-president during that year,
who came to console us. Thanks yat! But yea, it was
really disappointing to hear that. But the good
news only came later. We managed to get Bronze! : )
Most proudest moment
- That will be, winning a Gold medal in our second
attempt in 2006 where NYP won the Overall Champion.
It was a great feeling of satisfaction knowing that
somehow Ganda's Gold has also contributed to the
winning of the Overall Champion. And knowing that
there were equal no. of Gold medals contributed from
both Seni and Tanding. Double Happiness! And seeing
Everybody's face jumping for joy for our achievement
was really a great feeling. The best part of all.
Most saddest moment
- I had a hell of an emotional struggle back then.
Having to juggle with the 4 times training each week,
projects/assignments, domestic issue, bf problem.
I cant seemed to focus during trainings. Tho I've tried,
i just cant. So, i was mostly fighting my mind power to
focus cuz Ganda is about working together with ur partner.
If one is focus and the other is not, it just doesnt work.
So, as much as I try not to messed things up and getting
Rad into trouble (i.e a scolding from Kak Aida),
I tried to focus. But It's really saddening and frustrating,
wen u've tried soo hard but somehow ur stunts just doesnt
want to work when it's time to show ur Instructors what
u've got. And being shouted and Tegur in front of other
Pesilat just brought my moral down. Quite a few times,
i broke down during training. Well Rad, only we both
know how it feels back then rite? It was really a
painful yet sweet memory.
Most happiest moment
- To be in Nyp Silat and doing Ganda with Rad.
And I shall say, the happiest moment being part of
the cheering team. Love the days where Ipin was there.
He came out with all kinds of cheers..
("Abg nana nak 100%, buz-baz-buz-baz", when the wasit
called out other juri, he will go, "Sah tak sah?" and
lastly, "tepuk tepuk sayang, Muah! Muah! Sayang..." and etc)
And i would like to include ,funniest moment,
tat will be during training. Im sure most of u knew
bout the 'kentut' incident. But i just cant seemed
to forget that incident. It was frigging hilarious!
Ish! rad rad... terok btol ah.. *nozie shakes head*
lol!! padahal padahal...
Most shocking moment
- When Yat, Al-Hafiz, Ipin, Arip didnt win..
When I know they played so well. Luck just wasn't on
their side. Sigh...
Most pleasing moment
- Wen Abg Nana talked to me and asked bout my situation.
I felt warm by his concern.. He lend me a listening
ear voluntarily, gave a word of advice and he urut-ed
my finger.. Love his jovial/crappy act. Funny man.
Kinda miss the time and jokes we shared esp at
al-ameen after 2008 Ivp. We all stayed and talked
crap with him till midnight. I would want to have
this again. i really do.
-Secondly, when Kak Aida believe in me to assist
her during IVP 2008. She kinda made me feel good abt
everything. Appreciate evrything u did. All Your advices,
sacrifices, constructive criticism, understanding and
tolerance are very much appreciated. I love you...
till we meet again!
Lastly, on a totally different sport, the netball "training" on Sunday was Superb! I love it! It was somehow more tiring than soccer. Not sure y. maybe due to the humid weather that made us feel v.lethargic. And ouh great news for me. I somehow sprained my finger joint. (sri told me the name of tat part but i coulnd't recall). Now it's v.red, a bit of blue black and very swollen.. Sigh.. now i dunoe who is able to urutkan... any takers? haha...
.Ultimatum of bleargh. 8/1/2009
Since pay was in, I cant seem to free myself from this shopaholic disease. Sheesh! I bought another pair of shoe yesterday. Yeah, u read it right, ANOTHER pair of shoe. Which means to say just the day before before yesterday I bought a pair of shoe again from Charles and Keith. And if u noticed i used the word AGAIN, meaning, just before 2009, i did get myself another pair of shoe, and it was based on 'peer pressure' in the words of Maria. haha! Tell me how bad can this impulse shopping habit gets. Ladies, we really got to shun impulse items when shopping. Agree? Remind each other please. Thank you. hehe. Back to the kasut story, am i getting this from Fana? (hehe, berjangkit la penyakit kasut ni) She is said to easily get attracted to any shoe stores like there's a great magnetic force present. lol! (At the same time, I'm visualising the way Yat always act out this part, haha) Ouh snap out of it Nozie! Before i continue beefing bout my overspending and such, I gotta say, i still like the shoes thou. hehe.
I'll be having a movie date with wifey later like finally. Her surpassing workloads and other loads, has been coming between us since futsal on Sat. We will be catching Bedtime Stories. It was out on screen since last year tho and I have yet to watch it still. Now, it's only showing at Orchard, cineleisure. it's a long journey there. bleargh.
Counting down the days.
Ten days before we hit the event. The first event ever in our history, and in the year 2009. It will be in my wish list to make this happen. Wishing everything goes on smoothly as planned. Fyi, this part of the entry, has to be vague, as to not leak any info out, hence, giving away clues to whom it may concern. Most importantly, You will like the whole well-planned event. I hope. *fingers crossed*
.Finally. 7/1/2009
Finally, I've decided to open up shutterfly account for my pix cuz the photobucket still giving me problem till now. so yea. View them for future pix ok..
.Think deep. 6/1/2009
Have you ever wonder what's in store for you in the next upcoming days and months and years?
.Life.
Just remember that no matter how careful you are, there's going to be the sense you missed something. Well, get used to that feeling. That's how your whole life will feel some day. This is all practice. None of this matters. We're just warming up.
The unreal is more powerful than the real, because nothing is as perfect as you can imagine it. because its only fantasies that last. people, well, they die. but things as fragile as a thought, a dream, they can go on and on.
.Love.
What do you know about them?Think deep....
"The one you love and the one who loves you are never, ever the same person."
"Is it better for a woman to marry a man who loves her
than a man she loves."
"Love is a language spoken by everyone,
but understood only by a heart."
"Lucky is the man who is the first love of a woman,
but luckier is the woman who is the last love of a man. "
"If love is the answer,
can you please repeat the question?"
.Health.
So many people spend their health gaining wealth, and then have to spend their wealth to regain their health. what's the point? Restricting yourself from indulging the yummylicious heavenly food, will only cause you misery later.
Leave all the afternoon for exercise and recreation, which are as necessary as reading. I will rather say more necessary because health is worth more than learning. So, to insure good health: eat lightly, breathe deeply, live moderately, cultivate cheerfulness, and maintain an interest in life. Lastly, "Early to bed, early to rise, makes a man healthy, wealthy and wise."
.Friends.
Do you know them well? Do you appreciate them? Do you think bout them?
We kept hearing this quote, "A real friend is one who walks in when the rest of the world walks out." How true? How often you thank your friend for the simple deeds they did for you? "A friend is one who believes in you when you have ceased to believe in yourself." Lastly, "If you judge people, you have no time to love them."
.Mother / Ibu.
Love them as much as you can. Cuz There will only be one special Mom in our life. No other individual on earth experiences the love, joy, sadness, empathy, sympathy, and every other conceivable emotion that Moms do in the upbringing of their children. "To a child's ear, 'mother' is magic in any language."
.Family.
When you look at your life, the greatest happinesses are family happinesses. If only, things like this, able to last. Life would be great. And usually,
When our relatives are at home, we have to think of all their good points or it would be impossible to endure them. All in all, Family, you will always need them, for they will be there for you when u're facing with the most ugliest obstacle ever.
Think deep people....
.Healthy lifestyle. 5/1/2009
I'm really glad now that "the gang" are slowly involving oneself in sports. From futsal to netball. Thanks to Maria's netball idea. We will be playing netball this Sunday. Excited. Don't know what to expect. anything that gotta do with "the gang" it will sure turn out to be a FUN one. No doubt. Especially, knowing majority of us, know nuts about Netball, it will sure be more of a laughing session than a real training. C y'all this sunday ya!!
When i first saw u, my 1st reaction was, i smiled, but soon after, sum1 appeared. And what was that kinda feeling actually mean? so you showed me to ur beloved mama, should I be happy or worried now?
.IDEAS. 2/1/2009
Woohoo!! Had Soo much laughter in just one night. It was definitely a great gathering. From the sakura buffet (o0o-la-la! the salmon was really yummy-licious! I can never have enough of those!) - to the long walk to Marina Bay - to the
spectacular and
superb Fireworks (It was really long, a total of 8 min of beautiful colours of the fire in the air! And we all went, "Wow, woah, wooo, yey, yeah, nice, amazing, woah cantik!")- to the walking back to Raffles Place mrt together with the huge crowd. And somehow it reminds me of those movies with zombie(s) in it. And the guys started chanting, "Err o'oh i forgot the word, it was at the back of my head a while ago. damn. nvm u all fill in the blank k? heh." All in all, I would like to thank "da gang" for making it happen, u all will always be in my heart, always. heh.
Ok actually I wanna talk more bout people. (Inspired by the Grape, Banana, Orange and WATERMELON talk given by Mr Anuar last year,heh). I loike creative people. They always think out of the box. Do the unusual, weird and silly things. I've always tried to think of something interesting that normal people don't do. but failed. I'm not creative I have to admit. But it's fascinating seeing people able to come out with such ideas and it somehow inspired me to do the same. But I'm afraid if i were to do the same, it'll be seen as copycat or even copyright. haha. But i seriously find their way of doing things are extremely creative. to me at least. I wanna try it one day. And to those who'll be enjoying from the creative ideas i collected from people, are the fortunate ones. Ooopzz. gtg now chiaoz..
.Random. 26/12/2008
Based on Maria's entry, so much bout Twilight. She mentioned she's done with all the four books?! Gosh. I dun know how she do tat. C, I dun really like reading books actually. I will only read, IF the book is really interesting esp when there's a touch of romance and love. (yeah women fantasy, i shall say). But still, i cant possibly read a book for pages or shall i say chapters at one time. The max i can go when reading is just one chapter or worstill half a chapter. After which, i'll start to fidget and my attention will be drawn to other things like TV or prolly my growling stomach. Ok now u know why it took me soo long to finish up one book. I'm sorry if i took days to finish up that one book Maria. Sorry. hehe. But usually, i'll read the book just before turining in. So the twilight book is now my bedtime story. nyeheh. And just recently, after reading, (I'm finishing by the way), tat nite I'm at the chapter where Bella came over to the Cullen's. After that chapter, I went to sleep, (don worry i didn't sleep with the book, i put it aside before sleeping, in case u're afraid, u mite see maps drawn on the book once u get it back, hehe). So yea back to wat i said, i slept rite after that, guess wat? I dreamt about it. I, as Bella went over to Edward's house getting to know his family. (Edward in my dream is still Edward but his mother in my dream is a makcik wearing tudung). haha.
But as soon as it's about to reach the climax, I woke up.. dang! Tried so hard to continue my dream but to no avail. I noticed, whenever i dreamt about almost anything be it a nightmare or sweet dreams, as soon as it reaches the climax, i'll woke up.. why is that so...? (Bak kata pepatah, kacau daun btol).
Anyway, it's been really long since i last had a nice dream. More sweet dreams please... :)
.Another Sleepless night. 23/12/2008
The clock is ticking friggin slow today. It's only 3.52pm now. And this is the time of the day where I wish there's a machine invented specially for us to speed up the time. A time machine perhaps? I cant wait to get my ass on the bed and this heavy head of mine which is driving me nuts, cuz it just won't stop spinning not even for 1 sec. Dang! I've been seeing stars. Was in a daze the whole day. I couldn't get my sleep last night, like how I've planned the moment i woke up in the morning yesterday, due to the exciting catching up session with my Sis and filling her in with my experience at Ipoh, shared some emotions issues i'm having and Vice versa. That sharing session lasted longer than I expected, especially, when she offered to make some fritters for me. :)
Looking at the life I'm living now, I couldn't be more grateful than I was before. Everything seem perfect to me now. I'm gaining tremendously a lot of Happiness than unhappines now, as compared to what i had previously (which was totally the opposite). However, this scare the tits out of me. Having everything so perfectly fine, I fear if any of these beautiful things happening in my life rite now, will be taken away from me, from my life. Nothing in this world could possibly be permanent in our life. The thought of having anyone dear to me, leaving me, leaving this world, really scare the shit out of me. Really. I mean who doesn't rite? But it is the scariest truth I'll ever imagined or I wouldn't want to imagine in fact. Having them in my prayers, will be enuf for now, I hope.
So much bout those who're dear to me leaving me, What if it's the opposite? (selisih malaikat 44) but what if.... Ouh well, why on earth am I rambling bout such topic? Before I scare the shit out of you people, i better stop. Wait. Will you ever be scared in the 1st place? nyeh. Alrite I'll stop..
And it's only 4.28pm now. Should i Find other topics to rant on before i knock off at 5pm? Hmm lemme c. O'oh! Brain dead! Not functioning well enuf..Okay fine it never had anyway. I'm just bored cuz 1stly I'm sleepy, secondly Best fren not online.. Sigh.. Wait! I'm curious tho, Why do we need to sleep in the 1st place? Why do we feel sleepy and tired if we didn't get our sleep and lastly why do we yawn? And oh have u encountered situations whereby u start yawning and the next person near u will start yawning immediately after you?? Hmmm... It's been something I've thought about since secondary school. ok damn.. it's only 4.42pm now... Arrrghh!! It's driving me sane!
If only i have the power, u know like superhero power, I wanna be invisible. Or better still I want to be able to control time. Like the japanese guy in heroes. Ey wait a min, dejavu. Felt like i've once mentioned this somewhere on the net. Have i ever blog about this? Hmmm...
Weather forecast: It's raining now? It was sunny all along and now suddenly it's pouring?
Time check: It's 4.48pm
I may bore you people but trust me, this will be the only one post I'm doing this. I wouldn't wan to chase my readers away (that if i have any). heheh. (mintak simpati)..
Ok that's it! I'm running out of patience.... I can't possibly sit here at my desk any longer waiting for the time to tick tock to 5pm. I'm gonna take a short visit to the ladies, hang out in there for a short while and once the clock strikes 5pm, i'll be gone... Chiaoz!
.Another Amazing Trip. 22/12/2008
A quick recap.
I was sick rite after Batam Trip. Down with fever and flu. I dun wanna take another MC but i couldn't help it.. I guess i really need the rest. So i took another 2 days MC on thurs and Fri. Rest thoroughly at home. And on Friday nite was really hoping nothing bad to happen. I wouldn't want to miss the fun at Ipoh..
So I was all prepared with my medication (as usual).. hehe. The main activity at Ipoh was White water rafting and Water abseiling. And boy! was it great or wat? it was fun to the max! I love it.. (lagi2 the captain or the guy who took charge of our raft was cute and sweet) heheh. Seriously, his english was fluent, his voice is deep like dj2's voice, he's skills in controlling the raft wooo! meltin melting..And he managed to saved me wen i fell off the raft... (hey, if u're thinking i fell on purpose, please, erase it off ur mind ok? i wasn't.) haha. Basically, at this one point, i wasn't prepared for the next rapid. I didn't hold on tight to the raft line.The raft kinda turned, and i was facing backwards by then and the moment our raft knocked on the rock, i fell off (luckily i didn't knock myself on the rocks! scary boy). But yea... he was very prompt, the moment he saw me fell off, he quickly carry me up. But He didn't manage to carry me up the 1st time cuz i wasn't helping myself up either. wanna know why? cuz at that point of time, my left shoe da terbukak half, I dunnoe how, maybe due to the strong current, so since it's NEW, i don't wanna lose it cuz i need it for the later activity also. So i was thinking, "oh shit! my shoe, should i get my shoe 1st or get up the raft 1st?" haha.. kesian the captain, he was pulling me up and i still can think.. haha. But i just tawakal hope i won't lose my shoe, and i managed to cling on to my shoe and get on the raft safely. ahhhhh.... And yeah, the whole experience from the water confidence test to the rafting itself to the part i fell off to the part i was saved to the water abseiling part and to the bonding session to the games we played. it was all exciting and fun! no words could possibly describe how blissful i felt for all the trips i had....
Thank you Julya for the trip and Thank you to all in the committee as well. Hugs....
I kept seeing you wherever i go.
I kept seeing ur look alike.
U slowly invade my mind.
If it meant to be good, then stay.
If it's not, I'll take my leave.
From my sad life, if u're the one created by Him, to accompany me thru my joy and sorrow, please.. stay with me.
Questions to no answers left hanging.
I couldn't decide nor could I foresee the future.
Afraid in making decisions.
If it's true, women instinct is always right,
I'm depending on it now.
May this be true...."InsyaAllah.."
.Awesome Trip. 12/12/2008
A quick update..
Am now back from Batam.. It was totally a blast! I had serious fun Cable-skiing/wakeboarding and now i'm having serious problem even to raise up or pull back my hands and i can't even shower properly.. (badan da mcm robot sey). No strength left and my hands are still trembling till now. I seriously dunoe wats wrong with my hands. Haha.
I have bad motion sickness.. Experience from the Tioman trip and the batam trip i had b4, really made me "serik". So this time, I seriously prepared myself well enough with the Travel Medicine, asam masin, gula2, panadol and Minyak kapak. The Tavel medicine didn't work well for me but at least it did help a bit ah.. my mabuk was just a mild one this time, not as bad as before..But still oh no, now to even think about it, im feeling it.. Dang!
*nozie closes her eyes for a short while*
Okay, back to my story, So yeah. Once we've stepped on the ground of the Batam Island (heheh, tak jauh, batam je), Me and Aiz were both feeling very nervous. Not knowing what to expect and how to do it (I mean the cable ski of course). Once arrived, we got changed and i seriously am freakingly nervous. The fun began after the short briefing by Instructor Didi.
We tried the knee board 1st. I didn't make it the 1st time.. Tried again, this time went thru the 1st bend. But wasn't expecting the force of the cable to be that strong after the 1st bend, so i kinda missed my grip and down i went into the water. That's the tiring part. Having to swim back to the nearest shore. After A few tries with the knee board. We tried the slipper board (Ok i dunnoe what they call it). After countless try, I still can't get up. I dun wanna give up.. But towrds the end (the tmpt also da nak dkt tutop), i seriously can't take it already. My hands were too damn weak by then. And, the most freakingly hillarious part was, Me and Rad wanted to do the duo ride. As in we both ride on the knee board together for the last time. But just before we took off i told Rad, my hands were seriously weak and i can no longer grip the cable handle tight.. So she said, "Ok2, ku pegang.." hahha.. and me trusting Rad's ability, we just proceed. But guess wat happened? The cable took off without us... Kite tertinggal la... hahha. ANd it was caught on camera !! haha.. I can't stop laughing whenever i watch the vid. That sure was the best memory..However, I envy Arip.. Being a first timer, he managed to stand on the board!! Rad too! She's able to stand on the board!! Coolness. And Al not to mentioned. He's able to do almost everything within one day. ANd Hakim (Al's fren) too able to do the jump start.. woohoo! Inspired by all of them. Will definitely want to make a return. And plus the people there were also friendly. Great and superb short getaway!!
After a tiring day, we went for our dinner at Golden Prawn Seafood. It was superb! Ate to the brim....had a short karaoke session and had a lepak session at our room..
The next day, went for Bfast, and It was really difficult to get the boys up. After which the girls went for a Warm Chocolate Massage... It was relaxing yet a lil painful cuz of the soreness to our muscles due to the exertions from the activity we had.
Anyway, woah... this is not a quick update. Seems long to me.. haha. Anyway, yeah that was that.. In other words.. I seriously had fun!! Thanks again to Rad and Al for the well-planned trip!! Love it!
PS: Anyway, pardon me, if at some point I'm kinda quiet.. I'm okay.. Just that sometimes when my energy is running low or feeling sick example mabuk or pikiran, that's what happened.. I'll tend to be in a daze... so yeah..But No matter wat i'll always try to get the energy back asap. Till then..toodles..
.Sleepless Night. 12/12/2008
Regret for not sleeping at the chalet.. Cuz till today, I still didn't get my sleep yet. Still Lack of sleep.. Last nite, Slept at 8.30pm Woke up at 10.30pm was tossing and turning till 4.30am. A lot of things in my mind at this very point of time. And I can't stop imagining stuff. Kept having the story Fahmie told us. Bout the penanggal at the kitchen and Arip told us it wasn't him who knocked the window. Thinking back, we four (Arip, me, Maria and aiz) heard "the knocking on the window" in the room and the funny part was at that point of time I seriously thought it was Arip who purposely knocked. Maria from the other room cam e to our room and said "Ey ko dgr? Ey ko sini sini.. Mcm ade org kat tingkap" (something like that). And me being me, didn't have anything in mind, I went over, and i even checked on the window. Looked out the window but nobody was there. So i told her, if it's the knocking sound she's referring to, it was Arip. And okay we were all relieved with my conclusion. Haha. The next day, Arip said it was actually not him. And Last nite, as i was tossing and turning, i thought to myself, gosh, What am i thinking at that very moment sia?? Why would Arip do that in the 1st place??And I can even checked the window?? Am i being too naive or wat sia?
And I shared those stories with my sis. Haha.. Ended up, she can't sleep well too. At 2am, she woke up asked me to accompany her to the toilet. Cute sis i got. Apart from this shitty stories, there were just too many other things in my mind. Ouh Wells.. I just hope I'm able to get my sleep before the Batam trip. Few things to get before the trip tho.
.Heartfelt Gratitude. 11/12/2008
Never in my life had i felt great, adding a no. to my age. hehe. This year, I had that very day celebrated with my friends... It will definitely be a memorable one for me. I would really love to express and convey my heartfelt and special thanks especially to Anuar for having this chalet organised for us. Thank you for everything... I know it's not easy tho. But thanks once again... I deeply appreciate every effort U and Sri made. From the picking of the dates, to the paying of the chalet in advance to the planning to the buying of the groceries to the preparing of the bbq food, to the buying of the multi-tap just for the chalet to the extra $$ and effort u fork out just for this chalet. Thank you....
ANd to Yat and Fana for everything too. U've been great. Thanks for making it happened too.. Thank you once again.. And to everybody,
Thank you Dila for coming down with hubby even with ur condition da sarat like that. Thanks.. (Sorry if tak terlayan enh). But I seriously Appreciate your presence. Thanks for being there love!
Thank you to
Dila, Yat, Aiz, Maria, Rad, Shahrul, Ariff, Al for your presence and to Khai also for your presents.. : ) Thank you you all!! Appreciate it very much....
And Thank you to Qiqin (tho u didn't really shield me nor i shield you) heheh, Faizal, Azrie, Shu and to Fahmie for your presence as well. Thanks for joining us. Greatly appreciated..
I had a lot of fun during the 2D1N chalet. Really laughed a lot. From the bbq (was really excited upon receiving the jersey and soccer ball cuz anything to do with soccer i can just get super happy, i dun know why.. haha) to the gang and my sis's presence, to the night adventure (that was my 1st, venture the night out at OCH with my frenz) For the first few stops, I went in just to have a feel. Didn't really see or hear anything yet. So move on to other stops. And it was the last stop where It gave me the chill, at A&E. I heard something but couldn't figure out what was the sound (So i couldn't really describe wat it was), closest description is foot steps.. And minute later after which, Kinda saw something. Tat's when i immediately shone the light towards the ground instead and walked back as in reversed back slowly cuz I don't want to scare anybody.. And so we ended the night walk. Took pictures and headed back to our Chalet. Reached chalet, ade la satu member ni teros masuk bilik tido ni.. hahah.. played card games till the very next morning. At first it was Me, Maria, Fahmie, Anuar, Shahrul, Arip.. Maria went to bed, then anuar ... Left the four of us who didn't sleep the whole night. Shahrul went out to catch the sunrise.. But aww the sun doesn't wan to c him.. haha. No sun that morning. To sum it up, It was a great get together session. Great quality time I've had with you guys..Thanks for the company to you...
Thanks to everyone who wished me as well
Thanks to Ayan!! Being the 1st to wish me..(cuz it was in advance) haha..
The gang!!, Casey (It was really3 nice to c ur sms, I miss ya!!), my Beloved Sisters, Azlin (I'm thankful u do remember my bdae, thank you Lin, u're the greatest), Apul, Khai, my beloved kuzen Kak Lin, Bro Rasyid and Bro Hasrom, Yusnul, Aini, Munir (U always have ur unique way to sms me), Huda (U remembered.. Thank you...), Amin and Kid!! And to Evryone..
Thank you for not forgetting my Birthday..I apreciate each and everyone of you in my life. How else can i really extend my deepest thanks to you all.
Once again Thank you very much and It has been a meaningful year to me to be celebrating it with my dearest frenz....
On the contrary,I'm pretty sad.. As much as I wanna be happy and not wanting to worry bout anything, I can't..
On the 8th Dec (Hari Raya Haji), Mom gave sis a call saying she's back in Singapore. Ok That means, we have to go Bkt pnjg to see mom. So Went out as planned to Grandma's house (Dad's side). Met Everyone there, and they were discussing bout driving up to KL next year. It was great to c Dad smiling and joining them in their conversations and seeing him initiate to go KL. It was really refreshing to see that smile from dad. Cuz dad, u have a nice smile. Somehow seeing your smile, i felt warm.. Seeing those genuine smile u have.. I'm happy for you dad. Tho i can't read what's in ur mind, probabaly u're feeling lonely. I'm sorry if all this while, I have not been a great daughter to you. I've never said it to you, but I love you dad. Seeing your perserverance and strong will in going through this big obstacle in your life positively.
After visiting Grandma, things didn't went as planned. Went to Mom's house, only to know she's not at home. Yeah she didn't even update us bout her not at home. So all of us waited and waited (sampai tertido and my only worry is I have not marinade the chix, sheesh). Hours later, she's back, talked to her for a couple of hours then was told to stay and sleep there. I gave it a thought, thinking would I want to disappoint her? Hmm nah not on my Birthday. So yea, Went back, took all the things and returned to Mom's place. It was 9 or 10pm by then. And the chix is still frozen so can't marinade yet. Gotta wait wait and wait. Only started Marinating the chix at ard 1.00am.. So yea was a bit rushing for me.
On 9-Dec itself, left home with a heavy heart. Somehow when i looked at mom, I felt she's not telling us something, she's not doing too good. But hmm I failed to be a good daughter here. I didn't even ask tho i feel it. Later that night, after the bbq, as we were all watching soccer, at the chalet, Sis msged me, "Gy, ku feel like meeting you... "
I figured something must have happened. And later she really came..So yea, being us, we seemed cheerful and happy. And somehow, I just felt good when i saw my sis!! She's like the beautiful icing to the cake! Completes my day..We talked.. But yeah apart from the laughter, we had a short serious conversation. felt my heart Broken into pieces. I felt totally sad. Sad seeing this happening. We sisters, once thought to ourselves that this will not be for long. And she gonna regret the decision she made. And today, it is really happening. We didn't hope or ask this to happen, but we can sense it from the start. We can feel it. It's not gonna last. But she claimed he's a good man.
Fuck that I'm furious. Raging with anger now. If only i can beat him up to hell, i will sure do that. However, Sis, thanks for coming down. Tho it was a sad news, I'm Glad u came. It doesn't affect my day at all. Cuz No matter how bad the situation can be, seeing you is the remedy to everything. Cuz U're both important to me. Thank you.....
Lastly, I humbly apologise to everyone for every little mistakes I've made.
.Apreciate Life. 03/12/2008
First and foremost, would like to extend my heartfelt condolences to Ms Lo Hwei Yen's family for their loss.
Try putting ourselves in her shoes. Went abroad, say, for work and without knowing a terrorist attack took place at the location ur at. Gun shots and bomb blast just like in the movie, eg Body of lies.. Adding to that, u're alone.. Where would u run to? Where will you hide? What will you do? it's not even ur own country. U barely know any places safe to hide. How tragic can it be? How terrifying it is? Why is there terrorist? Why should there be? It reminds me of the English drama shown in US, "Sleeper cell".. It was terrifying and I was disgusted by how these terrorist could actually snatched innocents' lives. And with their idea of recording the killing moment with a say of those prayers eg, "ALLAHU AKHBAR". It is scary indeed....
Recently, just too many incidents happening at one time. 1st the bangkok issue, bomb blast at the airport.. That's scary too esp if ur family members or loved ones were there. Well, i hope my fren's parents are safely back home by now?.. Then next the Mumbai attack...
And My sis going to Phuket and Jakarta this month.. Praying hard nothing bad will happen.. Just be careful ok?
On a totally different note, Hari Raya Haji is just around the corner.. Met mom yesterday for a short while, she told me, she's going KL this friday.. So she won't be here on 8th dec itself. and grandma also not in spore as they will all go Kluang..
I was like phew! haha.. cuz it's better like that, easier for us tho. this means we don't have to go through the most difficult situation tat is deciding where to go 1st on the day itself. Cuz Whenever it's hari raya, it will be difficult for us cuz tho we've come out with the yearly plan but they will somehow forget and can't recall who's turn next.And here's lil conversation btwn me and mommy and sis.
Nozie: Tapi mak ingt tak bsok nye hari ape?
Mommy: Hari ape? (she's not acting but she really can't remember) =(
Nozie: Oh takde pape lah... =(
Mommy: hari raya haji, 8 haribulan... OOOHhhhh..unh unh Birthday Ogy..
Nozie: *smile*
Mommy: Abeh nak pegi makan tak? Carik satu hari kite pegi makan ramai2 k?
Nozie: Heheh.. Okay!!!
Went home, only managed to tell Kak Niza(Elder sis)
Nozie: Kak, Mak kate carik one day kite go makan ramai2..
Sis: Huh? Nape?
Nozie: Birthday Guwe lor...
Sis: Ish!! Asek2 birthday ko je.... Birthday aku takde pun nak makan ramai2
Nozie: *smile sheepishly* hehe....
Ok this part i really have no comments. Actually it has never been like this, i mean celebrating my birthday. it started since two years back, we all made an impromptu plan that is buat makan2 like this, and now it ended up like a yearly event.. hehe. Ok now, suddenly i recalled my previous entry regarding, "Anak last = manje" remember? Ok i think, this is one of the good things i get.. Maybe it's becuz I'm the youngest i get this special treatment kot? hehehe.. ok should appreciate this while i can still have it... heheh..
P.S: Sis if u're reading this, jgn jealous ya.. hehe
.Happy. 3/12/2008
I'm now in my most happy mood of my life.. I shall appreciate this while i still can.. Well On Sat, went out.. Seriously, dun feel like home. Felt out of place. It was nothing.. was boring tho.. After which headed down to bugis, went for a sheesha session a bit. (And Ayan, i wasn't mabuk this time round ok).. Heheh. great achievement nozie!! Guess the Mabuk freak in me are now gone for good! Had a nice chat.. Wish to be this happy all the time.. Took the night rider home (It was my 1st time taking night rider).. Next day went to Sitex.. Wanted to get myself External hardisk but nah. I need to save up for Batam and Ipoh trip.. Dun wanna get anything on impulse (tho i really need one actually). But dun wanna end up regret for buyin it like my CAMERA!! grr.. Sadly, there are a lot more CHEAPER and GOOD and NICE camera on sale.
After which me and Aiz decided to go Bedok for a bit but damn after the very much intense walking session, burning our calories out, just to discover it was closed. Grrr.. So went to meet up with Yat, Fana and Shahrul and Sri was there too. So yea chat for a bit. And then, waited for someone, and I've got my 1st birthday present!
Soccer boots A pair of Futsal shoes!! great! I can't wait to kick some balls!!
PS: Anuar!! another soccer session pwease.....d:)
Just as we were talking bout coming to work late la, bout taking leave la, bout mc la, guess wat? I was down on MC on Monday. I was very sick. (well u know i know je la k hehe). Went to c the doc, managed to get 2 days mc. Rest well at home. Took my medicine. (mcm paham je enh). And Voila!! I'm well now!! hehehe.. Went to Bugis with Sis bought some stuffz and headed down to Bedok again linked up with Aiz to finish our unfinished business. And hell yeah!! Woohoo!! Felt a lot better now!! Felt Re-born to a new me!! The next day went to send my hp for repair. I miss my black and green hp!! seriously. And luckily they accept it even w/o the presence of the warranty card. But of coz my hp is still under warranty. Then headed for my twisting, stretching and relaxing session.. didn't catch any movie cuz we missed the 2nd last show. The last show is only showing at 11plus. it will be Too late by then.. so had our late dinner instead at Newton. Was really nice. d:) And so.. That was my long weekend!! heheh! More coming up!
.Beautiful Morning. 28/11/2008
Woke up every morning for the past few days feeling recharged, delightful and a pleasing state of mind...
Woke up with no worries and all i wanna do is to carve a smile...
Breathing in the fresh air...
Had my breakfast, a toast with a glass of orange juice..
And Completes my morning with the soothing song, Lucky by Jason Mraz ft Colbie Callait playing at the back of my mind every minute now...
Feeling lucky now..
It's a great feeling..
Been really long since I last felt this way..
Felt good with every little thing i do now..
It could be the most boring daily routine thing but wen u feel good, u'll feel good..
Adding to that, i'm now back on my everyday schedule..
Doing things I'll feel good about..
December will be the best way to say bye bye to 2008.
Upcoming events:
Chalet: 9th - 10th
Batam: 15th - 16th
Ipoh: 19th - 21st
Am looking forward to this Ipoh trip. InsyaAllah, what i wrote under my wish list soon to be granted. Water Abseiling and White water Rafting!! Excited excited!! WOotss..
Guess I am lucky now.
Jason Mraz ft. Colbie Caillat - Lucky
They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you I promise you, I will
I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday
And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music fill the air
I'll put a flower in your hair
though the breezes through trees
Move so pretty you're all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now
Try to catch the beautiful sunrise and sunset everyday.
Feelin' Lucky
.Nozie's energy is running low. 19/11/2008
I'm pretty shag now. From P6 grad nite to staff learning journey to Airport.
Anyway, hey, I really love looking at them. I mean the P6 kids. Kids nowadays, they really know how to style up. I wonder where they got such an inspiration. cuz i remembered, me wearing just a snoopy tshirt with jeans during one of the Childrens' day back then. hehe. I saw some justin timberlake's and rihanna's style in the house on wednesday. Pretty impressive. And i can't resist not taking their pics. So yea whateva fotos u see in my facebook, they're my favourite ones. And not forgetting, hey these kids can dance ok?? They seriously know how to do a jumpstyle and I've seen them doing shuffle. I'm impressed! Cuz it's not only one or two but the whole bunch of them. I must say, kids at their age Can really pick up any skills quickly. I took a video of them dancing. Will show ya if yall interested to watch k. Gonna miss them tho.. sob
The next PSLE Results.. And congratz to all of them.. they did me proud!!(cheh! mcm paham je aku). And right after that went for the staff learning journey. 1st stop to Chinatown, visited the heritage centre. (nothin much here) after which proceeded to Singapore Flyer!! I was extremely excited by then. The feeling for the 1st 15mins was nice. Took pics!! But it was only me and Norisyah cam whoring. The rest tak suke bergambar la.. takpe2. SO yea i was like a jakun 'tourist'. walked up and down the capsule. looked around, up and down. To be on that flyer as quoted by one of the teachers, "You must choose the right group of people to ride it".. haha (Well u know wat i mean). So yea right aftr that we still had time so went to Popeye while waiting for the bus. (Cuz i was extremely famished by then). Then after which by rite we can xchange the tix to get a complimentary tickets to go on a ride on a bus called "Christmas Light Up". Ok I regret for not changing the tix. In fact i gave away my tix to one of the teachers. Sheeshh. ANd the last stop, was the long awaited one. Dinner buffet at Sakura. Woah! Ate to my fullest! Gerekz! It's 2 storey (or was it 3?) Anyway, yeah we can go up and down to get the food. I actually da kempunan nak mkn Sushi and pizza that time. And last nite i got both!! ANd wooo! i love sushi now!! seriously am loving it!!
After which, Sisters and their bfs came to fetch me before proceeding to Airport. (Thanks sis!) Went there, ate at popeye again but i didn't eat (Cume kacau2 a bit cuz perot da kenyang to the brim sey). They were the ones famished this time. After which headed to row 10. Mom left to China. (Take care mom! she's always worried bout that monster even when she's leaving, poor her, pity her) On the other note, I'm glad each time we sisters and their bfs gathered like this. Best! Felt like a family. I can't wait to welcome him to the family!! heheh...We only reached home at 1.30am. Sigh. Not been having enuf rest... Tonite soccer.. Woohoo!! Thnks Anuar, even thou it was a last min able-to-make-it, I appreciate the effort!! Thanks for making it happen....Excited!! And Tmr another company dinner (It's my own company this time) at Pasir Ris, downtown east. What an eventful week!! Nice......
.Nozie scratch her head. 19/11/2008
I'm still here in school even though it's 5.38pm as shown on my watch. Tonite, school will be having P6 Graduation Nite.
Aside from that, I can't seemed to find a good and right timing to a few things. A Short get away to batam (suddenly ade kene attend a training during the week chosen), meeting mum b4 she fly to China tmr! (she's always busy with stuffz), yoga (cuz i'm always busy with stuffz too)... Hectic life.
i'm dying ......
.Another great cikgu left. 12/11/2008
As i was sitting at my desk, our school's soccer coach, Cikgu Sarip (I hope i got the name spelled correctly) hehe leaving our school.
It's pretty sad seeing one by one great people leaving. First it was Mr Idris, Next was Cikgu Mohamed, next was Mr Vincent, next was Mr Caleb, now next Cikgu Sarip.. Though i've only talked to him occasionally but I know deep inside he's a great man. I was moved when he came to me saying needed my help to open the PE room to take his things cuz he won't be coaching the kids anymore. He asked and adviced me to find a permanent job. I told him of my plans and he wished me good luck and even though it was just the normal good luck and some advice, I can sense the sincerity in his words. It's different from others. I really appreciate that last moment. Great man like him has always been an inspiration to me.
This is life. No matter what we do, we must be mentally prepared of the least unexpected things that are bound to happen. The moment we realised we're in a position where no one could possibly help us other than your own self, that's when u have to learn to accept, adapt and appreciate.
Met my primary school mate, Azlin, a couple of days ago. It was the most splendid dinner i must say. After much catching up I realised I wasn't alone. We went through quite a similar life. Went through quite a similar stress level. Life's like that. Looking back at my life. A lot of things happened in my life in just a short period of time. When come to think of it, it's scary how the world is moving so fast. I mean time really flies huh.
Peace out..
.Low Low Low. 10/11/2008
Aku tak bisa luluhkan hatimu
Dan aku tak bisa menyentuh cintamu
Seiring jejak kakiku bergetar
Aku t'lah terpagut oleh cintamu
Menelusup hariku dengan harapan
Namun kau masih terdiam membisu
Sepenuhnya aku ingin memelukmu
Mendekap penuh harapan
'tuk mencintaimu
Setulusnya aku akan terus menunggu
Menanti sebuah jawaban
'tuk memilikimu
Betapa pilunya rindu menusuk jiwaku
Semoga kau tahu isi hatiku
Dan seiring waktu yang terus berputar
Aku masih terhanyut dalam mimpiku
Can't stop playing that song in my mind now. *smile*
On top of that
Feeling Low..
Am taking a lil small step back
Can't seem to put a genuine smile on my face
Am i faking it?
Damn.. Loathe the fact that I'm feeling this way.
Hate it..
When i've been judged
When I've been commented
When there's competition
Damn.. I've never felt this way. Never felt the competition. In fact am always honest and positive. However, it's amazing how that one remark can change the way I feel. I need time to have my own peace and to change the way I think before I can be my normal self. Don't wanna risk it all. I've got to freakingly forget bout it. Shall not let it do any harm to myself.
Please stop this competition. Accept me for who I am. Please stop making comments. If it's title and status that u want, I'll give it to you. I'll take a step back.
The world is free. You can definitely Be proud of what you have but please don't overdo it. Fuck it. Why can't I Have a peaceful mind for once?? Don't i deserve my own happiness??
like I said, I'm taking a lil step back.
By the way, I truly apologise if I've ever hurt any of you intentionally or unintentionally. And adding to that, I'm sorry, I don't think I can Organise the holiday. if this Bintan Trip or whatever trip not going to be a successful one, and you all still keen on having a holiday, u all go ahead with the planning k.... :o)
And stop treating me or regard me as ur love for goodness sake! I've made it clear to you. It's too late now.. I've moved on... Stop pulling me back. Let me free will ya?? Damn..
On a different note, I read upon my heartfelt confession that was hidden in this lappy. It was written some time ago. A year ago to be exact. I wrote something, something I've been looking for. Today, I found it. It may not be the one, But it fits in the list of credentials I've once listed. However, I have no idea where is this taking me. May GOD guide me to the designated path he has planned for me. Amin.
Peace out..
.Woots. 4/11/2008
Had a splendid day on Friday, 31st Oct. Went for a bowling session after which followed by Soccer at The Cage, Kallang. And I must Say,I got addicted to soccer. Somehow my interest towards sports are getting stronger. I just love the energy, the fun, the sweat, the semput-ness. And I'm determine to pick up the skill (If i have any tat is, haha). I'm seriously looking at it. Woots!!Btw
fuck it I can't Upload my photos here nor photobucket. Damn! Sorry u gotta go to facebook to take a look at our recent pichas.
Anyway, I'm now finding out and looking ard and planning to go on a holiday. I can't go in the mth of Nov as u know I kind of on a tight budget(paham2 je la enh). So was thinking to go during Dec. And the ideal period to go will be from 12/12/2008 - 21/12/2008. Been checking out the prices for few places but kinda costly. Somehow, I came across this particular place (thanks to Julya). It will be at Bintan. It cost $190 for 3D2N. The accomodation: All bungalows have large verandas, bathrooms, towels, electricity, and fans, and are made with beautiful wood from renewable resources ... Facilities and activities availaable will be rock climbing, kayaking and sailing, snorkeling, flying fox into the sea, archery and more. I'm just giving you a brief idea of the place. But i'm still enquirying bout the whole cost. Now, the question is, If anybody interested, Please do acknowledge me ok?
.F***. 28/10/2008
AAARRRGGGGHHH!!!! I was trying to transfer photos to lappy.. BUT I transferred wrongly, copied the wrong files!!! and i assumed I copied correctly. SO I deleted few of OUR PICZ... the one we took at AL's house and the one at the chamber and a few more!!! DAMN!!! that's quite a number of pics sia!! Bloody hell!!. Sorry peepz if i've disappoint you... Damn!! Nozie wanna bang her head on the bed!!
.F***. 22/10/2008
For a moment, i thought to myself what could be the reason to my student's(the one i'm giving tuition) poor performance in her studies lately. I could still remember vividly her performance in both her English and Science, when I first came in, it was superb. I don't have to worry much. It's only her Maths I gotta focus on more. In fact, she improved in her Maths during Mid-year Exam. And I was very much contented by that piece of good news.
However, lately, her performance is getting worse. Her performance dropped in all her subjects. I could sense the difference in her character. She's less focus. Showing no interest in studies. Totally opposite of what I know. And I actually thought it was me. I'm not good enough. I didn't handle her well. And i seriously thought it was me. I can't teach. It's a shame even after seeing all those signs coming, I didn't make an effort to ask her. In fact, I got pressurised by her attitude and I scolded her.
Today, as I was walking back home from tuition. I bumped into her mom. She just came back from work. She asked me bout her daughter's performance and all. I explained to her bout her daughter's situation. Soon after that, she broke the news to me. I was seriously shocked to hear that. I can feel tears coming. It somehow just gave me a smack on the head. Damn2! Why is this happening to her? Her parents are in the midst of a separation. GOsh! and that basically explained her recent change in behaviour. How could i not sense that coming ?? I really felt sorry for her. Having to go through all that at this age. How could i mend my way now? How could i make things better for her? Tomorrow marks the first day of her Final year exam. I don't have enough time to guide her through. I have this strong vibe that she wouldn't be able to do well this time. And i have this instinct, It could be the end of my tuition journey with her. As much as I wan't to help her to pull this through together, giving her motivations in life. Be her listening ears and fren. I'm afraid it could be the end. Damn! I do adore her. Damn it! i'M SORRY..for disappointing you. You have been a great and wise kid. I hope You're able to overcome any obstacles you'd face in future. I know u're a strong gal. You will be a successful woman one day. I have faith in you. Don't give up just yet. Hang in there dear!! I'm always here whenever you need me. I'll be there for you... I Promise.
Nozie out..
.Missing. 16/10/2008
Am writing this in a very low spirit. (so imagine and read it in a very emo way) Am feeling super duper tired and shag. No idea as to what could be the reason to this. Wanted to join them train but my mentality set to a frigging lazy mode the moment I stepped out of the car. Left early, went to the place that brought back good and sweet memories to me. The one and only place i felt calm at. By just looking at them all, doing their thing and by listening to the sound of the machines, just made my day. Reminisced every moments i've once shared with them. However, the burning sensation of getting my ass back in the place really annoys me. As much as u wan't something so badly, but you know you can't, it's simply annoying. What would you have done?
Getting your parents or family's blessing is really necessary isn't it? As much as I wan't it, at the same time, I wouldn't wan't to disappoint anybody. At this very moment, Nozie feels like driving out in the night all alone with the music on, while feeling the breeze and letting the cold air blowing my hair gently as it moves to the beat. (but hopefully the hair yg berterbangan is really my hair and not cik pon's hair! hehe)
(Ok now read this part with a lil enthusiasm) Anyway, let's put all that sentimental entry aside. Nozie's back. Lately, my sis and I had been experiencing a lil weird incidents at home. (Warning! Those yang tak kuat semangat please close this window right now. Parental Guidance is advise!)
(Ok now read it in a mysterious like a ghost story way)One of the nights, I stayed up late. Both sis and dad were asleep. No lights were on. It was really dark. (if u know my area, u can imagine i guess). It was half past midnight. As I was watching TV all alone in the living room. I heard a silent noise coming through from the kitchen. The silent noise I meant here was an unusual creepy sound. Wasn't sure of where, what and how the noise came about, I ignored. Few minutes later, the sound came back. This time a lil longer and louder. I turned my head looking directly at my kitchen. I saw nothing. So the sound stopped. And so does my attention. I ignored for the second time. By this time, my heart start beating fast and my hands were trembling. The third time the sound came, I stood up. Switched off the TV and fan and shut the windows and went in to sleep. hehe! But it reminds me of my Sis incident. There was once, happened in the kitchen as well. The windows at the kitchen were closed. We did hang our clothes. She just came out from the toilet, and as she walked passed the so called balcony area she heard sound of a kepak. Erm kepak in english ape enh? Anyway, it was loud and when she turned she saw the clothes were moving as if there's a strong wind. But she didn't see any unusual and unwanted things tho. Another incident, recent incident encountered by my sis again, this time, my dad's room. Every nite he will shut his door. His door facing our room's door. That night, my sis heard there's a loud knock on it (one time knock), and soon after that she saw a lembaga hitam (like a shadow) standing at our door looking in our room and disappear. She ignored cuz she thought it could be dad. But the next day, she asked all of us, if any of us heard the knock nor woke up to go to the toilet. But nope none of us did that. So hmmm... weird.....
.Poetry. 9/10/2008
My mind is still polluted with a stinky idea of men. Using poetry to melt one's heart is definitely a good move. Especially if it falls on the ear of a soft and gentle lady who have always been dreaming of the fantasy world. Decorating the poet with all the sweet yet wise sentences, it moves me. You gave a nice rhythm to the poet and it gave a soothing melody to the ear. Believing the wonders of your poet, could give warmth to the heart. That's unique.
However, to believe in the meaning of the deep poet u composed that was filled with empty promises and words, wasn't such a good idea. It adds on to the wild imagination i have towards men.
Sweet-talker But Yea i know not all men are like that.
So thousand Apologies if I'ma offend all the men out there. Peace.
.Popeye the sailorman toot toot. 8/10/2008
Bonjour!! A lil updates and complain..
Was sick the last weekend AGAIN! grr.. Anyway feeling a lil better now. Just a slight cough. But at the same time, been feeling restless, uneasy, worried, and fearful. It all started with the small conversation I had with my cousin. She brought up a topic bout the picture taken at grandma's house during raya.
The thing bout Hari Raya (father's side), seldom we get the chance to meet each other at grandma's house all at the same time (cuz we don't plan with each other with regards to the visiting time). And sometime back then, there was once, it's like we got to meet each other and a picture was taken with the presence of my Grandma and Arwah Yusof (Grandpa). But a few months after raya, we received a tragic news of my grandpa's loss. So that picture we took together was like the first and the last with our Grandpa.
In addition to that, after so long didn't get to gather around like before, this year, we did. The same families are able to capture another picture together with grandma. And my cousin somehow told me, "She's afraid history mite repeat."
"Ya Allah, panjangkan lah umur Ibu bapa ku serta ninda ku, Amin"
And ever since that, I try to be more mindful of everything. Trying my best to fulfill my Family and Friends' request. On Monday, mom called me, asking me to break fast with her at home. So I made the effort to changed my tuition to Tuesday instead. Cuz at this moment I'm really afraid to turn anybody down. Esp my parents. and I'm glad i did. Next on Tuesday (yest), after tuition, went out with Yusnul and had our late dinner. The reason being he's going away to Taiwan today for 2 weeks and he mentioned it would be good if he gets to c me before he take off. Cuz it has been very long since we last met (almost a year?). So I agreed, we went to Airport to have our dinner at Popeyes.
I seriously don't know whether was it me or it's really the food. I can still remember vividly the Cheese biscuit (i can't remember the name) was super delicious the last time i ate there (Few months ago). And that Cheese biscuit will be the must-eat kinda thing whenever I'm eating at popeye! But now, the taste were no longer the same! Not as delicious as before.. Why?? But then again, maybe It's just me. But the mashed potato is still rocking thou!
Once done, headed home..ouh and ya, he have a new hobby.. haha! playing with the colourful cubic thing (wat's the name of this thing ey?) and he showed me how to play with it but as u know it's almost my bed time so i can't really concentrate so I don't really get it even thou I'm sure I can definitely get it in just a few mins if I'm wide awake... hehehe.. ok2, fine, I was just messing around. I admit I'm s-l-o-w and I didn't get it..haha. Wat can i say.. I'm just a drowning dugong rite yan? ..hehe. So I have two weeks to play with the cubic thing plus his psp.. heheh..
On the whole, ok la.. good to know he's still in good shape, i mean he's good with his life. All the best to u... Last but not least, peepz, maybe u mite also wanna take this opportunity to do the best for your loved ones. Shower everyone with love. And most importantly, spread the love around aitez. Til then, nozie out.
.Think u know me?. 3/10/2008
First and foremost, I would like to wish all the Primary 6 students "Good Luck and All the best in your PSLE (starting today till 9th October)!!" Make your mama proud aite?
Secondly, Tagged by Fana fana momena, Feena feyna momena, beeba momena. Fana.
(OK fine I know it's wrong. Sorry I dunoe how to play that name game, heh)
5 things I was doing 10 years ago:
a) Studying in Fuchun Primary School.
(Am pretty sad cuz the old building is now vacant.
Cuz shifted to tmpt lain. Da mcm old changi hosp sey sekolah
aku)
b) Taking PSLE (but can't remember much during PSLE period).
c) Wore Snoopy t-shirt to school on Children's Day.
d) Gaduh with friends because of a diary.
(U know la time kecik2 selalu tulis2 diary, then always tulis
biodata.
Then ade tulis Best Friend, Fav Friends, Enemies. Unh that
enemy section la yang boleh buat gaduh among us. ahakz.
Then when any of us nmpk name kite tertulis under that
section, ape lagi, step
gangster la, konon nak erm ape tu the word yg selalu di
gunakan time dulu2. isit hung? hahaha kental)
e) Dapat a kotak inside ade cincin from secret admirer.hahah!
f) Gi jalan raya together2. (i still remember kite tunggu
lame for a few of them. and the reason dorang lmbt becuz
satu2 pakai platform yg mcm spice girls tu.
U know the tebal nye type? hahahahah. tak leh angz)
g) Kene bully by a guy name Azmi.
(When outside sch da nak balek, die suke kejar then stepped
on my shoe! not once or twice but byk kali!) grrrr...
i) and lastly, wat i always did after school. Da balek rumah
je I will take the colourful chalks (i always curik from school
one) and will write it on a piece of small blackboard i used
to have at home. and berangan jadi cikgu. Then Sometimes i
will use the microphone bebual sorang2 step/feeling macam cikgu.
My fav line, "Class silence please." Then i can even distribute
papers letak atas meja konon nye ade students. And i only
did that wen takde org kat rumah. But pernah a few times my
sis and dad caught me doing that. My dad sometimes risau,
he asked me, "Kau berbual dgn siape ni Nozie?" haha.
(Btw ey mcm ter- exceed 5 things gitu enh.. ala takpelah da
ter-type pun)
5 things on my to-do list today:
a) Tuition
b) Packed things and go Bukit Panjang.
c) Nak makan kuih Tart!
d) Nak cpt kan masa berlalu
e) Nak Berak!
5 snacks I enjoy:
a) chocolate!!!
b) Cheesecake!!!!
c) I-Scream!!!! (cookies & cream!!!)
d) Asam masin!!!
e) Biskut Mary!!!
5 things I would do if I were a billionaire:
a) Masok Meminang Yusry!!! or
(I dun like him but i saw his house on a Magazine! Superb!!)
b) If only i can buy happiness, I would! cuz I wanna c
everyone I know, keep their smile going and stay happpy
all the time!! or
c) I will give it to my parents!! or
d) Clear my debt(s)/hutang(s). (if any)
e) And do the necessary for my afterlife sake
(Umrah/Haji/Sedekah etc)
5 of my bad habits:
a) Bebual Sorang2. hehe (yeah even till now) shhhhh.
b) Asyik Berangan je.
c) Melatah!!! (grrr!! I wish i can get rid of it ASAP!!)
d) laugh too loud!! (tak manis di pandang org)
e) Always berak and berejam-rejam dalam toilet.
(but at rumah only)
5 places I have lived in:
a) Marsiling
b) ermmm Marsiling
c) and Marsiling
d) follwed by Marsiling
e) And lastly Marsiling..(c how setia i am kat marsiling)
5 jobs I�ve had:
a) production operator @ Motorola
b) internship @ SCS
c) Not many... that's all..
Lastly, 5 people I tag(Erm No one can? cuz tak cukup org to tag)hehe.
.First Day of Raya. 2/10/2008
Hello there. How's everybody doing? Hope you all had a good Raya Celebration. Well mine was ok didn't go visiting cuz this year am just ber-raya-ing at wdls. And sadly, this year didn't get to capture lotsa pix.. Am still waiting pictures from my sis thou.
Anyway, Me, Aiz and Rad went Geylang malam raya about 12am. Rad's sis drove. The traffic was terrible that nite but we parked somewhere quite far from Geylang as to avoid the traffic. As usual i didn't get anything for myself. Picked flowers for Rad, and she bought songkok for her dad. (wanted to add a bit of colours to her flowers but she's too tired haha). Aiz bought singkong (is that how u spell it?). Then we saw Upin and Ipin (the one Yat was talking about and the one in Fana's blog too! (at kedai2 vcd of course). Thought of getting it and share with Rad. Bt ended up she wanna buy it. I watched a bit of it. They were cute!! "Boleh boleh boleh". "Janji kak janji.." hahah.. Adorable. After all that, went home, reached at about 5am.
Hari Raya Pertama: After siap2, Waited for Abg Nizam and after they all da makan. We started our mintak maaf session. Ok this year better no cry2. haha. And after which, this is the part i wanna share with you all. Haha.
Actually few days back b4 Raya, Mom told us to go her friend's house, Cik Zara. We sisters were like, "Huh? Go mom's friend's house on the 1st day of Raya? Kenapa sey?" And Mom was like, "Die da jemput. Die nak sgt tgk anak2 mak..." She continued, "Ni kawan mak yg Anak lelaki die yg mak ckp hari tu..."
After hearing that, automatically my sis, looked at me..and said, "oohhhhh...nak gi jumpe mak men enh". (Mak Men here refers to Mak Mentua) and I was like, "Ey ape ni... Ish.. Tak nak la.. Ish korang ni jgn mcm2 sey." haha. (The real situation was seriously funny, seeing how my sis reacted) Bizkot tol dorang. and Mom told us that, the Father or also the husband of Cik Zara berkenan at me. When he looked at our photo. haha. Then ever since that day, My sis can't stop teasing me. She will say things like, "Nak kene lawa2 tau, ko nak jumpe mak men ni..." hahaha. Idiot. So we went. While on our way to Cik Zara's house, my sisters were really like biskot mary tau. they teased me all the way, "relax la. jgn berdebar2... woooii betol kan rambut tu." And seeing my 2nd sis face, haha i can't help it but to laugh. and she will continue, "Wooooi bukan main suke lagi..Ceh ceh ceh. mukanya ada senyum.."
Soon as we reached Cik Zara's HOuse, my sisters yg mcm excited sey. From the door we could see inside the room ade 2 guys. So we were like guessing which one. haha. We sisters signalling to each other using eye contact and we ended up laughing. When we were at the kitchen eating. We saw him upclose. And my sis started whispering to me, "Ey ok pe Nozie. He looked like baik2 nye type. I have a good instinct bout it. Mane lah tahu this time menjadi." Well, at first we thought he's the quiet type. But he actually have some sense of humour. He then took our pic as in together ramai2. And again my sis who just love teasing me, said, "Die sengaje amek gambar sey.. Mesti lepas ni die zoom and tgk muke ko lama2. DIe petik byk kali pulak tu. Tak boleh tido malam la nmpknye..." hahah. Irritz donkey. And all the way, yesterday, I think that was the first I blushed and seriously malu throughout. But It was funny My sis la ni. They were really excited. Super excited, excited to the max.. haha Funny sisters i have.
Well all in all, Just wanna ask, what do you think of match making? All i can say, I will consider taking that as an option only if I seriously give up looking for one or if i seriously can't find one. But Then again ntah enh. Jodoh pertemuan di tangan Tuhan.
Btw On a different story, I saw this pic on my Friend's blog. It was a pic of us taken donkey monkey years ago. Haha. Our 1st hari raya outing with friends!
Do you think u can spot me?
.Selamat Hari Raya. 30/9/2008
"Kepada semua Umat2 Islam yang mengenali diri saya, Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir Batin. Sekirenye tersilap kata, Tersakitkan hati, terketawa, ter-Confident, terguriskan hati, termarah, terkejut..Saya menyusun sepuluh jari ye."
Yey!! Our house now going to be ready and all set. Re-arranged the furniture in our room all by myself, Re-arranged furniture and decorate our living hall with the help of my sis, Set the dining table kat kitchen all by myself too. Hehe... I'm loving it.. Gonna Look awesome at least to our eyes. But not to dad thou. Haha. Well, Dad's taste and ours definitely the opposite. but he already gave us the permission to do wateva we want. hehe. So yeah (in the words of Fana, Jap lagi je siap, heh). So now Just left with the Curtain (FOr hall) and to put up the frames we bought. This year we go with Black and White.. Not really Black & White but modern kinda look. Woohoo!
And Yeah baked Tollhouse cookies, Brownie Bites and Swiss Roll. At least I'm happy with the outcome of this time kuih(s) (unike the suji). hahah (so yeah in the words of Aiz, U should know which kuih not to eat k) hehe.
Till then C yaa!!!
.Satisfaction. 26/9/2008
Firstly, i just feel like cheering in amok style " iyeah!!!" I'm superly happy! Never I thought i could make it this far. Never i thought i could make it this quick. "Syukur Alhamdulillah" (Thank god). I'm very grateful and thankful to all the Instructors who had taught me and guide me throughout my learning journey. U've made my learning journey a wonderful experience and a memorable one. I definitely do cherish every moment i had with all of you. U've really made it fun for me and something i've been looking forward to do. And being there for the past three days really made my day. Had a good last minute revision with you all. Thank you for your motivation, encouragement and wishes for me. Thank you for answering all my queries no matter how tired you may be. However, it has all come to an end now. And that also mean No more seeing you guys, no more sharing info, laughter and jokes. I'm gonna miss everything there.
Last but not least, If you ever were to read this, I would like to convey my special thanks to all the Instructors. To be more precise, special thanks to Instrctor Shaikh, Imam, Nizal, Khairul, Fariq, Faisal, Teo Kien Wee, Chua Chee Wee, Rafiq, Kalilur, Rafael, Ali and HAsli. Thank you for being part of my learning journey. Till we meet again.. !!
Lastly, Wanna wish Ayan, Happy Birthday!!! Don't think too much bout the mimpi aite..
.Nozie is a doink. 22/9/2008
Ok Gang!! What I am about to say here will affect gang like Yat, (Maybe Fana, Qiqin and Nashriq, if yat da pass the msg to them), Shahrul, Ariff, Rad (and maybe Al, If rad da pass msg to him).
Hahahahah!! (Sorry I really have to laugh first b4 I say it, "malunye aku") hahhahah!! Ok b4 i say it, just a piece of advice using pantun, next time if, "Jalan2 nampak President, Berbual takmu confident k". lol
K, here it goes, I'm sure U guys received my msg dated on 19-Sept at about 10.45am saying this, "Hey do u guys know, fyi the concert not only consist of Ungu, but also band like fatskunks, sri warna and theatre."
Yeah, can remember rite? ok good.. but if u already terlupe also good in fact better still. Cuz if can please delete that info from one of your brain pockets, called memory. hahahaha.. Cuz that info totally wrong!! Thousand apologies. This is all the Rado's fault. It was superly misleading. Actually, all the mentioned bands (Ungu and Fatskunks), Sri warna and theatre will be happening on a different dates. So Please don't spread around this piece of sooo-the-not-true-news to everyone k. My bad.
On Sat, me and Kak niza, was kemas-ing rumah, Fuyoohhh!! Tiring.. Imagine from 10.30am to 5pm solid straight non-stop. Ok that's not the story i wanna talk about here actually. Heh..But since da ter-type i shall just leave it cuz it'll take me my precious 2seconds to click on the backspace key. Haha. Ok On Sunday, was at Bukit Panjang, and I was really thinking of baking kuih already. Since i'm free on that day. But all the barang2 kuih at Woodlands. I thought I wana go back wdls at about 1pm, since i have plans at 6pm (Iftar with the silat grads). So I siap2. By that time, it was already 12.45pm. But something is just not right. Mom was totally quiet throughout. She just stayed in her room. Not the usual her. Usually, she will sit outside (as in at the hall) with us, laughing and catch up with us. So, i figured, something is bothering her. Well, I dunoe why but somehow I can't get the dream I dreamt about her the other nite out of my head. Remember the one I dreamt I kept calling and looing for her? Yeah, and ever since I just felt like I wanna be close to her. So, I took the initiative, approached her alone, asked her, "Mak, kenape mak diam je? Kenape duduk dalam bilik je ni?" and all her replies was basically about her work. And I bet it couldn't be just that. She's hiding it. I know. I can feel it. (I guess me and mom do share something in common here, hiding things. Hiding our feelings.) Well, I'm really worried, so I sat just next to her and talked.
And after talking bout her work, she began to reveal her story bit by bit. She kinda poured her sorrow and i could see tears rolling down. And It somehow moved me. I felt for her. It made me teared too. I'm glad this is happening thou. But at the same time I'm really3 mad at her Siblings (My uncles and aunties). Why?? They look highly upon themselves. Thinking they're perfect and they have a perfect family. They're all well educated and they have a good job. Good pay. and Yes, that I have to admit. But what's wrng with their Maturity?? You call yourself A highly educated Teacher! Well intelligent maybe, but heartless definitely. You're the Eldest in the family but u act like non other than a small kid with no brain!! Maybe you have not tasted the bitter of life. You don't know. And why must you all looked down on us? Why must you judge us?? Just because we come from a broken family, does that mean we don't belong in this big family of yours. And is that the way you treat ur own sister?? By criticizing her, by throwing your heartless words to her instead of motivating her?? Instead of saying the good things?? So i guess that's the kind of moral education u're gonna instill in your children??
All I can say, each and everyone of us have our own journey to lead. Don't be too content if you're leading a happy life now cuz soon before you know it, things might just change. (I'm not cursing anyway, cuz I'm not heartless.)
All in all, I'm glad I asked mom. Ended the open conversation at 3.55pm. After which I rushed back to Woodlands and started baking kuih. (I Guess that short talk i just had with mom, made my kuih tak jadi (tawar cuz i think tak cukup senyuman while baking) haha.) And again I quickly baked the kuih and only finish doing it at 6.10pm. After which straight away keluar to buka with The silat gradz (Mardia, Yazid, Me, Rad, Yat, Fana, Shahrul, Abg Long and Azlina after which later we met up with Ariff for a while.) And yes, basically that was the reason y I said I felt 'Selekeh' and mcm termenung. Not really bout the 'Suji' actually. But thanks thou for those who asked and gave me suggestionsss bout the suji.
Btw watched VCD "Anak Halal" was a good story. I cried!! Super sad, touching story. hahah... laaa emosi la pulak si Nozie ni... haha. Go catch it if u c that VCD dijual..Ok bye bye gang!
.Irritz Donkey Monkey. 19/9/2008
Yesterday I seriously felt extremely fatigued. Maybe due to the running around, walking in and out, up and down the stairs. And i shall say yesterday was one of the days where everything turned out not so good. It all started rite from the very begininning of the day. Woke up late after sahur. Rushed my way out walking superly fast to the mrt cuz I cant afford to miss the 8.22am train, and it was already 8.17am on my watch. By rite from my house to the nearest mrt station it will take about 10 min(s) but i only have 5 min(s). Tell me how to. I even thought of running but Ouh I'm not in a appropriate attire. So i missed the train. So ended up 10 min(s) late to work. But ouh who cares cuz if they wanna talk bout it, I can always defend myself by saying, during ths fasting month, that is the whole month of September, I didn't go for my lunch break at all (only once or twice la). And also I'll always cover it up, by going home late according to the no. of minutes i took to reach work. And also don't forget all those extra hours i worked for and not claiming any time off for it. So if u have anything to say, think again. (haha, mcm real je Nozie, cukup time diam je and don't know how to defend myself).
Rushed to work je da penat. Then at work gotta do lotsa running here and there. With the never ending Napfa re-test, with the kids kept creating problems. Ok here comes the best part of all. A great way to end my day. I was supposed to go True Fitness. A guy from True Fitness called me saying I can get free trial of whatever whatever at True Fitness since I'm already a member of True Yoga. (True Fitness, True Yoga and True Spa come under the same branch). So my appointment was yesterday Thursday at 7.30pm. I made my way to Orchard. Like i said I was superly Tired, i slept my way through. (Sampai terlajak kau. Sampai Dhoby Ghaut) haha. Got out of the train and took the opposite one. Went back to Orchard. Then took the exit towards Marriot Hotel. Headed straight to CK Tang. (According to my sis, i can board a shuttle bus from that bus stop which goes to Great World City). I reached the bus stop at 6.45pm. Waited and waited but not even one freaking shuttle bus came. Lucky I have the kuih2 and mini milo packet drink in my bag to break my fast. The time then was 7.14pm. Still no shuttle bus. So in order to kill my time and boredom i started counting on how many 190 bus has passed me. And started to draw my attention to all the vehicles on the road. But still no Shuttle bus to Great world city to be seen. It was already 7.31pm by then. But the guy didn't call me. So I'm afraid he mite be waiting for my presence, I gave him a call. And.......... jeng jeng jeng.... Guess wat he told me..??
He said, "Err... Oh Azsimah, sorry but I'm no longer working in that club."
How nice of him rite to break that piece of good news in a normal tone and don't sound apologetic at all. Sigh.. (Naseb baik nozie penyabar.. Seriously penyabar sey) I didn't scold him or say anything. I just answered him,"Ouh u're no longer working there.. I c.. that's great. Ok thanks!" (But Of course it was supposesd to be sarcasm)haha. So, in that case I think of an alternative. I thought of singgah Yoga jap since I brougt along my sports attire. So left the bus stop. Headed down to Pacific Plaza. But later that I remembered, I can't go yoga. Cuz the seluar i brought not the stretchable type. (If i wear that nanti da jadi mcm Pendekar bujang lapok, confirm koyak) So i left with no choice but to go back home.. Sigh sigh sigh.. Reached home, do the necessary stuff and 1st time ever.. i went to bed as early as 9.30pm.... (but still the last one to wake up for Sahur) haha.
.Gatherings. 18/9/2008
Ahh now i know y it is soo difficult for me to lose weight.. Well basically, it's becuz hati senang mah.. "Muka ada senyum selalu".. heheh. And also that's the reason why my hp bill asek mahal je. (terlalu byk sms). In a month, it can reach up to 1800+ sms.. Imagine that.. All this while, at most la enh, it wil only reached up to $60. But nowadays it reached up to $90-$100.. Gosh! So people, if sometimes I didn't sms or reply or reply halfway thru, thats basically becuz i'm trying to cut down on my sms or sometimes bcuz i was too busy or could be i'm sleeping. Pardon me for that ya. And yea speaking of $$$$.. Sigh. These few upcoming months gonna be a tough one for me. Every year, I seriously hate late Sept, Oct and Nov. Because, i have too many responsibilities (Chey! mcm da kawin lak, heh). But Im not referring to the Birthday Celebrations ok. (must make that clear 1st, hehe). It's the vehicle, that gave me lotsa headache. Now nak dekat raya, Raya meaning nak kasi zakat (to budak2 and adding to that i have berjuta2 lemon of anak sedara). Then Car inspection which da nak dkt ni. Car inspection meaning kene go for servicing once
again PLUS tukar tayar! Then rite after that have to pay Road Tax PLUS Insurance!!!! (ni yang paling tak sanggup!!) Then if kua beraya, Minyak Lagi! Then if nak Raya ni, Nak buat kuih lagi.. Seriously, i really wish i can have extra job. The tuition i'm giving didn't help much. Been trying to look for part-time job but ntah la... Sigh... Ouh well, That's just the sad story of my cheerful life. haha.
Ok no sad sad story already ok (snap out of it).. Rite.. Been HAving Two Iftar with Two amazing groups of people. One with "The gang" on 13/9/2008. It was fun!! A good laughing session for us! Went to Geylang in the afternoon with Aiz, Yat, Fana, Anuar, Sri and Nashriq. My Main and ultimate aim is to get myself a baju raya since it was the 3rd time i went Geylang. And only managed to get myself just a kurma the last time i went there. heh. Besides, my sis da tolong survey kan baju and i really like the baju she bought cuz I was looking for something like that from the very beginning, only that I couldn't find one at low prices. So yeah, once reached Geylang headed straight to Joo Chiat. Bought it and i felt soo relieved after buying it. haha. Like finally. And yeah this year am planning to just get one baju raya for myself. Cuz budget babe. Besides i think one should be enuf. (at the same time, i'm in the midst of persuading and asking my sis if it's possible to tukar2 baju thou. hehe) And yeah so the rest of it was basically just jln2 tgk minuman and orang. All in all, me, nashriq (He got himself 2 baju!) Sri and Anuar (they got baju for themselves and langsir!! I Seriously can't wait to look at the final touch of their house...) And so, once done proceeded to City Hall. Ate at Magic Wok and then headed down to "Fat Bird" at Boat Quay. Been long since we last hangout there. And definitely it was the best part of all. Ouh and yes the funny thing was that, on our prev outing at sentosa celebrating Anuar and Azlina's Brthday, we were accompanied by a short Fireworks. And this time, celebrating Yat, Ariff , Al and Baizura's Birthday (Sept babies), we were also accompanied by fireworks. Haha cool-ness. We had our cake cutting session. (It's a Cookie Cake from Famous Amos). Since we don't have a knife to cut it and Anuar's failed attempt of taking the spoon from Magic Wok. (haha!) Anuar cut the cake for us with his hands. hahah.. (no wonder lagi sedap enh). Oh btw, To Anuar: I'll make sure i'll let u know the complete details the next time we have anymore birthday celebrations which were suppose to be a surprise yeah.. hahah. Ok doctor-for-just-one-round-of-murderer ? haha..
And here are the pix as promised. hehe
Alrite, next on a complete different outing and attended by different org. On 17/9/2008. I had another surprise specially made for Nur Baizura. I told her I wanna date her out on her birthday. She was expecting it will only be the two of us. Only that, I didn't get to c her reaction the moment she saw the rest. ( i really wish i could be there to witness it). And yeah, after much preparation and with the help of Dilah as we worked together on Aiz's present. And with the help of Is in suggesting where to dine in for our buka puasa. (Since me and Dilah otak da tak berfungsi lagi due to sum1 yg suggest Bugis instead becuz of his ERP thingy and ended up taking train also, hehehe.. jgn terasa enh bro..) haha. So, we decided, Amirah's Grill that is. I made the necessary reservation and queries bout the charges and stuff. So, yesterday, Kid and Yati were the 1st to come. (Sorry guys u had to wait for us). Then followed by Aiz, Ayan, Is and Dilah. Then Me, Apul and Faisal and lastly Ellyna and Zahid (I got his name rite this time, sorry for calling u YaZid yest dgn confidentnye). haha. By the time we all reached there, da buke pun so we all bought drinks at Banquet, Raffles Hosp while finding our way to the place. We got the whole table to ourselves with a Flat screen TV (People, next time u wanna come here, u mite wan to consider bringing your own DVD or VCD, heh) But we were too busy eating, talking, laughing and taking pix that we have no time to watch the TV. haha. After giving Aiz her presents from us and with Ayan's and Is present of "Pampering Delight", I'm sure it did add an inch to Aiz smile.
On the whole, it was a great meet up. Thanks once again for coming and making it a success this time round. Really appreciate that. I wish we can all go out during Raya. But it seems like our timing could not compliment each others'. Ouh well. But will try ok.
Anyway, here are the pix!! (Please click on the picture below to look at the other photos, thank you)
(Waiting anxiously for the day. Looking forward to next week!!Yeepii!! But not expecting much also. I'll accept it with arms wide open be it good or bad.)
.Happy Birthday. 17/9/2008
Dearest Baizura,
Because today�s your birthday,
And because you�re extra nice,
One wish is not enough for you
And so here�s wishing twice?#060;br/>
Hoping your Birthday�s wonderful
In every single way
And next year brings happiness
For you day after day
Happy 22nd Birthday Lil Ms Tai Tai!!
PS: I know i still owe u, "the gang" our pics. Soon alritezzz.. Cheers!
.Dates??. 8/9/2008
Before i start with my not so-cheerful entry.. Let me start with a piece of good news!! Weee!!! This morning, my HOD PE came to me and said, "Azsimah, in your calendar somewhere in Oct, there's a Overseas learning journey rite?" And i was like,"Erm yeah...." (but in my mind i was like ouh shit don't tell me i made a nother mistake cuz just a while ago, I was told that in the calendar of events that were sent out to parents, I missed out the activity PSLE Written EL Paper 1 & 2 in it). So, he continued, "Unh yes... just to let you know, u'll be involve ok? So u're going overseas with us to Malaysia. And get ur passport ready and i booked you already ok.." Woohoo! even though the trip will be just to Malaysia, but I'm really excited. First trip with the kids out of Singapore. In addition the soccer boys and a few basketball players i'm close to will be going. SO yeah! I'm sure I will be pretty entertained and occupied there. hehe..Can't wait.. It's on 23rd to 24th Oct (during weekdays some more! yes ah!)
Ok (wiping the smile off my face) Here comes the not so-cheerful cheery entry.
Been feeling a lil low for the past few days since the 1st day of Ramadhan. Been reminiscing the moments me and him went Geylang for a couple of times with his friends searching for his Baju(difficult to get one cuz he was terribly cerewet heheh), my baju and his friends' baju. Breaking fast together, ramai2 and it was definitely fun esp with his friends around.
(yea only those days with his friends ard. ahakz. cuz that was when we managed to end our day peacefully, as in no arguments and in the lyrics of Shakira's song "No fighting") Hahakz.
Anyway, went to Geylang on the 2nd day of puasa with my sisters and their bfs at about 8.30pm plus. It was nice to walk around cuz it was totally empty. Not crowded i mean. But the prices were terribly high. C, the thing bout Geylang is that, if u intend to get anything from there, u seriously have to survey each and every shop/ stall cuz the price of the same stuff from different stalls can have a serious huge difference. For instance, as we were walking around we saw this wooden carpet or i shall say the bamboo carpet or ape2 je lah they call it, nyeh. 1st shop at 1st the display price was $55, so we stopped to ask for more designs then as we were talking, another worker actually changed the price to $66. And that was definitely a turn off. As the guy cum promoter talked to us continously about the service la ape la, it seriously bore us so each of us kinda gave him the ok-next! face. Continued walking and we saw another shop with that carpet, stopped and asked. It was also $65 but more designs this time as in choice of colours. But too bad, the size we wanted no longer avail (phew! lucky us). Proceed on to another shop, the same carpet, he's selling for just $35. It was the last piece thou but it was the size we wanted. Bargained and managed to get $33. (the pakcik very friendly) So bought it. Walked around saw a couple of other shops selling that carpet, we tried to ask ard for the price still, it was $85 (My god! they seriously mark-up the price like nobody's business). So we thought ok that $85 was enough to make us feel good with the price we got. And went to Geylang on last Sat again with Dilah, Aiz and later Rad and Al joined. Wanted to look for Bedsheet and alas meja or any perhiasan rumah but just couldn't go for it cuz am afraid the costs are unreasonable (Maklom lah tak reti nak beli barang2 gini) hehe. So Jln2 punye jln, pusing punye pusing the whole Bazaar Geylang.. got caught in the rain some more and i just got myself a .... guess wat? a box of Kurma!! Dates!! lol. Pergi jauh2 just to buy that. kwang3.
Saw a couple of baju for raya. was nice but damn expensive $190. Gosh! it was definitely over budget for me. And saw another baju raya of quite the same material and design for $110. Nowadays, Hari Raya is no longer for myself. I mean all this while, I just need to worry bout myself. My own preparation. Will buy new clothes, new shoes, contact lens, bag/purse, accessories. But since last year, I can no longer do that. We sisters are contributing for our barang-barang rumah. Esp woodlands house. Cuz we moved in without anything basically from scratch. We only have the old sofa, antique meja and 1 bed. that's all. no curtain, no bedsheet, no alas meja, no perhiasan, no nothing. basically nothing. So that was why this year, we have to contribute again for curtain, living hall fan, bedsheet, a new kerusi, and dad wanted to paint the house. (he's really keen to paint). Need to kemas kemas and kemas cuz it's really messy rite now. Esp Kak Niza's (1st sis) books and worksheets of her students. (i think it has been there for a long time, wonder did she ever mark it??) haha. It's really different when it's only us i mean usually we will all depend on our mom to do the house chores, decoration (though we mite help partially, but still, mom did evrything). BUt now, we have to really be independent, do our part voluntarily. And usually i'll be the one yg paling teruk kene kemas. I mean since my sisters are basically under Govt they are not entitled to Annual leaves. They can only depend on School holidays. Ouh yeah speaking of hols Kak Nana (2nd sis) will have her 3 weeks hols starting from 22-Sept. But ouh well only her right hand is functional. (hehe) so still the same. Not much of a help there. haha. I applied leave already. (Semangat enh) haha. Hopefully am able to finish up with the kemas-ing just before Raya. And i was thinking of baking for raya this time. But the recipe book i asked from my mom da hilang! grrr! So was thinking of alternatives but, that if i have the time. heheh. And ouh a reminder to myself. not only one house that i have to kemas but both rumah Nozie! (So selamat lah...in other words, all the best to you Nozie!)
Anyway, I wasn't feeling too good. This weekend thought of breaking fast with mom but from Friday to Sunday didn't get the chance to. She wasn't at home to break fast with us. As CNI is having a booth at Bazaar Geylang and she will be there to jaga almost everyday (ouh btw, the Double Chocolate Cookies was nice $9.60, Chocolate Moist Cake was nice too, i've tried it, delicious rich with chocolate, if u wanna order, let me know). Only got to sahur with her on Saturday. Really miss breaking fast with her. And last nite, Sis told me, Before she left the house, Mom was like, "Tak payah balik la, tidur sini teman mak.." (with a sad voice) but Sis can't stay cuz all her things are not there. And this morning after Sahur, I dreamt (err.. should i say it out here? cuz menurut Maria, if mimpi buruk jangan cerite2 kat org nanti will happen btol2) But the prob is, I dunnoe if my dream considered a bad or a good dream. Anyway, i shall just say it briefly yea. I dreamt bout me looking for mom. As in calling out for mom.. I was really looking for her and kept calling, "Mak.... Mak.... Mak....Mak...." (but i don't say it out like mengigau like that la) It was only in my dream. Woke up, got myself ready to work. And called my mom (As in really dialled her numbers in my hp hehe). Cuz I just wanna hear her voice and make sure she's ok before i go to work. Sigh..
I'm really scared whenever I have such dreams and seeing my mom in such a low and lonely mood.
Semoga ibuku & bapaku dipanjangkan umur dan dimurahkan rezeki, Amin
.Upcoming Outing. 3/9/2008
Hey there! Just a short lil update on our next upcoming outing. (As mentioned by Yat via email, since my blog its popular. haha! Tangan kang..) Ok ok.. Here are the details (Cut and paste from Yat's email)
Hey gang!
Planning to buka puasa next Saturday 13th Sept.
Please acknowledge this email and reply if you have
received it.
And tell me whether free or not then I can start
planning the timing and stuff.
If no reply by this Saturday/Sunday, i'll SMS you.
Now I use email because use SMS not easy you know.
Kalau Yat cap duit takpe jugak ehhh. And you guys
wouldn't want to waste $$ sending replies through
SMS either, I know.
Agenda for the day?
Choose between these.
If you have any other suggestions, do indicate aitez.
1)Go Geylang in the day then leave by 5plus, go and
buka somewhere else like Magic Wok, Sakura at City
Hall or Eu Tong Sen at Bugis.
2)Go Geylang in the day. In between we chope a place
somewhere in Geylang ard 5plus, talk crap and then
buka there itself.
3)Go somewhere else first like City Hall or Bugis
to buka and then at night go Geylang to jalan2.
Those are my 3 choices. Any better choices, please update.
Nozie, please forward this email to Arip and Al-Hafiz
if you have their emails(if they ever check their emails
if they have one of course. Haha.)
And also to Baizura. Or maybe put it on your blog since its
popular. Haha.
Azrie, forward it to Shu please. I don't have her email.
Shahrul, aka the Irritating One, please forward it to
Hykel And Khairul if you have their emails. Kalau tak,
kau message dorang eh?
Anuar, need I say more who you should forward this info to?
And Qiqin, you know lah how legung your brother can be.
Please inform him as well.
Maria, Nozie asked you already rite?
Please inform if I've left out anybody.
Please mark the date.
13th September 2008!
Make yourself free.
Thanks!
Your dearest,
Hidayat.
So people, do your part to give him ur reply k. U can do it via email, msn, blog (tagboard) and lastly SMS. Toodles. : )
.Splendid. 1/9/2008
Alrite here are the pictures!! Sentosa Outing 2008!! & Teachers' Day Dinner! Click on the pic below..
This is the date to remember.. 0109.. ouh well..
Anyway, Friday was the Teachers' Day Dinner, Left work at 1pm, went back to cut my fringe. Take a short nap. Washed up and got myself ready. Headed straight to orchard, cineleisure level 8. Played pool for a couple of games while waiting for the rest. Won only in one of the games. Then the actual event started with the Karaoke competition. Was asked to represent the Malay department teachers, I took up the challenge (tho i know i can't sing well, but wanted to have fun, so yeah i did). Haha! So i nervously sang "Here without you" by 3 doors down. After the whole event, went to watch live band after which headed home and make Ice for the picnic. Slept at 3am, woke up the next morning, early in the morning, went Sheng Shiong to get daging cincang last min (forgot to buy the most impt ingredient), to cook spaghetti. heheh. Reached home, prepare spaghetti and nuggets. By the time finished cooking it's already 10.30am. Yat called me already.. Ouh shit. Without wasting any time, i quickly packed the food. Change shirt. About to leave, but oh damn! the ice!! quickly took the ice out and "ketuk". Then brought the Heavy tent and water cooler and my bag down. (I hate it when i rushed, cuz i'll tend to be very clumsy) Wanted to unlock the gate, but dropped the keys, took the keys then i dropped my hp.. grrr. Thought of calling yat but ouh well just drove out. Fetch Qiqin, Yat, Nashriq and Fana, and straight went to Sentosa, at "Pahlawein" Beach. Woohoo!
Arrived at Sentosa, linked up with Anuar and Sri at the "fish fish" carpark. haha! Headed down the Beach. Pitch the big tent. (Was a challenge tho). Bentang tikar, keluarkan makanan (all of us are hungry by that time). After a while Azlina came with the brownies! And followed by Maria with the surprise for the day. A cake for both Azlina and Anuar's Birthday.. Cut the cake,Sabo session and played balls. Shahrul came with tidbits...Later in the afternoon, the sky turned grey. As it got darker, we were told to move out from the place. And the Enigma strikes (is that how u spell the enigma?). heheh (quoted from Yat). It poured before we could even get to move the tent. So was caught in the rain, and we were still trying to figure out how to fix the last part of the tent. And only managed to find our way to pitch the tent completely, when the rain stopped. Since da basah, we all went into the water as in the sea. Then Al, Rad and Ariff came with donuts. Played balls, soccer and lastly after washing up, took more pictures. And we got to witness the beautiful fireworks. Was meant for Anuar's Birthday. Yeah! For real! not kidding.. heheh! Took more pictures and went to MountFaber, chill while trying to finish up the cake. With the awesome Ghost stories from our story teller, the man himself, Anuar. heheh. And we called it the day.
The next day, went to help Anuar & Sri.. I have to say this, i really like your house.. It's nice. If only i have my own. Get to decorate it. woohoo! nice! I really like the flooring, the big mirror, the wood.. nice.. But poor them, they still have lotsa kemas session to do within this one month. Takpelah slowly enh.. Anyways.. Will upload the pix soon.. But not yet ya.. Sorry prolly by tmr.. I'll try.... Cheers!
.Excited. 28/8/2008
PS: For picnic, i've added the latest information to the list below
Happy Birthday to Anuar! Semoga dipanjangkan umur dan murah rezeki ye.. heheh (and would like to mintak maaf dulu, if tak sempat get anything for you on your birthday enh, but will try) Cheers!
PS: Latest update,
Date: 30th August 2008
Day: Saturday
Time: 11am (for those who have nothing on in the morning) & 3pm onwards for the rest.
Venue: Sentosa, Pahlawan Beach.
Things to Bring: Nozie --> Spaghetti, nuggets, Tikar, forks, balls, Ice cubes
Yat --> Bread, Scrambled Eggs & Drinks, cards, tent
Al-Hafiz --> Tent, Cooler for drinks
Anuar --> Mee Goreng, tikar, games(twister, scrabble, cards)
Fana--> Hotdogs and Plastic cups
Azlina --> Brownies and Paper plates
Shahrul--> Tidbits and snacks
Maria--> hehe "Cough cough" (well u know i know la eh)
Radiyah --> Some more refreshments like Pencuci mulut or "cemel-cemelan"
Qiqin and fren and Nashriq --> Some foods and tikar.
Well Ariff, still waiting for your confrmation thou....peace : )
Today, thursday, gotta go tuition and then prepare all the necessary things for tmr's event. That is Teachers' Day Dinner at Kbox @ Cineleisure. Well the theme for this year will be "Glitz & Glamour... Bling! Bling!". But i seriously dun get it how certain teachers have an understanding that Bling! Bling! is = hip hop. Haha! However, I've already got my top ready and i'm all set. There will be karaoke session as well (it's like duh! cuz i mentioned at KBox rite?) haha. After which the next day, gotta wake up early in the morning, to prepare spaghetti, and the things to bring for picnic.
Well that's just a lil updates. Anyway, this morning, felt real good. Came to work, did the P1 registration while talking to one of the teachers, asking bout the Teachers' Day concert and so on. She then mentioned, "Oh ya, u know wat? Yesterday a group of kids came to me asking me how to spell Ms Azsimah's name. They wan't to vote for you." (The kids are suppose to vote for Teachers' award kinda thing) I was really delighted to hear that. It definitely made my day. C, how can I possibly say I don't like kids? I do.. actually. (it's only at times they can be quite annoying). On Tuesday, i got the chance to relief classes (the most bising classes). Though it was difficult to get them under control the first 10 mins, but it was ok towards the end. 2 periods of Maths with the P3 class and 1 period of English with the P5 class. But for the P3 class, there are a few really naughty ones. And i definitely salute the form teacher as to how they can put up with their behaviour everyday. It is definitely challenging being a teacher. P1 - P3 they're still young, naive, naughty, mischievous, hyper and playful --> the biggest challenge is to be able to get them under control and get their attention and make them interested throughout the lesson. Whereas for P4 - P6, they're in the stage of growing and this is the time they may have start learning and attracted to all kinds of negative issues in life like smoking, relationship, being rebellious, rude, totally not interested in studies, always lepak outside --> The biggest challenge is to draw yourself to them, get their attention, make them like you and at the same time respect you. Give advice slowly, one at a time cuz if we tend to talk/advice more than one thing, it will automatically taken as nagging. We must always praise them, make them feel good and appreciated. Give them encouragement and attention all the way. Make deals with them to get them interested in their studies. Anyway, after all it's easier said than done. It can be a headache if we have to face it everyday. Ouh well, I seriously hope i do get to be one in future.
Last but not least, Happy Teachers' Day to all the Teachers in Singapore. Thank you for everything you've done and cntribute. Being passionate in your work, inculcating and nurture values in your students despite the challenges and setbacks you encounter along the way.
Happy Teachers' Day!
Anak Manje?, 27/8/2008
Day: Wednesday
Time: 1.25pm
Weather: Cold and Cooling
Energy: Low
Mood: Happy
Stamina: Moderate
Haha! Sorry peepz, please ignore that crappy intro of my entry. (mcm main game pulak). Anyway, from Yat's entry, bout Kids nowadays being pampered and all, it somehow gave me an inspiration to talk bout "anak manje". I'm sure we've all heard of "Anak last = Manje". How true is that?
Well, as you all know, I also tergolong dalam kumpulan anak last, heheh, But I'm quite puzzled cuz That's the common line I usually get. I seriously wonder, why is that so? Till now, I've been thinking, I don't see myself being treated differently or extra special that i get everything or whatever i wan't, ouh well u know the Manje kinda treatment. Cuz from what i can remember, wenever I asked for some things, the common answer i will get from mom, "Kakak punya kau tak boleh pakai ke?" or "Kakak kan da ade." or "Kakak tak pernah mintak beli bende tu, kenapa kau kene pulak?" or "Kakak boleh keluar sebab Kakak da besar, kau tu masih kecik" <--even when i'm already 15yrs old.(but I might exaggerate a lil here, heh) So much bout kakak that I honestly feel like they're favouritism. I often felt sad and left out cuz my two elder sisters are very close as they're just one year of difference. So that left me alone. Especially when going on a holiday, if travelled by coach, My parents will be sitting together, my two elder sisters sat together and that left me alone with no partner. And if we have to take cab, we always have problem, cuz there are 5 of us. And usually by then, I will always feel like my existence in the family is like a burden. How sad.... :(
And adding to that, It's amazing how a person can tell if I'm the youngest or the eldest. Hmm.. According to these people, they can tell from just the face and personality. How cool is that. Till now I'm still trying to figure it out. But theoretically, the eldest, they will look more discipline, focus, responsible. While the youngest they're playful, manje, less focus. Hey wait a min. Says who? There are a few, it's totally the opposite ok.
Well on top of all these, I personally think there're no such thing as "Anak last = manje".. So please don't assume, we, anak last are having a good time ok.. Not all of us are being treated specially. Don't Stereotype us. (However,it can be true at times too.. hehe.) Okay till then.. Take care.
30th August Outing, 25/8/2008
Peepz.. From the votes i've gathered. Votes goes to Sentosa and Picnic..
Well I guess this is what we can do.. We'll just chill and relax at Sentosa (picnic) How's that? hahah... I really have no idea nw... Running out of ideas... Ok It's gonna be just a laidback chill out.. Go there makan, mandi2, play games? enjoy the scenery... ouh gosh... I'm actually pretty sad... cuz won't be going kayaking... Sigh..
Pix pix pix
Here are the Pictures....Events: Kak Aida's 1st Daughter's Cukur Rambut, Anuar and Sri's Solemnization Ceremony and lastly our National Day outing. enjoy!! Click on the Pics below..
.Woohoo!. 21/8/2008
Holla peepz!! : ) Woohooo!! Yeah!! You're Right!!I sound Happiiieee!!Cuz I am Feeling Extremely Flattered now!! I'm feeling good..(I think i've mentioned bout this but i can't help but to say it again hehe)
It's weird.. Have u ever felt real down, low spirit, felt like u're useless, u're nothing, basically u feel like u're not good at anything and start feeling transparent, invisible, u're alone, no one understand u, miserable? Well yea i'm sure everyone experienced that, well at least once?
Wat i gotta say now is strictly based on my experience. I've once been there and feeling low all the time.. but after taking a lil small step (and not knowing of the risk i'm taking) my life totally changed. Changed for good. Doing Things that i've never thought i would or could do. I've never thought i could be independent. Going for holidays, trying out on the different activities. Tried baking and cooking. Working out on my personality. Positive. And..(the content may be a bit vague, so start guessing..heheh).. the thing that actually make me feel good now is Seeing myself doing and trying that one thing which i never regret doing, It actually make me feel good all the time. Made my day without fail. Made me smile throughout the day. I guess if ur in a group of good, funny and gerekz people, ur learning journey will be fun. I definitely will cherish those moments at the centre. Cuz one thing for sure, i have fun. And when i'm having fun, i'll always look forward to each session. I can still remember vividly, Me making the decision to enrol it, alone, Went for the orientation, followed by the first session, it was funny. Fell a lot of times yet still dun wanna give up. haha. Until i had the last hard fall, and i told them that's it, i think i can never do this. But he gave me encouragement. not to give up. it took me some time to really consider whether to continue or just quit. But with my never give up attitude, i attended the second session followed by the third, forth And it goes on till the last session. Now, as it comes towards the end of my learning journey, i kinda feel sad. I'll only have few more sessions with them. I'm sure gonna miss them. The laughter, my blur moments. There's once, i came in the morning (Prolly still in a daze) I quickly get myself ready, took the tag and went to the booth. And one of the guys asked me, "Where are you going?" I replied, "bla bla". And he said, "Are you sure? There's no bla bla now". and all the guys started laughing.Haha!! Blur me! And on the same day, Just before the Bla bla. One of the guys told me, "Ey Kereta kene saman tau". Oh sigh... And i didn't make it for the bla bla too. Sigh..One bad news after another. But The last session, which was yesterday, It was good! All Thanks to Hafez! Thanks a lot for helping me! If it wasn't for you, i mite have to come back. and waste another $38++.. Woohoo... So now.. All my worries is gone.. cuz I just have one last final lap to go. Will definitely try to have fun for those last few sessions with you guys...I'm lovin' it.. I totally dun mind if i have to come back cuz the more the better.. i enjoyed every session i had with the guys but it's the money that i can't afford.
Anyway to summ it up, peepz, Take a few minutes of ur time right now, at this very moment and think. What are the things u wanna do but never get the opportunity to do? Or never have the confidence to do? Be brave, go for it and try it! U'll never know if that thing can actually brighten up your days, brighten up ur life, and be the sweetest thing that had ever happened in ur life and the sweetest memory you can keep with u for life.
PS: I'm Still Smiling even up till now........... : )
.Updates. 14/8/2008
In the words of Ariff, "Ooukay best!" haha! just felt like starting my entry with that Fav line of Ariff. Alrite 1st thing 1st, i know i still have lotsa uploading of pictures to do.. I will try to do it over the weekend ok? "Man man lai". 2ndly scd, The National Day Outing was Awesome! The best part of all Everybody turned up and it was really fun! (Well at least to me, not sure wat do you think thou). Even thou it was kinda a big group but i think it suits the occasion. With the teka-teki session. It was great!... Thanks to all who came (Yat n Fana, Rad n Al, Anuar n Sri, Ariff, Shahrul, Maria, Aiz, Nashriq).
Ok This next portion of my entry is specially dedicated to Hidayat, Ariff, Fana, Baizura, Shahrul, Radiyah, Anuar, Sri, Maria, Fahmi, Al-Hafiz, Fadhilah, Nashriq and to whoever wanna join us ok? You're most welcome!
Alrite here are the list of activities I have in mind which I'm trying to organize for us on 30th August 2008 (Sebelum Bulan Puasa menjelang)
Please gimme your votes:
1) Kayaking cum Ubin expedition (Explore the town area of ubin and kelong)
Time: 3pm - 8pm
Cost: $55 /pax (Might get a discount, if we go as a group)
Max. Capacity: 25pax
(From the survey I did, the response were ok but am still collating)
OR
2) I have 2 Night Safari vouchers (If i'm not wrong, it's free entry. 5pax per voucher.
But i've to read the terms and condition again to reconfirm) hehe sorry can't provide with the details yet.
OR
3) A visit to the Zoo (This outing will cater to the needs of those who have not visited the Zoo for quite some time)
Time: 10am - 5pm
Fee: $16.50 /adult
Parking Charge: $3.90 / entrance
(Might be Ayul's choice as he mentioned bout not going to the Zoo since he was 10yrs old!) heehee
OR
4) A day out to Sentosa
Sentosa's Entrance Fee: By Car $2 /pax AND $2 /car
By Sentosa Express $3 /pax
(At sentosa, it might cater to the needs of those who have not tried the Luge and skyride)
Time: 10am - 6pm
Cost: 1 trip of Luge & Skyride $10 /adult
2 trips of Luge & Skyride $18 /adult
And After trying the Luge and Skyride we might wanna proceed to the Butterfly Park (Will cater to the needs of those who lOVE Butterfly!)
Cost: $10 /adult
And after Taking Photos of the butterflies and us, we will be hungry rite? So we can dine in at Sarpinos Pizzeria which is located in the Butterfly Park. (I hope that Sarpinos outlet is still there and will be open)
OR
5) A Laidback Get together Picnic at any of the beach in Singapore (East Coast Beach, Pasir Ris Beach, Changi Beach)
(This event might cater to the needs of those who wanna do a scanning at the beach) heheh
Time: 11am - unlimited hours
Cost: Free!
But for this outing, we might need to play our part to bring things like
a) Our own Pot Luck / Drinks / Tidbits / Fruits (Rambutan is a NO NO this time Please) haha
b) Cards or board game
c) Balls
d) Tikar
e) Portable Radio
f) Camera
g) Swim suit for those who wanna swim
h) Tent (A big one preferably so tat can keep our things)
i) cash (In case u wanna rent a Bike or roller blade or buy dinner)
Ok thare you go..... The activities i have in mind... Please drop your votes Via SMS or Tagboard Thank you. Oh ya, Your ideas of where to go are most welcome as well.. Till then taking care!!
"Al-Fatiha". 25/7/2008
Salam Takziah. On 24/7/2008, We've lost one of our friend Muhd Azli also known as "Beng". I knew him during my trip to Tioman. He's a funny guy. Can be quiet at times. Kept having his laughter, voice and smile playing in my mind now. With his known line, "Marilah sini". It's really saddening and shocking to receive the news yesterday. Pray for his afterlife. Semoga roh dicucuri rahmat.
"Another weekend burn". 24/7/2008
Woah.. One after another. Down with fever since friday. Maybe due to the durian i ate and lack of water and lack of rest. But this time was very bad. been taking medicine constantly and regulalrly but it just won go away. Not until today. Still feeling feverish.. still having headache.. sigh.. (da lama tak sakit lama mcm ni). I dun wan to go to the doctor, but on tuesday really cannot take it. so was left with no choice than to go Choice clinic. Asked for two days mc so that i can really rest. And yea i'm back now. With loads of work! Guess i can only resume my normal life after next week. Lotsa things been postponed. My yoga, my ehem* activity(cannot tell).. haha. Really hope by next week everything will be back on track. nothing much to update for now. C ya!
"Blessing in disguise". 16/7/2008
As wat RyanSHah said.. We've got to think positive.. Thinking back at what happened over the weekend really opened up my mind. I felt sorry for her. I'm sure most of you already know what happened. Let's rewind a lil... (I'm finding the remote control)
On Friday, 11/7/2008, at 5.15pm, as i was rushing through my work before i knock off. I received a phone call from my elder sis saying in a calm tone, "Nozie ko tahu Nana (2nd sis) accident?" ("Nozie, do you know Nana met with an accident") So i replied in a calm tone also, "Accident? Tak tahu.." ("Accident? I don't know.") and bla bla.. and after hanging up the phone. I asked myself, "Ey! Wat am i doing sia..? Nana accident sey! Asal ku masey duduk rilek?" ("Ey! Wth am i still doing here calmly??") And i started to panic. By that moment, i can no longer think straight. I don't know what to do, I don't know where to keep my things, I don't know how to shut down my comp.. It was like i Don't know where to go. Cuz i walked here and there not knowing wat should i do. Whether to go out straight or to finish my work which was also needed on Monday. I sat back and tried to finish up work but i can't. Was worried. Told a fren my sis accident and wanted to ask how to get to ttsh. But can't wait much longer. So i rushed out. and the only person i have in mind, Radiyah, called her, askin for directions.
While on my way to the hosp, there were already traffic congestion. From what i know her accident took place at PIE. So i was looking out for her red bike. But nowhere to be seen. And by that time, my hp kept ringing from my sedara2, but i only entertained calls or msgs from Faizah (the witness), she told me she's already at ttsh at A&E. Reached TTSH after an hour (because of the traffic)and in addition, there's no available parking lots. Dammit. Makin nak cpt, makin lambat pulak. I went round and round to look for the effing basement carpark. Finally got one, walked up to the A&E, my heart pumped real fast by then. And i saw my cousin Kak lin and Hasrom were already there. Kak Lin told me, only 2 person can register to go in the A&E but one at a time. Kak Niza already went in. So left one but was thinking to give that slot for my mum. But i can't possibly wait outside patiently and not getting the chance to see my own sister rite?? So, with tunjuk ajar from my Kak Lin (heheh), i went in illegally from the -STaff only- entrance. And able to c Kak Nana. She's lying on the bed, and she's crying. So in order to calm her down a lil we tried to make her laugh. and the good thing she laughed. But wen i saw her hand, it was really swollen (She fracture her left forearm). After a while, i was chased by the security cuz i didn't register. Kwang3. so went out and waited outside patiently, felt better after seeing her.
Waited at the hospital to hear from the Doctor. The doc only came at 1am. So me and Rasyid decided to stay and accompany her that nite. Then the next morning, Kak niza came with kak lin, and we were really worried on wat and how to break the news to my dad while waiting for her surgery. At 3.30pm they pushed her to the Operation theatre already. Waited for a long time and she only got out at 9pm. Then second night was so kechorable. Dad kept calling my hp wanted to know Nana's condition. And we got all stressed up cuz he started getting worried. That night, i took mum home 1st as dad is coming. Chaotic! And Kak niza,Rasyid and Hasrom stayed at the hosp that nite. Then the next morning, came with mum. Finally got to c her after her surgery. Alhamdulillah everything went smoothly. Third night stayed there with Rasyid and mum. The next morning, Monday, called my workplace asked for urgent leave and explained my situation. Thank god, my AM very understanding. Waited for so long to discharge her. At first they said at 1pm but delayed until 3pm.
So once all the documentation settled, brought her back home.
Let's look on the bright side now. From what happened, it somehow gave each an evryone of us a lesson. 1stly, i've learnt it's very important to get restu (blessing) from our parents in wateva we do. Especially riding a bike. Cuz when unwanted things like this happened, it will be very difficult. ANd it might gave a shock to your parents. (really felt sorry for my dad). 2ndly, It somehow strengthen our bond that is, the sisterhood bond. I realised that we're really there for each other. We helped each other pretty well. Especially with our family condition, all we have is just us, sisters. We can only depend on each other now. And i feel fortunate to have you Kak Niza, you have been a really good sister. You handle complicated situations very well. Knowing ur the eldest, u took the responsibility from all our actions and put the blame on urself. You're always there for us, giving us strength, motivation and inspiration. Your maturity always opened up my mind. Ever since the bad things happened to our family, u've been there all along to guide us through. Thank you for everything Kak Niza, Evrything you've done for us. I couldn't imagine myself without you. And Kak Nana, even though i've been complaining bout u sometimes, but from what happened, it really prove that "Air di cincang tak akan putus". I didn't know i actually care so much for you. haha. Sorry don't get me wrong i meant good here. Seeing you lying on the bed with ur hand's condition on friday night at A&E really made me wanna cry. I can't help looking at you like that. I wish i can take over your place at that very moment. I wish it wasn't you having to go through all that. We just started our Yoga, now i'l be lonely. Wthout u ard, no one to laugh with when we're doing those weird pose. Your always noisy and cheerful. Nw it's all silence. I hope and wish you a speedy recovery. GEt well soon ok so we can go YOga-ing together again.
LAstly, Thank GOD, our situation were solved and parents are calm now. Thank you to evrybody who visited Kak Nana. And to Fadhilah and Baizura. thanks for visiting. And the Care Bear... Lucky it's not green. (Actually i don't know anything bout Carebear, Kak nana yg told me) hehehe..
Mixed Feeling. 7/7/2008
On Friday evening, was asked to accompany the kids to the NE Show (NDP Rehearsal 2008) on Sat 05/07/08. So, I went with the kids. The kids are really adorable. I love them! and ouh yes speaking of the show itself.. The Black Knights were amazing! I will upload the vids here and u see for urself the stunt they did was really excellent. Hats off to the SAF team. Heard Jumali performed Silat too. But haha.. there were too many performers, i can't spot u (cuz u didnt commit any mistake(s)) haha. And ouh yeah i saw Daffi too! heheh. And lastly, the fireworkz!!! Super super nice.. Wanna watch it again la..haha.(Oh yeah, i went to this NE show, and didn't attend my kuzen's solemnization.)
Right after the NE Show, I headed back to woodlands. Wanna take my cam charger and coloured pens for the guestbook. Then headed back to my kuzen's place. Stayed for a while, talked to kuzens, looked at the pictures then went to mom and went back home. (and realised i didn't take my cam charger, stewpid me). Before we sleep, the four of us were talking. Talked bout the cold treatment mom received from her brothers and sisters. and we shared the same view. Sigh. (that's the reason i hate attending family gathering sometimes) Kenape la org2 ni sume ade je comment nak kasi kat kite.. I meant especially us.. Y us? We didn't owe u guys anything so y bother us?
A handful Makcikz said this to me ("Nozie da gemok ko enh") Sigh!! Irritating! Speak for yourself ah.. and the "Best" part of all.. Previously, during my abg sedara's (Hisyam) wedding i didn't attend cuz i went Bangkok with MY FRIENDS. But it slipped my mind at that time and I only realised it's his wedding after booking of the flight tix. So, in order not to make it sound bad (as if i went on a holiday with my friends and not able to attend his wedding) So i told every1 I went on a school trip. But After the whole trip, Then i realised one of Dilah's fren who went for the trip as well, Fahmie, was somehow related to me. Cuz my Abg sedara (Hisyam) got married to his Kuzen. The moment i came to know bout it, i was like oooh shit. What if he tell his kuzen. So to avoid that from happening, i told fahmie that i told my kuzen's i went for a sch trip, and i expect him to understand. But somehow maybe i wasn't too clear or he forgot bout that, he told his kuzen.
So what happened was that, on the Sunday 06/07/08. She asked me bout it and said someting like ("Kenal Fahmie? Aiyoh pecah rahsia.. That time pegi bangkok enh?) I was like wtf! hmmmmmm aiyah.. malas nak continue story..
Sorry peepz..i really have no mood to further the story. Tat story, i shall just leave it hanging like that.But Seriously, mom's family are ridiculously consist of mainly non other than a bunch of hypocrites! Sigh... Family politics!
Ok Wait.. I dun wan to talk bout them anymore. Alrite let me cheer myself up a bit. Heheh. On the Sunday, as we were sitting down, we (sisters) were scanning thru the majlis (I'm sure Yat and ayul know wat does this mean). Scan scan scan.... Boom! We saw this guy (the photographer) he's cute looking! Can't get his face out of my head! hahah.. kidding.. At least we found something entertaining to keep us entertain for the whle day.. ermmm...
Ish, i seriously have no mood to continue.. All due to the sucky weekend!.. Ouh yea didn't get to attend Ayan's sis wedding, my apologies.. Anyway looking forward to the kayaking thing Apul planned for us.. Till then bye people.
Feeling Good. 30/6/2008
Ouh Wow! Wat a Weekend! Gosh! spend a lot! On things that I never intended to have or do (at this moment). Signed myself up for the True Yoga. Hahah! Never thought of it. But i have my own reasons for joining this after trying out the complimentary session of body combat. 1stly, I felt good about it, somehow it made me feel Healthy, energetic, fresh and good (did i just repeat that? heh). I Sweat a lot during the workout. Ouh and I don't know why, but i felt good whenver i got to sweat. Cuz Basically, My main concern is actually, I've gained weight tremendously now. I'm Back to square 1. (that's obviously because i've stopped exercising). Ouh I can't help it. I'm not discipline enough la. So i Really hope by joining this, it will help me change my lifestyle and diet a bit. Cuz I've invested a lot in this. I'm anticipating to a better result at least 3 mths from now. And also, since I have the intention 2 switch career, my ultimate aim is to be flexible (physically) as the career i wanna be in, require that criteria. Hopefully am able to achieve that by the end of the 2 years bond / contract (or watever they call it) with True Yoga. But then again, actually i kinda know myself (I'm always the semangat seminit type). Kinda worried thinking how long will i be excited bout this yoga thing. I hope it'll be long enough to keep me going for 2 years.
Apart from this, I got myself a camera!! (and mind you That exclamation mark is not the happy and excited tone i'm giving here) I'm not really excited bout the cam thou. I seriously don't now why i bought that cam! On Sunday, Walked around Causeway point, and saw the advertisement or i would say a poster kinda thing written Last Day promotion. I was attracted to this particular cam, the design was nice and appealing to me. Tat's the reason why I bother to stop and take a look. But after thinking, checking and comparing it with the other cam, the picture quality of the cam with nice design wasn't that good as compared to the other one. And it's only a difference of $30. So I was torn between (A) a nice cam with not-so-good picture quality(8mgpx) or (B) normal looking cam with good-picture quality(12mgpx). But on top of all that, the best part of all, I'll get two 2GB memory stick (total up to 4GB), a card reader, an extra battery, pouch, mini tripod stand, a 15% discount card, cleaning kit and a screen protector. And after thorough thinking and consideration, I Seriously bought it. And guess wat?? right after tat, my mind start wondering.. Why on earth did I buy that cam in the 1st place?? I could have got a better one maybe from Canon, Nikon or Sony with a nice looking cam plus good quality plus cheaper somewhere else. Why did i make that rash decision just because it's the last day and i got lotsa free gift?? but to think of it, wat for?? The bottom line is, this cam i bought, It's not the cam I'm attracted to in the first place anyway..
Till now i wonder... Why the hell did I buy that cam??????????????
Fuck Me!
Reminisce 27/6/2008
Somehow while i was clicking on the mouse. Click, click and click, I ended up in my previous2 post. (Thou some of my post made me feel a lil mcm kental) But this particular entry, it kinda moved me. Here read this.....
Taken from my previous post dated on 24/09/05 03:26am....
+Everythin's poigNanT+
i'm dog-tired feeling all sorrowful and shit.
But i like it wen im real tired, cuz it will
put me to bed easily..
Lately, i can't sleep well at night..
It's just soo difficult to get myself back to sleep..
tats bcuz I just could not stop thinking bout my probs..
whatever has been happening, is really wearing me out,
and for that, i shall learn to understand reality, and
accept it fully, whether i like it or not. i hate myself
when i'm all sad and crying every night. i feel so, euw.
whether it will constitute to that, i shall accept it.
sacrifices are inevitable in life, right? i shall be
strong and withstand the obstacles, and of course i
won't say i won't cry. hello? i need to cry at times
to let off steam ok. nyeh.
N tatz wen my mind start wondering around...
i reminisce all the past that has happened in this
house b4.. Definitely, this house brings such sweet
memory as well as bad memory to me... i can't imagine
having to leave this house.. i really love this house..
Its for definite that now i can feel the lost bit by bit.
but once this house are sold, it will definitely give a
big impact on me...But lAtely tiz house has been hearing
n witnessing me cry for the umpteenth time...itz just too
much sadness happening in here...
Im really upset with many things now... Mom how i wish i
could have the mum that i knew... You really mean a lot
to me... it's when i realised your so far away from me,
that i need you so much. i need your smile and jokes to
let me know that i can still laugh despite this tough
ordeal. i need your assurance that i am not alone after
all, but my pride stood in the way. ouh well.
RIte now.. Family Potrait by Pink has been the only song
in my playlist since yesterday.
in our family potrait, we looked pretty happy. let's play
pretend and act like it all comes naturally.
Here, Another one....
8/2/05 12:02pm
7/2/05 meant a lot..... itz the day wen evrythin endzzz...
Tatz it..!!!! It reali happened!!! Im really really
disappointed and devastated.... But i have to think
positive...."Anggaplah apa yang terjadi nie, ade hikmah
disebaliknye.." Haiz...HAHHHAHHAHHAHHAHAHHA..!!!!! HAHAHHAHAHAAHAHHAHAHHAHAHHAAAHAHHAAHHAHHAHHAHHAHHAHHA
HAAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAH!! chiaozzz...
See that laughter at the end?? It really shows how those probz back then, drove me crazy.. haha. Well, those were the days. Now, I'm glad and relieved, it's all over. Thou I'm troubled by this one Thing i've been bothered lately but my guess is, I can still handle it and shall keep it to myself. Anyway, I still think, laughter is the best remedy to anything.
Holiday Mood 23/6/2008
Alritez Peepz! Here are the Pictures....Click on the Pic below..
At this point of time, I really would like to convey my special thanks to all my friends for the Wonderful company and time. It has been a great week for me. From Pulau Tioman to --> Pulau Ubin and to --> Pulau Singapore. The 3 days spent at Tioman was a great experience Esp the snorkeling and the Diving and with me also known as the "Sink Master" (There's a story behind this nick, for those who don't know, don't ask) lol. Though it was my first time to actually hangout with them (Raden, Ain, Ifa, Fifi, Eddy and Beng) but It wasn't that bad cuz i still have Ayan, Is and Razie. It was really great to be around you guys.
Apart from Tioman, the trip to Pulau Ubin was also fantastic. Spent "almost" the whole day there, and I must say, it was indeed an experience. Went with Radiyah, Al, Ariff, Maria, Fahmi and Shahrul. Cycled almost every part of the small little "Island". Covered 4 out of 5 quarries (Can't remember the names except one, Kekek quarry, if i'm not mistaken)hehe. And Lastly, i would say, it worth every drop of my sweat, every effort we've made going up and down the hill even after a solid 6 hours of cycling and lastly it definitely worth breaking rules once in a while. We discovered Chek Jawa, It was heavenly B-E-A-U-tiful!! Amazing view... The breeze was perfectly blowing against our skin. It was cooling and peaceful. (I might exaggerate here a lil. hehe. But seriously, it was a nce place. And right after which we caught a move, "Never Back Down". It was really a cool movie for me. I shall rate it 4 1/2 out of 5. hmmmm..Ouh F*** me, i'll give 5/5 for this particular movie. This movie is basically an action-packed world of Mixed Martial Arts. Jake (The main cast) known as the quick tempered brawler, gotta find the patience, discipline, willingness and reason within him to succeed, under his trainer's wing. And I can't afford to leave this fact out. Jake Tyler played by Sean Faris is hugely adored by me now, after Wentworth Miller. (But Wentworth Miller is still in my list). heh heh. (So now u know why i rate it 5/5?) haha. But no lah, it's not because of the Cast (ehem ehem)haha.. actually I love watching this kinda movie esp Martial arts and dance kind(eg: Step up). It's Cool. And Yeah, I like watching The Contender Asia too. Thogh i dun get to catch it every week (Due to my busy schedule) but for the past few weeks i managed to catch the last part that is the fights. And i seriously admire the guy from Thailand (The shorter one). He got a nice, fast and powerful kicks and moves.
Anyway, Ouh wow, How did i end up talking bout Contender Asia?? haha.. ok ANyway.. Then on Sunday, Didn't go to any pulau this time, just Pulau Singapore. Went Karaoke-ing with Shahrul, Anuar, Yat, Fana (Btw Fana, You've got a very nice voice and i'm falling for your voice. Seriously, i wanna hear more of your voice it's not enough, I'm serious Babe!, I don't mind hearing you sing all day long cuz it's soothing. I'm stating the fact.), Radiyah,Al and Ariff. We got the biggest room. Big enough for us to do our catwalk, dance and roll around. heh. Anyway, It was extremely fun! The laughter, the nonsense and ouh yeah, i seriously dunoe where did the Dangdut mood cme from. All of a sudden just feel like dangdut-ing. Ouh well i just love Karaoke-ing!
Ouh yes, sometimes, I wonder why do i get such a reaction from people, the moment they hear me say I'm going Karaoke-ing. They will be like "Karaoke?? Again?? Why do you like to waste ur money on such activity?? I rather, spend the money on shirts or other things than to waste it on that, which u only get to sing a few songs and that's it."
Well All i have to say, I felt sorry for these people who might not know the true meaning of quality time spend with ur frenz. It's not an everyday thing where u get to meet your friends and really spend the time together. And i Strongly recommend, activity lke this is the best of all. It's in fact the only time you can enjoy, share the laughter together, sing your heart out and dance to the move.
All i can say, Once again, It's not bout the Money but it's all about the quality time spend with your F.R.I.E.N.D.S. Money can't buy Happiness dumbShit.
Holiday Mood 20/6/2008
Tagged by Nolezan...
Rules & Regulations of this quiz is ...
a) people who have been tagged must write their answers on their
blogs & replace any questions that they dislike with a new question
formulated by themselves.
Q : If your lover betrayed you, what would be your reaction?
A : Oh wow!! I've been betrayed!! Congrats!! ur now pronounce as A Betrayal!!HAHAHA
Q : If you had 3 wishes, what will that be?
A : 1) Be a Millionaire 2) Be a lady with lots of confidence 3) No Motion Sickness
Q : Did you ever think to yourself and wonder if you're really real?
A : Yes!! all the time...almost every 10 mins..
Q : Are you afraid of what lies ahead of you?
A : I'm afraid of who's behind me....
Q : Would you change yourself for the person you love?
A : Maybe.. depends on the situation.. If it's for the better y not..
Q : Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
A : being loved by someone
Q : How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
A : As long and deep as the sea water...
Q : If the person you secretly liked is already attached, what would you do?
A : Weell i'm already in this situation... Jst wait i guess.. (not askin for anything bad to happen to his r'ship but wait as in just wait ..) heheh
Q : Is there anything that made you unhappy these days?
A : Motion sickness, seasick!!! Dammit!
Q : Do you get butterflies in your stomach whenever you're around the guy/girl you like?
A : Yeah. whenever i need to make a presentation.. kwang3
Q : Have you ever not been able to get someone out of your head?
A : Yeah! and It suck!
Q : Who are currently most important people to you?
A : Me, myself and I....
Q : Have you ever wanted someone but you knew you couldn't?
A : Oh yes...... too bad... cuz it's impossible to have them.. (Wentworth Miller)
Q : What's the ideal perfect relationship to you?
A : LOVE, LOVE, LOVE, LOVE.....AFFECTION AFFECTION AFFECTION...
Q : Are you happy with your life?
A : NOw, YES!!! Contented!
Q : Would you give all in a relationship?
A : Yeah! For the Man I Love, Anything for Him...
Q : If you fall in love with 2 persons simultaneously, who would you pick?
the lousiest one?
OR
the better one?
A : Hmmm The cutest one!
Q : What type of friends do you like?
A : Friends who deserve the rank FRIEND.
Q : Do you often wish there was something you could change?
A : Hmmmm wish i could change every human to a pure and non-hypocritical Men/Women...
Q : What do you notice when you first meet a guy?
A : his smile....
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I'm back!! From a relaxing and happening holiday! Woooohooo.. Pulau Tioman! It was the best feeling eva!! I'm able to Swim all day long in the most beautiful sea just like a mermaid or a dugong (like how Some people prefer to call me).. haha. It was a blast! I went snorkeling.. Quite a few times i went on my own.. Swim swim swim snorkel snorkel snorkel... felt soo relax accompanied by the colourful fishes.. And yea not to mention..DIVING WAS THE BEST!.. I'm sure i wanna go diving again if given a chance. My first time experience diving: I was too worried and concerned bout my safety and not getting used to the oxygen tank and with me kept sinking, I forgot to enjoy the moment in the deep sea. But still i did Enjoy myself!! Saw a big turtle.. (not sure if there's anther name for it).. But overall, it was a FUN Trip..
Busy Busy Busy 10/6/2008
Sorry to all my frenz if i can't find time for u all. I've been very busy lately with the comp goin on. And I could feel I'm lacking of rest. And on Mon itself, I seriously can't wake up. My body was aching, headache, feeling weak all at once. Dammit.. Thou i don't wan't to take any mc, but i cn't help it. My body need a rest!! I've been running ard like 1 mad cow on both fri and sat. Been extremely worried for the seni team. And on friday itself, started out pretty bad. But i have to thank Rad, ariff and Al for coming down. But wanna apologise for my worked up moment (Yeah Kak Aida clone) haha. But thanks again to Rad for making it up and coming dwn on sat to help me out. Thanks babe! Anyways, all i can say, Isa, Syaheed and Azli dun be disheartened ok. Shit happens. And This time the whole comp suck! We shall let them(whoever or whchever sch who wan't the title Champion so much) win. Let them be. We're already a winner!
Ouh ya did i mention this earlier? i guess i overworked my body, i was down on mc for 2 days.. Monday and Tuesday.. And now I'm still feeling weak! arrrggghhh!! Can't focus on my work. Ouh And i'm very the Pikiran.. Was thinking i didn't make it to Bkt pjg last weekend, and thought i wanna go today but she's not gonna be at home. Grrr.. And i'm thinking most prob i can't go this wkend as well cuz still need to help out with the comp. and after that i'll be going Tioman already. But she said, She wan't me and both sis to gather on sat morning as she wanna talk. (Guess i have to be there no matter wat that morning.) and I seriously dunoe what she have in mind this time.
Asek kene ikot her timing je. And i really dunoe what is it she wanna talk about. Sound serious thou. There must be something. Am guessing a few stuff here but seriously have no idea.
Well i just hope it's nothing Bad. (better not be anything bad cuz i'm tired of having probz)..Sigh.................. Anyways, speaking of prob.. To my frenz: If your facing any obstacle in your life right now, or going through hardship rite now, please be strong. And remember you're not alone. Look arond you and try talking to your friends and pour your heart out. You'll never know, you might feel better or u might find yourself in the same boat as them. ANd yes i know it's not like it will make you feel better but at least u're not alone. I know family problems especially can be very demanding and heart throbbing. Sometimes, how i wish i can just disappear. Vanish. teleport. And especially when it's not just the fam prob alone. When other probz come in as well all at once eg. financial prob and r'ship prob.. It is definitely tiring. I've been there. But Friends, be strong ok. If you all need a listening ear, i'm here. I Will try to help if i can.
Busy Busy Busy 6/6/2008
Oh my.. Been really2 busy. Thou i'm not participating in the competition this time, But i really feel soo stress.. Now i know why Kak Aida (Coach) always Say she's stress. Now i know how it feels like. And I really salute her. She cn still managed her team and training even with her condition. But now when she's not ard felt like oh boy i'm carrying a big responsibility here. Tonite will be the starting of the seni cmpetition. Starting with Ganda Putera. Well.. To all the seni team good luck to u all. I just hope evrything will go on smoothly and i hope we will be able to bring home something for Kak Aida. A present (Medals) for her baby as well.. But then again can't expect and put too high of a hope cuz shit happens. Wow i'm seriously stress and nervous. Cuz i'll be at the gelanggang together with ganda. It's not easy people. haha. But i really hope everything will be ok. Just a piece of Information To anybody who wanna support IVP Silat Competition 2008 feel free to drop by at Republic Poly Sports Complex on these dates (6th (8pm - 10pm), 7th (2pm -10pm), 8th (9am - 10pm), 14th, 15th June (Finals)).
Reflection... 27/5/2008
Looking back at the past few months of my life. It has been great! I've never been soo happy in my life like this. It's a shame that i've always restrict myself. And looking back, It's really amazing how a person can influence ur life making it dull and boring. (ni tak bole itu tak bole, well u know why cuz i've been mentioning bout it in my prev prev post).. Ok2 i shall not start and touch bout that. But It's only now i felt like i'm really enjoying my life. Got to try out lotsa things within a few months. (that includes travelling). If not, punye la susah nak travel.
I somehow feel.. and personally feel... to those guys who always control ur gf, please stop doing that. Dammit! U dunoe how miserable we girls feel. If ur feeling insecure, go and tackle that prob urself cuz obviously the problem is with u yourself. You don't trust urself. By restricting her from going out and having fun with her frenz she long known before u know her, ur an ass. Somehow these gals will end up feeling lost and not being themselves. They changed and be the person u want them to be.
Fuck it Why can't u just accept them for who they are??
I totally would like to apologise if my post this time offended anyone or any readers out there. I'm basically saying it based on
own experience. But then again, I may exaggerate a lil here. But, It just got on my nerves even to think bout it cuz it's really a pity. And just when i thought i'm over it, to my surprise, I almost broke into tears when i shared the story of my life recently. It somehow shows how hurtful it has been. Cuz i can still feel the heartache whenever i were to think of it. Guess the sufferings i've been through really got me big time. It's really hurting. But i guess no one can possibly understand why is it that hurtful? Sigh....
Another Rocking Weekend... 26/5/2008
I had another great weekend!! Felt real good to start the day at work.. It all started on Friday. Watched What Happens in Vegas! and it's like finally i got to watch it. It was AwesOme! Freaking Hillarious! Ate Ayam Surabaya @ of course Ayam Penyet. Thanks for making it happened at last..hehe.. On the Saturday itself went to Cik Mon's Daughter wedding held at a Masjid..(woooo)..It's near my place. So the Girls, Rad and Dilah came over to my house, relax and changed (ok i know somehow i forgot to inform you Dilah, sorry bout that) then we planned to go out. Was thinking of watching movie at first but the timing wasn't good cuz "someone" have to work the next day (Well, i really don't want to comment on that, but i can't help it.
org gile je keje on sun)hehe.. peace no war Darlin'.. So we thought of just going Cineleisure and check out the mOvie Rental thingy but as soon we Reached Town, Dilah suddenly suggested she wanna Sheesha-ing. thou i'm still having phobia (ehem ehem) but i just agreed to it cuz the thought of chilling out was nice at that moment.
once Reached arab street and looked for parking slot, but i kinda Ter-lajak so i have to make a turn into the small road called Haji lane (which i've never drive thru that road before).. while i was driving thru and concentrating on the small road (praying i won't scratch my car or hit anyone) i saw this guy (a very familiar guy) His way of walking, the cap his wearing and the helmet his holding.. I was like, "Ey! Itu macam *His name* je!" OH my god!! Suddenly butterflies in my stomach. It was fancy meeting him there @ Arab st, walking with a girl into the shops there. Lol! But it was good thou, I appreciate his effort of noticing me and acknowledged me. the Only thing was that I wasn't Jealous at all. I guess i'm happy for him in a way. At least i know he's moving on with his life as well (and not dwell upon anything). anyway we shall keep the description of the real situation of that moment missionimpossible to ourselves ok gals?
Then We proceeded to our initial plan that is to sheesha.. Well, I shall say, I'm still Having the Mabuk feeling Upon Sheesha Smell. I dunoe why. Strange! So yea only Rad and Dilah Sheesha-ed.. Then Ouh ya i Watched "Made of Honor".. It was freakingly a Nice Show. Very Sweet, romantic.. Well I shall Say i like Chick - Flick kinda movie.
And here comes the climax and unforgettable experience! Not Long after that, I Accepted a Challenge from My buddy,to take a ride on the G-MAX Ultimate Bungy @ Clarke Quay. I'm proud to really conquer and overcome that fear of mine and took that ride. (Oh yeay, i did) While we were walking towards that G-MAX, we were like "Oh my god, are we serious?" I'm like half-hearted to go on the ride man..At tat moment, in my mind, You can call me coward, chicken out or watever but shit the feeling was like totally InDESCribable. It got worse after seeing the girls n guy who went before us. Dammit the girls really screamed their lungs out. Oooo.... But then again, I took a deep breath and half-hearted said "ok, sembarang la, let's go" So yea.. Went to the counter, took my money out (Half-heartedly gave my money cuz it cost $40 mind you and it's for only a few mins ride, Damn! they really ketok our money man)haha.. Anyway, then we walked towards the steps.. My legs were shaking by then.. Took off my slippers and slowly placed my handbag in the basket and slowly sat on the seat. Oh boy.. I can feel my heart beating real fast, and i feel like i'm dreaming.. I seriously can't believe i'm already sitting on it. Well, Once we were tightly secured to the seats. the capsule leaned back and the operator were counting down for us.. here we go.... 5....4.....3.........BOOM!!!!! Dammit!!! It's not even 1 and it took off.. Aaaargghhh! I was screaming like hell! And i'm the only one screaming.. Fuck It was exciting but that wasn't all.. the moment the capsule turned and we were facing down and it went down Oh crap! I seriously feel like killing myself.. Gosh! no words can describe that feeling. But while we were up thre it was amazing! Got to see the View.. But still i think we should go on the ride at night. it will be nicer..to c the city of lights. And now, if you were to dare me to go on the ride again, all i can say "It's nothing! I'll have no problem doing it"..
I'm not bragging people.. but seriously, it was nothing(wat i meant, it wasn't that scary thou).. It was Exciting and amazing and Fun. People.. do try it, if u wan't to have the thrill.. It was fun.. the only thing was that, it was very short. The Excitement was too short and i personally feel they should lower down the price.
Well then, We had our dinner, walked along Clarke quay catching up with stories of our life (thanks for listening and for ur views. not many people know the true story and somehow knowing ur not the judgemental kind, it convinced me 2 confide in u, thanks bud!). aND While we were walking past, we saw an event, Rock Master 2008.. The host sounds very familiar.. It Was Ashri (Primary school mate) and saw Azim (from sec sch).. Hmm.. didn't know wat it was at first cuz we saw three short walls with pictures of Bob marley and scattered rocks everywhere. And it was only then i know, they were having a competition, the competitors have to climb the walls and touched every rock without any safety gear on. It was cool. Seeing the audience giving the competitors support including the foreign and seeing the competitors climbing, hanging on and clinging to the walls like nobody's biznes and they can actually jump from one rock to the other.. woah! amazing.. and yeah we missed the last train.. dammit...haha
So yea.... Overall... it was definitely an amazing weekend! really enjoyed myself.. Thanks everybody.. you all rawk my world.
Next destination Pulau Tioman
Long Weekend... 20/5/2008
Woah! Lotsa things happened within the four days..Since Fri 16/5 to Monday 19/5.. ON the 16th. I went MIA.Went aboard.. Far Far away from this hectic hometown of mine. Went for relaxation. Been wanting that..It has been a refreshing Trip. Thank you you! and To Dilah and Aiz and Radiyah and Ariff thank you for all your concern.. I'm still here. I'm NOT M.I.S.S.I.N.G. I didn't know u guys will be really worried.(Cuz Aiz pun pernah pe tak reply the whole day and i just take it as U mite be Busy, hehehe (kene kan Aiz balek enh) But i really didn't know u guys would be so freaking worried.. My Bad. My Apologies. Once again, I know ur just concern. I appreciate that. Thank you soo much. i'm really touched. Thank you. Only GOD knows how Grateful I am to have friends like you. Thank you once again yea Friends !!
Then on the 17th went out with Dilah and Huda. Went for a Makan Marathon. hehehe. Talking and Laughing our ass off. And on the 18th.. Went to two Jemputanz.. 1st at Daffi's sis wed (Aisyah).. Was Mesmerized by the whole event(the pelamin was B-E-A-Tiful, The Escort looked great, the Kompang group sounds Awesome and they were good and funny and overall the decor was nice. After Which, Went to Zaiful's Sis Wed (Aisyah too) haha.. Wooo the pelamin area paradise..Mcm raja2 di kayangan.. But too bad didn't get to see her sis nor get to take pix nor get the cupcakes nor sign the guestbook. Sob sob..
But right after that we girls (Dilah, Huda, Aiz and Norlin) We went karaoke-ing... Woohooo been a pleasure to have them together (for the first time)singing our hearts out. From Slow Malay songs, to Slow english songs to Slow Indon Songs to Fast Malay songs to Rock English Songs to Dangdut (Huda will be my best dangdut Partner from nw onwards) heheh.. Then
On Vesak Day, Silat Peepz asked me to JB but before that i've already made plans to go pancing but it's not confirmed. But i have to let go of the JB trip (thinking since i've already made plans with my Sec Sch mates). Only get confirmation The very morning itself. Dilah can Make it, Kid can make it, Farhan can make it and Apul can make it. Our initial plan is to go pancing but didn't happen cuz everybody not been wearing appropriately (as in sume kai lawa2 heheh except for me i guess) so we find alternative. Decided to just chill and make it a laid back outing. So we went Bowling.. 2 games.. Me and Farhan Learnt our lesson, "Never to agree to any deals involving Bowling and Sheesha (for me) hehheh" .. Foolish of us to agree wen we know we'll definitely lose.. hahah! Well An we've got to practice more! haha.. Anyway the headed down for a sheesha.. (Shall not say anything here, It's gonna be between me, An, Dilah and Apul).. Huda and Ahmad came by and joined us.. Then the best part of all at west coast Park. We're like deprived of childhood.. Haha.. We really enjoy ourselves.. Climbed up the spider Web..played with the Spinning Thing (Wateva the name is). And the guys came out with Crazy ideas.. HAhah! Krazy us. And i can't believe Ahmad joined in too... hahah.. Very sporting!.. Anyway, I shall summ it up, it has been a Giddy outing (one after another).. hahaha...
But wait.. I don't know why. but Rite now I'm having this giddy feeling again!! Same time like yesterday.(I'm afraid my penyakit (i mean not the real serious penyakit) but the normal one i've been getting all this while are now back for more). I kept getting this giddy feeling ntah la.. It's irritating.. I think it's the Humidity that caused my giddi-ness.. do people it's not the sheesha ok..
Contemplating... 13/5/2008
This world will never be
What I expected
And if I don't belong
Who would have guessed it
I will not leave alone
Everything that I own
To make you feel like it's not too late
It's never too late
Even if I say
It'll be alright
Still I hear you say
You want to end your life
Now and again we try
To just stay alive
Maybe we'll turn it around
'Cause it's not too late
It's never too late
No one will ever see
This side reflected
And if there's something wrong
Who would have guessed it
And I have left alone
Everything that I own
To make you feel like
It's not too late
It's never too late
The world we knew
Won't come back
The time we've lost
Can't get back
The life we had
Won't be ours again
Right Now, at this moment, I really am seriously pondering to switch my career. To a better prospect career. Cuz I've learnt quite a few things bout myself. Self-reflection:
1) I'm always curious (Little Miss Curious): Curious to know what I'm capable of doing, Curious bout what does it take to be a Teacher, Curious why is it so hard to be a Teacher, Curious will I ever be a Teacher?
In summ: I effingly wan't to be a teacher but why is it so damn hard?!?
2) I love challenges. Even though I might be whinny at times but at the end of the day, I'll feel good about myself (satisfaction when achievement is accomplish).
In other words: I love challenging job(s). I loathe doing the same work everyday and nothing interesting to look forward to. It doesn't have to be physically challenging. A teacher is good enough cuz Everyday will be a new day. Teaching alone is nice, good and interesting but it's the extra workload that Teachers have to do like all the admin work that really spoil it all. Besides, teaching now isn't easy as how it may sound. They have to do lesson plan, set papers, mark papers, in-charge in at least 1 CCA, lotsa Administrative work, meetings, involve in events, still have to answer to parents queries, entertain their complains, what else do i miss? sigh.. and it ended up making the Job look superly boring.. Why can't Teachers just teach and that's it.
3) I can only work with good and interesting working environment. A dead working envt will always give me blues for all my weekdays (Monday blues, Tuesday blues, Wed Blues, Thursday blues and fri blues) Grrrrr.. U imagine, how can u possibly survive working quietly 8.5 hrs a day for a duration of complete 1 week. Damn it.. I'm kinda mute whenever at work. It's so dead, bored and irritating.
4)I dOn't have the skill to boot lick/butter my boss. Can someone please teach me how. Desperately need to know. Irritating.
5) I seriously loathe Fake people (incl myself). Felt like the world is changing to a big/huge/gigantic stage where each and every1 of us are the actors/actresses. Putting up a real good show trying to impress everybody.
To the extent that we were drag along as well into this big event, "The stage show".
But then again, i'm not saying evry1 is fake. I'm sure it's only a handful black sheep among all the pure white sincere being.
6)So people tell me.. What kind of job suit me?
Out of Curiosity... 8/5/2008
1st thing 1st I would like to take this opportunity to give a word of encouragement and well wishes to Dear Fadhilah. I'm sorry for what happened. I can't possibly say I understand how it feels cuz i've never been there. But DIlah, i'm sure there's a blessing in disguise. PLease be strong cuz i know YOu are strong. Everything happens for a reason. I will be here (In fact we will all be here) for yoU whenever you need us. We will stay by ur side to go through any obstacle you're facing nw or in future. We will always be with you spritually. We will help you pull this through. We will help you with your emotional roller coaster ride. Look on the bright side okay Dilah? I know, it's easier said than done. I dun even know how it feels like cuz i'm not in your shoes. But trust me Dilah, somehow i can feel for you. PLease be strong once again.
Love,
Nozie
Well, At this moment, the song Everybody's changing by Keane kept playing in my head.
Okay that aside, actually i'm more interested in discussing bout an issue. Not really a serious issue, but just something that triggered me. Cuz we (me, Yat and Ayul) had this discussion last nite over supper, "How do you know if the girl/guy is interested in you?" and "What do you do if you're interested in someone?"
Well, for me: If i'm really interested in a guy, i didn't really do much about it. I'd always hope and wish he will realise or notice or somehow know that i'm interested and i'll just wait for him to make the move. (And yeah, that's y i didn't get all the guys i'm interested in)... hahha.. But to think of it, i may sound foolish.. Like wth.. Why wait? If u're interested just go for it or u'll miss your chance in just a blink rite? But at the same time, i always have this fear, "What if his not interested in me? (Cuz if he does, he would have shown some signs that he's interested rite?) and What if he's attach?"
All in all, I guess fear of rejection....Which i think most people do..
okay then, i know the topic is still hanging, but i gotta go. Keep the discussion going. Take Care
Missing... 6/5/2008
Well.. I seriously have lots of things goin on in my head right now..I'm happy with the way I am now.. But something is missing.. I dunoe what or why.. but somehow something is missing.. Anyway.. i'm really addicted to many things now.. Kayaking, Rock climbing, Karaoke-ing, swimming, ice-cream, cycling, ice-skating and lastly to chill out.. wow..really wanna do all that badly.. anybody interested to join? please feel free to gimme a buzz wokey...
Regret... 2/5/2008
Just came back from a camp with the kids at Changi Coast Adventure Ctr. I totally waste my opportunity just like that. The moment i c his face, i was like woah his adorable. His dimple whenever he smile can definitely melt me away.. Ur jovial and sense of humour got me attracted to. We kept exchanging smile.. but that's about all. 3 days in camp and i still didn't do anything about it.. didn't even find ways to start a small chat with you. and nw i dun even know if u'm able to see u again.. sigh.. foolish me..
Captivated 14/4/2008
::Never stay where you are not appreciated::
It has been 4 mths now, I've never thought I could ever possibly be as cheerful as now.. I'm captivated by all the things happening to me now. 2 years back, I'm lost and I ever thought that maybe this is how my life should be (boring and plainly suffering). And I have to Accept, adapt and appreciate. But reality hit me hard on my face, I've witnessed a failed relationship right before my eyes. Seen from the moment I first blinked my eyes till the very end of the road (U mite not get wat i meant here). It's daunting. I would never wan't that history to repeat (In my life).
I just wan't a simple yet blissful life. I just need a man who can purely love and care for me. Love me for who I am. Someone who can share my interest with, someone who can make me smile without a need to say or do anything.. By gazing his sweet face, i'll feel calm and entertained, secure and protected.
Stop.. Why am i talking bout man? It's really not necessary at the moment. The bottom line is I'm having a great time now and don't wanna change every moment of it. I'm getting my life back. Full of energy, passion and endurance. It's amazing how certain decision can change your life. From pessimistic to optimistic, from boring to interesting, from depressing to hearten..
But then again, no offence to him (u know who). I hope it's not only me having a good change here. I really hope ur heading a better life now too. If u are, then I guess we've made the right decision (or isit me?). Just that, like we've mentioned before, we'll take this as an opportunity for the both of us to do self-reflection and learn from our mistakes.
To all my friends, thank you for everything. I'm contented to have you in my life. It's never a regret..
To Fadhilah: Thank you for putting aside some time for us even though ur very busy with work and family (esp Hubby). Thank you to your Hubby too for being very understanding. I would also like to apologise cuz it's only now that we got to do lotsa things together. What a shame huh..Anyway, it's been a pleasure and fun having you around. Would love to go on a holiday with you more. Felt so loved with you around cuz u really took good care of us. hehe. Our mummy.. I wish you the best of luck in everything you do and planning to do esp now that u've tendered ur resignation letter. It's a bold decision. I'm always gonna be here whenever you need me ok..?LOve u all the way...
To Radiyah: Your presence in my life always bring me happiness and laughter.. You totally brighten up my life.. Without you, i won't know what will be left in me. You rawk my world babe. You're my inspiration and will forever be my partner. We have so many things in common. Love u all the way too..
To Baizura: Hey babe, you've been the best girlfriend.. Thank you for being there for me. Always there when i need someone to talk to. You're very positive. You made me feel so relax. Having you in most of the activities we did, was a zest. We definitely have the same interest (U know i know). hehe. Keep on rocking yea. Love u all the way three....
To Maria: Thank You for joining us!! It's really great seeing all of us together joined forces.. But wat a waste we didn't capture pix together (as in ramai2). tsk tsk.. Anyway, thank you once again.. u've been a great listener. I hope the very best of you in your career, studies, r'ship.. May you find ur happiness in everything you do esp with us ard.. heheh.. Love u all the way four..
To ..... ALL : Thank you for being a part of my life. All your presence are very much appreciated. Nothing i say could possibly explain and describe the way i feel. I love my life..... I'm lovin' it!!
A Big Thank You to ALL!!!!!
Adios peepzz....
.agony.11/2/2008
Life is like a roller coaster. Full of ups and downs. Exciting yet intimidating.
Losing you was a huge relieved. But hopefully not a big mistake. Hearing bout u led to a tremendous hatred. The pain, the sorrow are still vivid in my mind. Hate that i've once loved you. It's hurting. U've hurt me so much. How can i ever mend and cure this heartache? U totally messed up my life. U thought i'm doing fine and better of. But it's a shame u completely got it all wrong. U made it worse for me. U sent me a msg containing an invidious accusation. It made me sick. It's really hurting. It won't be easy. Now, i have to pick up every single thing back from scratch. Gaining my self-confidence, u've once destroyed. Getting my life, u've once snatched. Having my friends, u've once stopped. Collecting my happiness, u've once stolen. Saving my tears, u've always wasted.
Questions with no answers:
Why did i let myself into this effing r'ship for too long??
Why did i hang on and push myself too far??
Why did i made myself like an idiot??
Why did i foolishly gave you the credit??
Why did i ever listened to you??
Why did i hurt myself soo deeply??
Now that this happened, where has all the effort, patience and integrity went to?? The drain??
Why?? Just why?? Tell me Why??
It made me teared whenever i were to think bout it. You really drove me too far. U made me felt worst even when i'm already feeling lost. I can never ever forget the pain you put me through. It was hurting. I swear to GOD, i'm not pretending and trying to make you sound bad, but it's really hurting. Just when i'm going through the most depressing moments of my life, seeing my parents went apart, you didn't even handle me with care. You only cared about your trust in me. And you made it hard on me. You stopped me from doing the activity i enjoyed doing and made me stayed at home,that is the last place i would ever wanna be at that point of time. You stopped me from going out even when i'm lonely. U threw at me all the harsh words. You ignored my feelings. For three years, you didn't seem to realize. it only took you now to realize, after this tragedy had happened.
But then again, we've once shared our happy moments. You are understanding and good at times. But there's just too much sorrow than happiness. If you were to ask me y can't i just think bout the good times instead of bad? Probably u can understand if i said just imagine this, for three solid years, I've been nice, good and be wat u want and trying my best to give you the happiness, attention and love and working my ass off just to keep impressing you but in return things were disappointing, hurting and definitely a painful experience for me.
.May you find your happiness.
.zestful moment.8/1/2008
It's a beautiful day when beautiful things happened. You'll never know just when, those simple words can actually brighten up a person's dark life. Mend the Heartache. More of those please. Don't let it slip away.
Waking up I See that everything is OK.
The first time in my life and now it's so great.
Slowing down i look around and I am so amazed.
I think about the little things that make life great.
I wouldn't change a thing about it.
This is the best feeling.
I found a place so safe, not a single tear.
THe first time in my life and now it's so clear.
Feel calm, I belong, I'm so happy here.
It's so strong and now I let myself be sincere.
It's a state of bliss, you think you're dreaming.
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling.
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry.
.BrokEnheartEd. 24/12/2007
Being alone. Walking along the beach. sitting by the bay. Watching people, scenery and activities. Feel the soft gentle breeze coming in my way, brushing off the tears rolling down my cheeks.
Love can be a many splendid thing
Can't deny the joy it brings
It'll make you hear a symphony
And you just want the world to see
But like a drug that makes you blind
It'll fool ya every time
The trouble with love is
It can tear you up inside
The trouble with love is
It doesn't care how fast you fall
Now I was once a fool, it's true
I played the game by all the rules
But now my world's a deeper blue
I'm sadder but I'm wiser too
I swore I'd never love again
I swore my heart would never mend
Said love wasn't worth the pain
But then I hear it call my name
This sad story always ends the same
Me standin' in the pourin' rain
It seems no matter what I do
It tears my heart in two
You have once came into my life shower me with love but love as it is, is tormenting. Your love is true, i know. It's the kind of love i would like to have in future. bUt it's too early to give it all. Mistakes. How could i possibly mend my way? Just when i'm trying to move on, move out from the fear i've always had, u came back, u destroy the pillars to my strength. U bring me down together with you. Feeling miserable and grief. That's the saddest part of all. N i dun wan to associate myself in those resentment. Give me space, That's all i'm asking for. Free from troubles, that's all i want. Stop confusing me. Had enough of suffering. Just let me live my life and be happy for who I am. I dun wanna let my youth life past me in a blink. Let me at least bring sweet memory with me before i leave this world.
Love will be the last thing on my mind now. Don't drag me into this ugly world of love. For all i know, the meaning of l.o.v.e have change ever since.
Everyone is looking for something that isn�t possible to find. Everyone strives to find it, and when they think they have it, it falls apart leaving them broken and unwhole. Some are left believing they can find it again. Others are more cynical and realize the fairytale and stop looking. Maybe they are the intelligent ones. Supposedly it finds you, so if you look for it you�ll miss it. Well without looking for it, it found me. It tricked me into thinking it was wonderful while it lasted, but now it doesn�t seem worth all the trouble.It�s a never-ending battle to figure out what the hell it�s all about.So is life the fairytale, or is life the movie about the fairytale? Too many questions, and no real answers. Will there ever be any answers? Maybe we all have the answers, but we haven�t figured out the right questions? I will continue my search for happiness. Where will I find it? Oh my, back to it again. Is it happiness or the evil that haunts us? It haunts me everyday of my life. It�s all around, but I deny it�s existence. Does that make it all the more real? Sometimes, the more you don�t believe in something the bigger it gets. Maybe that means someday it will steamroll me. I don�t know if that would be a good thing. The bigger it is the more pain and sorrow it causes.
Right love, wrong timing.
Let me have my life back once again.
Idon'tGiveADamnShitAboutWhatPeopleThink
Gratifying journey.
29/11/2007
For more than a year or two, been acting like a stranger to myself. Was lost. Turned myself to someone that don't even exist in me. Been losing a lot of things for someone. Sacrifice. Yet it's worthless. Been cooping myself up in my own nest. Stop meeting people. Stop having hobby. stop having activities. stop being happy.
I am Picking up myself where i've once left. urging to do a lot of things. Started out with Ice SkaTing, RolleR Blading, Swimming, silat-ing.. Next Rock ClimBing, SaiLing, ScuBa Diving and Trekking and lastly holiday-ing.
I am glad to take a turn and get back right on track. A new challenge for me. Free & easy. I relish every moment i have now. A new life.
The very Song Tat Suits me Now.
Sean paul and blu cantrell - Breathe
So what's that supposed to be about baby
Ya'll free up ya mind and stop actin crazy
Reminisce about all the good times daily
Why you try pull that got me actin shady
You say you love, say you love me
But you're never there for me, yeah, mmm...hmm...
You'll be cryin', slowly dyin'
When I decide to leave, oh, oh
All we do is make up
Then break up
Why don't we wake up
And see
When love hurts
It won't work
Maybe we need some time alone
We need to let it breathe
You're only lonely when your homey
Ain't got a ride or no loot, yeah, uh-huh
Then comes the drama
Some other girl is claimin' she's goin' out with you,
Hmm...hmm...
Dutty yeah!
My girl for the fourth time
Make i make it very clear to you
Your very dear to me
And honor of me
Share to you
Me not unfair to you
Woman i want fah really make you know i will always draw near to you
But me know im not a fear to you
Stand up like a man and not be there cuz i care for you
Long time tellin you
No other girl can compare to you
Woman if you leave me now
Im gonna shed alot of tears for you
Say you want to breathe
Im still not im exhalin'
Say you want to leave cuz this relationship failin'
Aint nobody say that it would be smooth sailin'
Girl i wana know why your bailin'
Ship yo
So what's that supposed to be about baby
Ya'll free up ya mind and stop actin crazy
Reminisce about all the good times daily
Why you try pull that got me actin shady shady baby baby
[Blu]
Maybe we need some time alone
So we can just breathe
Let it breathe
Breathe
Breathe out
Let it breathe
Breathe
Breathe
Breathe
Breathe
Yeah yeah yeah yeah let it breathe yeah
Time to breathe yo...
That explained the situation i am in.
.confused mind.
5/11/2007
Woke up in guilt..Need to but refused to let go.. Want to but no guts to let go.. Switching attention, changing sides, turning away.. I hate being hurt yet I'm hurting PeopLe.. God forgive me for this.. True enough, wHatever Happens for a reason.. Trying to focus.. But somehow or rather i'll lose it.. It keeps on replaying in mind.. (Bad or Good?).. It felt rite bt wrong too.. Confused child.. (Don't and can't let this drift me away further).. Find a solution soon.. It's better to let go if it's too hurting to keep..
Selamat Hari Raya
17/10/2007
Gathering. Laughter. JOy.
Those were the common description to a festive like this. Well as for me, it has died a long time ago. (Not that Long actually). No anticipation. It only bring me sadness. poignant memory. perplex mind.
Torn into two. Well at least it's better than torn into pieces.
Currently, have the song played in mind, When U're gone by Avril Lavigne for a while..
When you�re gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you�re gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you�re gone
The words I need to hear will always get me through the day
And make �t OK
I m�ss you
Am clueless to hw my heart response to the changes around me. Should i say It is not responding well or iT is not responding AT ALL. I'm numb to everything i Guess. But deep down inside i WaNT to be HAPPY.. Can somebody just make me happy please??
I've been tagged by Nolezan
person who tagged you:
[ Nolezan @ nolizot ]
relationship with him/her:
[ Buddy /Poly clique/ Camera 'kakis' ]
5 impressions u have on him/her:
[ Camera Freak(just Like me) ]
[ Joyful ]
[ Chomel (Adorable) ]
[ Crappy ]
[ Funky ]
memorable thing she/he has done for you:
[ Gave me a mini Surprise 20th birthday celebration
(together with the other 2 'kakis'. (Made me come
to sch early, using our group leader to be part
of ur plan. Telling me there's a project discussion
held that morning. Made me blushed! looking at u all
Holding on to a cake sneaking behind me, while i sat
at the center table of the food court(centre of
attraction).(which was near to hans isaac).
haha. sooo cute la u all..]
most memorable words she has said to you:
[ She love to spot me when i daydream, cuz i will be
staring blankly at one direction. So she will look at
the direction i'm looking with a question mark face,
"a..pe yang kau tgk or yang suda tu suda la or sa..pe
yang kau tgk.. ]
if she/he becomes your lover,you will:
[ I will kiss her to the core. ]
if he/she becomes your enemy,you will:
[ i Will Make her dance "Chicken Dance". ]
if he/she becomes your enemy the reason will be:
[ She tempt me with the food she eat.(always, in
the end i will buy also.) ]
the desirable thing you want do for him/her now is:
[ i Want to make her dance. (really i wan to make
u dance, hehe) ]
your overall impression of him/her is:
[ YOu have a b-e-a-u-tiful heart.]
how do you think people around you feel about you:
[ Probably they feel i rawk their life.
(haha kidding la. I'm still lookin for answer.) ]
characteristics you love about yourself:
[ never fail to laugh/smile ]
characteristics you hate about yourself:
[ Weak / Indecisive / Sensitive ]
the most ideal person you want to be is:
[ Jackie Chan.]
for people who care and like you say something to them:
[ Isit just me or wat but i don't
really get this qn. So shall pass.]
pass this quiz to 10 people that you
wish to know how they feel bout you:
In No Particular Order.....
1. [ Nolezan ]
2. [ Fadhilah ]
3. [ Maria ]
4. [ Baizura ]
5. [ Heryanti ]
6. [ Hidayat ]
7. [ ]
8. [ No more ]
9. [ No More ]
10.[ No More ]
who no.6 having relationship with:
[ Fana. (His Darling Angel) ]
Is no.9 a male/female:
[ both. ]
if no.7 and no.10 are together will be a good thing:
[ What do you think. ]
wad no.2 studying?:
[ Working. ]
when was the last time you chat with no.3?:
[ erm.. 20/9/2007 Break fast together at Pizza Hut..]
what type of music no.8 like?:
[ Dangdut?]
does no.1 has any siblings?:
[ YESHHH!! ]
will you woo no.3?:
[ Can I? ]
how about no.7? :
[ I wish. ]
is no.4 single?:
[ Single is a Yes but whether she's available?
that i have to check with her. heh! ]
whats the surname of no.5?:
[ malay no surname. ]
whats the hobby of no.4?:
[ Dancing Right?? hhaha.. ]
do no.5 and 9 get along well?:
[ Very Well... ]
where is no.2 studying?:
[ no more studyn. werkyn. ]
say something casual about no.1:
[ She's a perfect Galfren! ]
have you tried developing feelings for no.8?:
[ Very soon... ]
where no.9 live?:
[ Paradise. i guess. ]
what colour no.4 like?:
[ Colourful.. ]
are no.1 and 5 best friends?:
[ YES!! SUper Best fren... hehe ]
does no.7 like no.2?:
[ of course not, (Anyway, no. 2 taken..
can try me instead.. haha!) ]
how you get to know no.2?:
[ She's my CHildhood FRen!! Kwang3.. ]
does no.1 has any pets? :
[ yes.. Ants...(cuz she's too sweet). ]
Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world?:
[ yesh. He is... HOT! :] ]
FINALLY.... There you go Nolezan...
I've replied and provide you with the most
accurate information eVa.
Happy Teacher's Day
Ok i Reeally Hate Working Life... Its true what people say... Real WorkiNg life can be nasty and a horrible truth.. Its the only moment we get to see all kinds of human with their weird attitude.. I'm beginning to get sick with all the two faces ... Thou i'm still new, thou i'm still observing and may not realise or see anything for myself but the 1 obvious people i loathe the most would be the "yellow-eyed" kinda...
Super irritating!!! Why should such ugly feeling exist in a human... "Envy".. Even over the slightest thing.. I just don't get it.. Watz up with the world now?? Envy Envy Envy.... Its not just that but it become real ugly when people do or think of many ways to bring other people down.. Wat The Hell?? Y can't human just accept and adapt and get something for the effort they know they've put in...(i meant the clean way, not dirty)....The worst part is they can smile and laugh with you but at the same time they talk bout all kinds of things bout you and stab you at the back.. Bugger right??!!?? Anyway, there are happy moments thou...
ANyway, am really excited.. My frn Dilah is gettin married sunday!! wow !!! i'm excited for her... i hope she's doin ok and the preparation is goin on smoothly.. I would like to take this opportunity to wish her "Selamat Pengantin Baru to Fadhilah and Shariff" and i really hpe everything goes smoothly on your Wedding Day.. I'm sure it will be a successful one.. I wish the best to the both of you in your marriage life.. And may you both been bless with a child in times to cme....Wheee!!
10/8/2007
Happy Holiday people!!
Woah!!! it has been 5 months i abandoned my blog... gosh sorry to all yang sudi menunggu.. kwang3.. Well lemme update u guys wats in store for me for the past 5 mths ok....
1stly, yey!! finally i've officially graduated from NYP on the 3rd July 2007..
2ndly, after 4 months waiting and selling grapes and crazily looking for job, it's only on the 15 June 07 i've got myself a job.. So currently working as CCPE (Co-Curricular Programme Executive).. For those who are not aware of such job.. It's basically a new job created by MOE and an agency company with main objective to offload teachers ie in every sch there will be one CCPE.. that includes (pri sch, sec sch and JC). So we wil be coordinating and assist in planning of CCAs, handling and maintaining the PE equipments, some administrative work.. n well so far, i find my job interesting.. its fun esp wen my colleagues can clique with me...
Anyway.. from the previous entry i wrote, the application i applied for.. sadly i was not shortlisted... but its okay... shall not give up..
But im now still searchin for my interest.. im a fickle minded man.. i can't get hold to my interest for long.. its just like, there's a saying in malay, "hangat-hangat tahi ayam"...
Guess.. i still have lotsa time to think about it... will find one truly pure interest in me soon...
Wat else i miss out..? there's too many things in my mind now.. i can't think of anything to write...
Grandma was hospitalised the other time... was kinda worried for her.. but i really hope she's ok... it kinda freak me out cuz she mentioned bout death.. n ouh yes, mum also mentioned bout that during her birthday on 7.8.07.. aiyoh.. worried la...
Anyway, in addition to my job experience.. the reason that keep me going and love the job is because of the kids... they are cute la... esp the P5 kids.. funny... they never failed to make me smile... but however, during the lower primary sports "dry run" i helped out in discipline wise... ouh gosh it was horrible.. the P1s they are like monster.. haha.. i scolded them but no effect.. BUt the best part was during the actual sports day.. i got to help out with the DJ-ing... as in jus choose songs and play the songs.. but if only i get to do the real DJ-ing, wow im sure i'll have fun... Thanx Vinz for sharing ur knowledge n experience wit me on how usually DJ do their thing... It was interesting i must say..!!
25/2/07
Hey... Yey!!!! School's over!!!! I mean its over....
But im now waiting anxiously for the reply of ma application.. Haiyah... so the boring la..... No work... Its just hard to get a job even with a Dip.. Wth... B now on outfield camp...miss him la..haizzz.. Boring la dey... ok im bored n i reali have nuthin nice to talk about.. take carez peepz..
23/1/07
Ok People.. Enjoy reading all my 4 long Entires which i've already collected for quite some time.... ahhahh... happy readin....
yey!!! mum's back home!!!!!!!! am soo hapi to see her... she had a slight fever thou...
i just miss her mentel way of laughter... ahaha.. miss those.. cuz
she would only laugh tat way when we tease her.. YEst two of my makcikz & pakcikz, my
nenek and my kakak sedara came by to meet mom.. we were busy helpin mum unpack her stuff..
Well its not like we help to unpack and tidy up, but its more to unpack and messin up..
watever it is, syukur alhamdulillah mum arrived spore safely..
Well, i guess we're beginin to get addicted to gamin... Aniwez.. yes ah..!!! my racin skill
is improvin... its better than teh day b4.. yeah!! seriously, im addicted oredi ...
cuz thou im very tired yest, very sleepy... i still wana play 1st b4 goin to sleep...
this is bad.. my sleepin order are affected now...
Actualli i felt rather sucky la... dunoe y... i just felt sucky... wish i can vent out my anger onto a punchin bag....
am not doin alrite today actually.. n this weekend stupid weddin thin goin on... idiot...
Where were u wen its the others engagement day???? where were u wen my mum goin to take off..????
Just where the hell in the world are u????
N wen it cums to ur weddin ur Lovely parents still can say things like,
"if we don attend their VERY GOOD daughter's weddin, they dun wan to attend ours"....
Go ahead la!!! 4 all i care!!!
Still wana carry out the event for both sat and sun...!!!! I dun mind la to attend n help out if UR DAUGHTER ALWAYS SHOW UP!!
BUt wen it cums to ur daughter's weddin u expect us to be there and help out!!! but wen it cums to
the others u heck care.. ur DAUGHTER NEVER show up...
I seriously dun wana go la!!!! she's not even important!! she's not our close kuzen aniwez!! so
like i care.... N the parents themselves... rite now, they didn't talk to certain siblings dunoe y!!
U urself have attitude problem but u expect people to help u out!! go and ask ur beloved sis to help
u in EVERYTHIN LA!!!!
Freakin pissed off sia.... Y the hell are their attitude soo fuckin fuckup!!! IRritatin son of a buffalo!!!
wen it cumz to this.. without fail always eyeing on us... always use the term anak dara... unh anak dara
kene buat ni buat tu.... aaaaahhhhh!!!!!!! bingit ah.... Seriously i wouldn mind if their daughter
make the effort to always attend all the special events.. but then nah... fat hope!!!!
22nd jan 07
Congratzz to Kuzen Bro Hisyam...
Hisyam and ArfiAh, engaged on 20th January 2007.. Hey bro.. U know wat Your Fiancee
Is a very sweet looking lady... If wen i have the pic uploaded, i'll post it here.. cuz
i seriously admire her.. She's very very sweet......!!!! Her smile... Oh Gosh...Im meltin'..
HAha insanity....
Oritezz so everythin went smoothly... I still wish i can have a taste of the CheeSe cake..
Im drooling already... heh heh..
so yea.. Went bowlin' wit B and the Gang.... I wana join in the kuyiterz.com..
But i stil got a lot to learn and catch up..Cuz, boy, im suck at bowlin'..
Its ok.. actualli i have lots in my mind... i wana be good at quite a few thingzz..
I wana be good at BowLin, I wana try Skating, Ice skating to be specific, i wana be good at
ps-2...
Ceh ceh....
Lolx.. Oritez, i know im a bit too late to start talkin bout ps2 now..
Yest we just got ourselves PS2.. Believe it or not, this is the first time i played
PS2... I mean games like this.. or should i say its our first buyin this play
station kinda thing...
haha....
so the KuNO.....
But actually no la... My first time was actually just the day B4 yesT, durin my Kuzen Bro Hisyam
engagemt Day.. Kak Liah have XBOX.. n Woah!!! Its fun playin cuz they have the surround system..
It was syiok!!!
But i only played spongebob game... It's Flippin' it, Order UP and Bouncer.. haha..
So i can say, im addicted to PS2 already..
I just love car racing game.. I love the sound .... But man, im suck at it..
HAha.. real bad.. im keen to practise this racing thingy.. so tat i'll be my sis strongest competitor..
Watch out gal... i'll be a better racer in days to come..How i wish our room is a sound proof room..
So tat i can bring the Vol up to The MAX ... Cuz tak syiok ah not loud...
AniweZ, Yeah! GReat! i have a new HobbY and InteresT.. So it helps to fill up my time while B is in camp..
HAha.. dun be jealous ya B if i spend more time wit PS2...hehe.. No la.. i won let tat happen la..
Definitely a No No... Spending time wit u is still the Best!!
Cheerss...
And... Today Mom Will be Back!!!! But erm we can't fetch mom.. Since i've already taken two MCs..
Dun think Wana add another fig to the No. of MCs taken.. Cuz my Dad olwezz nag at me... haha
Tellin me to discipline myself..Since Im still doin attachment, so in case of tat, i must discipline myself,
punctual is a must, show positive work attitude...
"Y is there a need to take MC? just work and tahan for this three months of attachment la
Who knows they will offer u a job upon graduation.."
Actually, this naggin thing,
was caused by Sis Niza, cuz tanx to her, she purposely tell dad im late for work tat day.. haha monkey her...
Aniwez Sis nANA bought PSP!!! Woah... She shared it with her BF.. guess its a symbol of their love 4 each other maybe..?
haha..If OnlY i got the MonEY... Tat WhIte PSP, She's probably holdin
on to rite now, will be in my hands instead sey... Aniwez itz cool.. Woah.. Is she rich or wat sey..lolx
Just a few days back, she bought herself a White DiGi Cam... And she also just got herself a white helmet..
Evrythin is in white..
Sheessshhh.. HAha.. Aniwez enjoyzz ur PSP ya....
19/1/07
Erm.. as i was sittin' all alone in my room..
Suddenly, sumthin' struck me..
Wat do you think of this issue..
Do you agree with me or disagree?
The number of unfaithful gf, fiancee and wife are increasin' as compared to
bf, fiance and husband...?
Hmm i dunoe.. It's complicatin' and contradictin'...
Recently, i've heard lots of issues on the gf or the fiancee
were unfaithful..
Its saddenin' especially after years n years together facin' the
extreme rough patch of their life and encounterin' e most difficult
obstacle, yet, it ended up jus like tat...
n sum they even got to know partner's parentz.. haiz.. Its saddenin'....
uh-huh.. there's just too many unexpected things happenin' in this world..
Well, lets drop the subject..
Watched Prison Break yest....
YEah.. Can't wait to catch it nex wk.. its 2 hours special... Great!!!
Im addicted to prison break already.... Cuz i just love the story line.. its mysterious..
u won be able to guess wat happen next..cuz there's olwez a twist at the end of each episode..
Anyways, it was KAk Niza's BirthDay Yest.. Dad gave her a so called BirthDay TreAt..
N while enjoyin' the food... out of nowhere... Dad talk about BowlIn'...
Ahakzz.. cool... he's interested to bowl with us some day...
Wana make tat happen la..Cuz isn't it great got to bowl with ur family.... Wana make him happy too..
Jus tat dun noe wen it will ever happen... im hopin' for tat wonderful day to come some day...
Yest, while me and sis Nana walkin passd Cold Storage @ Cwp to buy food for the Bdae gal,
sis Nana came across her primary school
teacher, Mrs Alubah.. It was nice seein the Teacher still recognised her PRIMARY SCH student...
She looks diff thou...
She have never taught me, but i kinda remember her voice cuz i myself seriously can't recall her...
With that, i miss MDM Fitri.... I love her DImples... I miss Mr Imran... I miss Mdm Norsiah....
Basically they're my favouritezzz... N my sec sch teacher... Ms Joanne, Ms Chang hmm oh gosh how
to spell her name, Dilah wats her name our F&N teacher? hehezzz.. n Studen't Favouritezzz Mr Chantira,
the gerekz Physics Teacher..
Mr Sani our Best PE teacher.. N yes yes yes Mdm ASMIDAH my all time FAV ACCOUNT teacher...
Credits to Mdm Asmidah!!... She's a great Teacher.. The best I must say.. Cuz its her who
guide me and BAizura all the way till our O level.. It's still fresh in my mind... Beginnin' of the year
2003, we were asked whether to drop any subject for O levels tat is POA (principle of Accounts)..
Few of my close frenz decided to drop that subject.. I was undecisive at that moment..
But luckily Baizura wana continue takin tat subject.. So @ least i can study with her..
N few months later, which was hmm if im not wrong 4 mths b4 O levels.. We started revising..
Cuz all along we have never reali catch wat Mdm Asmidah taught us in class.. So we seriously
dun have confident and havin prob understanding POA..
So during that 4 months, we gave each other a wake up call, n only since then, we panicly seek
Mdm Asmidah for help... She willingly, stayed behind teachin us all over again, back from scratch...
Guidin us thru almost everyday i must say @ Sch lib...
N guess wat?? we did it.... The moment i saw my grade for POA.. i called her right away..
Cuz im reali thankful to her... Appreciate her n heart her a lot....
N of cozzz not 4gettin Mdm Maznah..
15/1/07
Well, how often do you actually take a minute of ur time and do a self-reflection?
Was star-ing blankly at the screen think-ing how could i improve myself?
Cuz i've realised one thing for sure bout myself.. Its sadden-ing to learn that im a
self-centered person..
Think-ing wat have i done....by showing my attitude towards him,
wen he can't meet me due to his health..
i realised, i have this kinda unhealthy attitude ie if i wan somethin, tat means
i WAN it no matter wat..
Cuz i tend to put too high hope on certain things tat im afraid not gett-ing the tgs i wan..
ANyways.. i am try-ing to change that.. its a good progress thou.. hmm just hope it sticks
n won go away..+
Oritez.. well i dunoe y all of a sudden i tend to miss school.. yeah esp dur-ing FYP..
That fyp lab.. it contained the pleasant memory in there.. i just miss all the crappy jokes we shared
Talk-ing bout BoiFren, being interviewed by Wee kiat and also how all the noisy-ness in them struck the moment
i coloUred my hair...
Shrlene can u remember? ahahah ... tankz people for entertain-ing us.. Reminisc-ing wateVa happened dur-ing that 17 weeks
was amaz-ing.. It never fail to keep me smil-ing.. See-ing em disturb-ing me with a certain name..Its jus great...
Not that i like.. but at least there's sumth-ing to cheer us up..
Well.. its not just that.. Everyth-ing tat happened in NYP has such a B-E-A-U-tiful memory..
All our crappi-ness be it @ MAc, IT lab, Lecture hall, Tennis court and not forgett-ing the Loo..
We shared a lot of laughter... N never will i 4get the day, the DAy wen i fall down the stairs @ lecture hall
it Was embarrass-ing ok.. iF im Not mistaKen it happened during our 1st year.. ahhaha tats the kental side of me
N ouh Ya... I will never 4get our Role Play presentation for Biz Comm.. ME play-in as "AH-mah".. ahahaha..
n my well-known line "The weather outside is hot".. hahaha..
Actually Enter-ing Poly really helps me a lot in gather-ing the self confidence in me..After lots of presentation, it
really help in build-ing my confidence in doing public speak-ing.. Thou, am still feel-ing the nerve break-in, stand-ing
in front of the judges but am able to hide those feel-ing.. But now that we have stop having presentation im afraid
the confidence won be for long.. Aniwayzzzzz...
Back to our story, Watever it is, e one thing for sure.. We galz just lOvEEEE tak-ing pic aren't we....
TAts OuR Fav!! Esp Norli... she just love it.... She's the best "kaki" la, to share our laughter with.. she's very
quick @ spott-ing ur mistake like u know we olwez have blooperz..I will NevEr 4get this, "Can u move the Fingers on Ur LEg"...
hahahaha..TAts the craziest thing i've ever heard sia... I wonder "anak sape la yang ckp gitu".... ahaahhaha
N we have Ling de ling... the well-known lamer... Sumtimes her joke can be very lame until we dunoe how to laugh..
But its her who love to give some kind of a face, n we end up burst-ing into laughter.. N ling de ling.. I will NevEr 4get
the SupeRman actioN u made, the way u'll jump whenever ur excited over sumth-ing, the way u laugh.. Itz Funny La!!
U will never fail to brighten up my days... OH n Oh YA!!!!! Not 4GETTING the way we discovered u silently pretend
like nuthin happen in the discussion room when we heard a small atomic bomb exploded cutely beside me...HAAHAHHAHAH..
Tats the funNiesT!!!
N of Course Our One and onLy KuCHee...whenever there's KuChee it will be Noiseey (hey kinda rhyme huh..ahakzz)
or shall i say "Kecoh".. She'll keep on laugh-ing non stop combin-ing with her loud voice..
Fuyoh.... very the kechorable...
An example which is still fresh in my head..Dur-ing Fyp, the mOmeNt she enteRed our room...
Confirm it'll be NoiSEEY.. haha... With HEr LAughtEr and Her VoiCe join forces..
Wah.... chaos ah....
I miss YX's laughter too.. Cuz wenever we said sumtg funny, she'll laugh out loud with her Unique Way of Laugh-ing...
but if its not funny she'll give the kind of look... U know the "C'mon, its not funny la" kind of face..
Im gonna miss all thaat... There's a lot to talk about in here... well, shall just keep all the memory in my small tiny pocket
in my squeezy brain..
Oritez Left 1 month of attachment.. Sadly i don think our department will offer to stay work-ing here.. Well, tat means
i have to start think-ing and plann-ing.. Have quite a number in my mind thou.. So am patiently wait-ing
til 19 Feb 2007..
16/12/06
09/12/06
.Birthday Bash.
Weeee!!!! Happy Birthday to Azsimah!!! Wow... No more teen to her age... Tats fast... The moment the clock strucked 00:00 hr which resemble its 09/12/06, she actualli dun feel the excitement this time..There's no more excitement... She used to wait for her hp to ring.. waiting for msges... Waiting for her frens to wish her.. yet this time nah... she's not even ecxited bout it... Not sure y, perhaps maybe as the number to our age increase, the excitement decrease.. Do you feel that way too..
HAhaha.. Aniwez.... She got carried away with the mini celebration She had.. Guess wat?? For the first time, we went out to have mkn?together ...
Consist of --> The Mother - Ponirah, The Sista - Aznizah & The Partner - Hasrom, The other Sista - Aznijah & The PArtner - Rasyid, The Birthday Gal - Azsimah & The Partner - Yusnul, The Brother- Nizam & The Wife - Surya , The daughterz and The Other Lady...
We ate at Restaurant Chai Chee also known as Kampung Chai Chee... The food there SUPERB & DELICIOUS, its finger lickin good....
Watz in the menu --> Prawn with oats (Its FANTASTIC), Baby squid, Chicken Thai Style, Khailan with mushroom, Beancurd with egg, Fried rice and Tom yam soup..
24/11/06
.despairing.
Specially dedicated to 0409 nypianz....
(this is a direct translate) "Blink Blink Blink, 12 weekz has passed." hehe
Which also mean, Time really flies, we have now finally reachd the finishing line for our FyPj and TeP.. And a new mission is beginning soon..
Today, 24th November 2006 marks the last day we will be seeing each other in school, meeting up for breakfast, lunch and tea breaks.. All the moments we've captured will difinitely be a good source to be reminisce as our precious memory.. All the laughter, the tears we shed, the madness, the cold jokes, the little?arguments will definitely be missed..
Galz, take good care of yourself, I hereby, would like to take this opportunity to apologise to everyone, NORLIZAN, SHRLENE, ZEE KEE, YU XIAN, ALVINA, ZHONG FEN, LAY YIN, ESTHER, CHERYL, BETHIA, CASEY, RAYMOND, SAMUEL, LEON, MAO YUAN, YI XIANG, JUN WEI... AAHHAKZZ.. im exaggerating a lil.. Sorry if i miss out any names.. Easy said to 0409, I apologise for all my wrong doings, if i've ever hurt u in any way, if i've ever argued or quarreled or scolded or laugh at u or stare at u or touch u hehe, erm from the bottom of my heart once again i apologise.. I hope we shall all put all the past bad memory way behind us and just bring along with you a small pouch of the good and sweet memory we've shared for the past two years..
To all, be strong in watever obstacle u face, do not be dishearten by any critics u receive.. Listen to the good advice but shit out all the bad ones..
hehe.. Olwez remember to look on the bright side of ur life.. MAy u gal s succeed in ur future endeavours..
Last but not least, If any of u nid sum1 to talk to, im olwez here to lend u my listening ears and maybe a shoulder to cry on... i love listenin to people probz but my apology, im not a good adviisor..
So galz.. cheer up and look at all our pics if u were to miss any of us.. Please take care of urself as for NORLIZAN, i will take care of u.. hahhaha... u better watch out.. lol...
Here's just a song specially dedicated to you galz...
And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon
And there was me and you
And then we got real cool
Stay at home talking on the telephone with me
We'd get so excited, we'd get so scared
Laughing at our selves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels
As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever