Lost
By Pepper
Where are you going Michelle?
I've done nothing but drive for hours. I was going to go see Drew at the Millennium, but I just can't bring myself to go there. The betrayal cuts so deep. I feel like my heart is going to burst. Now I understand how my mother felt.
I have to pause to wipe the tears from my eyes for the millionth time.
Where am I going? I ask myself again. I feel so lost, so confused. I turn on the radio.
Bad idea. Thousands of slow, sad songs are playing tonight. Every note of every song, pounds its way into my head, into my heart. My very soul feels like it's on fire. I can't believe the pain. I feebly flip through the channels, trying in vain to find a song that didn't hurt. Useless I decide. There's too much pain in this world I guess. At least I'm not alone.
At last I find a song that will suffice. Funny, it used to be a favorite of mine. Starts out so slow, so heartbreaking.
Every time that you walk by
I can't believe that I
Have to live with out you
Every time hear your name
It hits me just the same
I wish that I knew how to
Amazing how a simple song can tear your heart out, or bring you up, give you strength, or take it away.
Music has always had this power over me.
Make you notice, make you see
Turn your angel eyes to me
Let me show you all the love I'm hiding
Didn't matter what kind; rock and roll, jazz, country...they all have had that effect on me.
I thought he loved me. I really and truly believe that. Somewhere deep down in my heart, I knew it. Or thought I did.
Just when I think I find the words
I go and lose my nerve
And I die a little
Every time
He does love me. I just know it, I would be able to feel it if he didn't would I? If he didn't love me, it wouldn't hurt this bad right? Or is my love clouding my judgment?
Every time I say this prayer
I say how much I care
And how I want you near me...
No, he does. He does love me. I saw it on his face when1 Carmen revealed her little secret.
I tell the moon and stars above
I need your precious love
If only you could hear me
Then I'd make you notice, make you see
Turn your angel eyes to me...
How could Drew do this to me. I thought she was my "friend." Was she so desperate to get what I had that she had to take my husband too? Jesse wasn't enough?
Someday I'll tell you
Someday you'll know
The way I feel for you
Someday you'll look into my eyes
The way that lovers do...
How could she? The shock is still so fresh, so new, so painful. Here I thought she was trying to help me, but all along she was merely plotting against me. I'm ready now.
The song did it's job. I'm going to go tell my "friend" just what I think of her. Boy is this going to feel good.
You've had this coming a long time, Drew, I think as I turn my car around, heading for the Millennium. As for Danny...maybe someday, I'll be able to tell him...that I love him.
Lyrics from: Everytime-by Pam Tillis on the CD-Every time