MEMORIES

My flustered mind continues to be filled with disbelief. Night after night I think of you, trying to picture your face in a different world. 
Your warm smile and outrageous personality is impossible to imagine anywhere else but here.
                                                         

Thinking of the pain that you suddenly experienced that dark stormy day causes my stomach to turn and my mind to race. I remember the hours we waited for the call with our heads bowed down, praying for the best. I held on tight to all my faith and hope, up to the moment I was forced to blow out that bright, shining flame. Building your cross that dark silent night, caused my heart to sink and my mind to rage. I sat in silence for what seemed like forever, until everything I remembered had all sunk in. 
                                                       

I try my best to understand and face the facts but I can’t seem to believe, or come close to letting go. The pain continues to burn and tear deep inside me. Your laughter, your voice, it’s all around me now but I fear for the day when it all begins to fade.

Angelica
 May 30, 1981 - August 11, 1999  

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