Leo sign (7-27-79)
I'm from Boston, Mass. Born and raised. I love this city. I'm a die-hard Red Sox fan. I'm a writer/poet. I have one brother (20) named Billy.
I've walked many paths through this life. I've been a follower, a leader, a victim, a liar, an idealist,a realist- until I realized how bleak that seemed, a coward, an addict, a lone warrior, lost then found and lost again.
Right now I'm hanging around somewhere in the in between with a vision of better things taunting me with their existence.
I believe my struggles are the greatest gift God ever gave me. I also know they could be the death of me If I so chose to let my mistakes, choices and happenstance define me. I am on the brink of a purpose/full life. I am a survivor; A survivor of rape. And the rape of myself, of the wrong choices; My own demons. I lost my mother in '99 to drugs and AIDS and though I know she's finally found peace I believe her life ended so I could learn through her lessons and also find peace. She couldn't escape her demons so that I could see the importance of escaping mine.
Life has a funny way of revealing herself to you. She looks you dead in your eyes with a face so beautiful and unblemished, cheeks that pink when she smiles, lips that call your name without movement, hair that flows long and full. She stands before you and slowly undresses herself. Standing before you naked she reveals a body riddled with the most ghastly scars and asks you to love her anyway. She asks you not to look away, and see her- all of her as beautiful. I found it hard to do without lying to myself at first. Until I realized I was looking at myself. I was looking at all of us. Life is a false facade but I'm beginning to look beyond and find her beautiful anyway, and in turn myself, too.
I relish anything that transports me into another existence. My African American heritage is important to me; ancestry. Learning about revolutionaries, such as: Malcolm X, Huey P. Newton and Benjamin Franklin. Innovative thinkers, truth seekers, progressive change makers.
I'm an independent thinker who does not enjoy people's attempt to infect me with what they feel is edification. I try to choose my battles wisely. Some people aren't worth the fight.
As outspoken as I am, I can also be very shy. I'm a sucker for romance and fairytales. I have a duplicitous personality. I've never been the gregarious type. Though I do love learning more about life and myself through others.
Honesty is very important to me; That being said, I'm riddled with battle wounds, emotional scars; I keep them as souvenir's from the amazing places I've been .
I can be v. difficult to get along with, as I'm analytical minded and uncompromising when I believe myself to be right, (which is more often than I should). Most of my thinking contradicts itself. I find balance in dichotomy- I find myself in imbalance.
*Note to reader: No one can be summed up in a page of information. This is certainly not all of me, Hence the page title: 'Pieces of Me'. Any absolute conclusions drawn about me from this page or my site in totality would be ill-judged and strongly advised against.