I know I should hate you
I should despise everything
That sparks your memory
That I should've burned your picture
A long time ago...
And I should've thrown
That sailor cap away...
It still smells of you
Even after all this time
So I have to keep it put away...
I know I should cut off contact
Not answer
When your ringtone plays
Everyone says
I should know better
Than to still love you...
Yet I guess they don't realize
It's easier said by mouth
Than done in action...
Despite your deception
Despite the lies & the pain
I don't hate you
I can't despise you
And I couldn't part with that cap...
Because it was once a part of you...
Maybe I'm just a
Glutton for punishment...
Maybe they're right...
Yet, every phone call
Gives me that false hope...
Maybe one day
I'll realize I can't do it anymore...
And succeed in my head
Telling my heart...
Let go.
