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| 11:32am 9th of April 2003 Well I slept in and I'm yet again home and doing nothing. I'm just thinking to myself again and I'm feeling kind of normal now its over between the wind winning the sun its now just blooming flowers and blue sky. =) Anyways yesterday I went to the doctors and I found out I had a eye infection ErKKs. I was seeing things but its not like I don't see things anyway, Yesterday I saw these sparkling lights. Where ever I looked I saw em it was like the matrix haha but even better it was me experiencing the real effect and I would say It was a sign. What a hecitc shit haha. Pretty cool ay? I'm so glad that I don't have school today even though it makes not much of a difference but look on the bright side I don't need to keep on wondering when the bells gonna go so I can relax. Today I'm yet again telling myself to study but erm I'll try abit harder since I got like 3 tests tomorrow. Swear education is a shithole but its all good. Haha Well my half yearies are coming up and I'm playing bets with Sophea 10 bucks a subject who ever gets the higher mark gets it and well shes aready fully believes that shes gonna kick my ass just because I don't study and pay any attention in class but I'll show her muahahaha I'll kick everyones ass. Thats if I still feel the better in me for the next month. I got a good feeling. =D I shall succeed well thats like the first goal I've made all year and isn't it weird how its involving money. LoL but Its just for the fun of it. 8:47pm UMm I just found out I won't be seeing Steven tomorrow...... righteos then I best be off |
| 11:11am 11th of April 2003 hehe Guess what I just woke up and found out I'm sick ERgggGg.... *headspin* but the good thing is I'm not at school and I got my HOLiDAYS!!!! Anyways I had these two dreams one was about this guy trying to get on to me and then I said it out loud that he was Eww... all a sudden my sister gets out this heat slicing thing it looked like a big ruler but it was dreadly. haha Then she just keeps slicing his legs, I could see the skin and I was pulling him away? haha then I woke up now that was strange. My 2nd dream was about learning how to drive. he he I can't wait until I drive for some odd reason anyways back where I was. .I was in the car it was like a brand new family car and here I was sitting in the drivers seat wiith mum at the back teaching me how to drive. Strangely enough I crashed it not heavily at all while trying to park? Since yeah my aunty just poped out from no were and said be careful? okay then. Now I'm facing a 4 way red light sector. I push the breaks to wait but it kept rolling backwards. Hehe anyway mum takes over from this part and we head in to this chemist shop which I've dreamt of 2 more times aready but in reality it doesn't exist. So I wake up. Anyhows me I me go |
| 1:33pm 13th Of April 2003 Well I've been a wake for Hmm.. ages now and yeah I'm boredshitlist. No where to go. Not much to do. Nothing on my mind and that is all true. Well I figured that Stevens long gone over me so I'm about to do the same thing athought I'm aready over the sadness but my liking for him is still lingering on.. haha well I had another dream and this time it was about my First x lol and yeah me and him had a face change for some strange reason I had his face and he had mine but same body. Okay and yeah we met up at this park thingo. Umm okay and my mum just came here and yeah weird now a days I never know people just pop in my room from behide and start talking from no where. Freaky. I'm sweating now and I'm really hot thats not normal is it? Anyways back where I was yes and were in hiding away from everyone because yeah of the weirdness of our appearance. Sitting there he looked at me about to get on to me? and me I just was like sitting there? hahaha yeah and then I woke up thinking okay then. What a life. What a hectic shit. What a what. 10:01pm Well you know the thing about me being in a good mood well at the moment its not working. eVerything is the same shit, One day your happy then the next your not and its everyday I wake up which is partically the same. Maybe its just me well it is me but the worlds fucked up to my eyes. So lets enjoy the sight of suffering and joy since thats what I've been doing all my life. They say to me I have to create my own images and make em. Well theres nothing to make because there are no images cause in the end you fucken die and you know thats right, So I shall stick to my old self and my own thoughts and own ways. Muahahahha |
| 9:34am 14th of April 2003 hehe Do0lie was in a good mood today cause you know why? Because She got a phone call 2 something am in the morning from ahuh Steven. well Workplacement[post office] was good I learnt some new things and I saw the cutest girl today and she smiled and laughed at me hehe. AWww so adorable. After that I went to Vikkis house [as so know as my bum chum me and her go way back] and bumed there for a while I suppose that was oright talked to her and yeah thats about it. Well I'm home at the moment and yeah gonna go entertain my shower haha. Too ta loos fatty tissues |
| Its now 9:46am the 6th Of April 2003 Pretty cool ay one more week and I'm Off to wonderland well a break. Well yeah I just woke up I think around 20 minutes ago and I'm aready on the net lol. Anyways my plans for today is to ermmm...... Well I wish to paint I haven't done that in ages..... and to do some study yeahh. I'm for sure I'm gonna do that one. haha well yes. Theres not much to say when you've been awake for not that long so I'll be back sooner or later in a jiffy.. 7:07pm Umm yeah I'm back and I'm not feeling good. One moment I'm happy then normal then the next I'm angry then I'm lost which is like now. Anyways we all know why I'm lost so I'm not gonna go any futrher on that topic. Today I didn't do any of the things that I intended to do which was to paint and yeah revise on stupid education. You know that feeling where you just don't give a hoot about absolutely anything well thats how I'm feelingl right at this very moment. Retarted and lost. |
| 5.52pm 7th of April 2003 All I can say is I got called clumsy today ARgHhhh... And I was going spastic in my head now thats not normal but freaken hell no respect.Anyways its all cool now =) I'm all normal again and yeah I guess today and all today I've been thinking about StEvENNnnNn.. he he.... yeah well anyhows I'm tummy filled from Kfc you should see me my stomach is like big as if I'm 3 months pregnant haha. |
| 7:55pm 5/th of April 2003 I was just looking at Stevens blog and now my neck hurts anyways yes.. haha I'm doing mine now even thought no ones gonna read it but time will kill this way. so its all good. Well recently me and Steven broke up like last tuesday on the 25th of March.and first I was all normal and even happier at first. Then something happened to me which made me feel shit as. It was my mind. I kept thinking we could still be happy if we were together and you know all that other bullshit. Hehe anyways I miss him still and I'll be seeing him hmmm this coming Thursday. Wo0o ho0o but I don't know what will become of this.. Maybe well be back together and maybe never. But yes lol I got head slaped and told off by my friends because I miss him Errkk some friends they are but I still love them as they are. Anyways today was a good day I suppose. I was meant to have studied well that was what I wanted to do and thats what I've been telling my self since haha like 10 million years ago. I'm a lazy shit cause I don't really give a shit. =) So yes I'll be gone now. |
| 9:20pm 15th of april 2003 I just woke up not long ago. All I have to say is today was boring and I want another apple. I think I eat alot more then before haha but I always boost up kilos fast and lose em quick. So I'm like a scale beam I'm the balance queen? okay then yeshhhhhhh hahaha. Well I'm gonna now. |
| 10:18pm 18th of April 2003 He he Me and Steven are back together. |
| 3:36pm 21st of of April 2003 yeah Its been 4 days now I've been so bored you should see me lol I'm like lost like seriously hahaha I called steven in the morning for no reason and okay then. Yes *looks at the monitor like shes day dreaming* he he well yes I think I might do some cleaning today yes I feel like doing that! *cheers* |
| 1:37pm 24th Of April 2003 Lets see not much has happened since but I saw Steven on Tuesday and you know what he did he burnt my jumper. *rolls her eyes* . Then yesterday I stayed home most of the day eating pho and TODAY well I'm gonna go easter show I think.. I'm so bored!!!! I think I'm gonna get pissed off again haha. Yesterday I got pissed of at Steven cause he kept saying black Yeshhh... Never mind haha. I got nothing else to write so I'm goning. *CheErS* |
| 7:54pm 25th Of April I think I'm gonna stop writing this stuff down LOL its gonna be flooded with steven haha.Anyways all in the morning I was talking to steven for I think over 3 hours thats like the first time I've even spoken to him for that long which is strange in some odd way. After sleeping for umm how many ever hours I slept I saw him today from 1:30 to umm 5 or something like that.he he. We went maccas to eat and there was some lady staring at him like non stop and I'm not over exaggerating. Shes has a kid and all I mean come on. So I told him and he looks back and licks his lips like yeah baby lets get it on. Strangely enough she kept looking LOL. Anyway that was funny to me. From that I think you could tell I'm in a pretty good mood but recently I've been all shitty well it appears to be that way but its not always what it seems. |