THE GOOD AND THE BAD PARTS
THE WAY I WANT TO BE!
Ah yes...pride!
Something I have a lot of..and more than likely one of my eventual downfalls in life. How does one try to explain the pride of a mother...unless you have experienced the feel of absolute wonder at discovering life all over again through the eyes of a child.
Lucky for me I have two such magical creatures to show me the way.
What would my world be without envy?
Yes..I am envious. Of people who have the ability to be themselves and not feel they have to apologise for it! Of brilliance that I don't have...like the ability of Nureyev to take anyone's breath away.....like the genius of Shakespeare to remain a legend...like the mastery of Van Gogh to leave an impression.
Yes..I am envious!
Greed.....something we all have
I want it all...who doesn't, but it's what I want that maybe makes things a little different for me. I am not materialistic...ever...I am greedy for wealth of a different kind ~ greedy for the richness of my soul, for the joy that a hug can bring, for the pure fortune only a golden sunset can endure.
Oh yes Greedy indeed...and what bliss!
My MOST deadliest of sins
I guess I have an insatiable lust for Life! So much beauty in this world that we prefer to ignore, and so many promises we make to ourselves to live them, but never do. A lust for knowledge ~ to know things and people that move me. A desire to squeeze everything I can from an eternal abyss, and wallow there. A need to become everything I possibly can ~ and a drive and ability to do so!
Lust? Isn't that how lasting dreams begin?
Angry...me? Yes..for so many things lately!
I am angry that I couldn't trust myself well enough to make my marriage work. Angry that there are bigots in the world, angry that life chose to be robbed from someone so young, angry that I couldn't possibly be everything to everyone, angry that acceptance cannot be universal, angry at failure .
Anger?....me and then not!
Oh now here's something I enjoy!
Coveting things I'm not supposed to...the forbidden fruit of life. I have many of these vices I'm afraid. I crave the attention of friends and others, in fact thrive in the spotlight ~ but that may just be a sagittarian thing. I admire all things beautiful..including people, and always make a point of telling people I think they are beautiful, if the truly are!
This should never have been added to the commandments
Lazy?...well maybe
I will always maintain that we need to step back from things in our lives and take time to appreciate the sound of a beetle scuttling across a floor, or the chirping of birds in the distance, or to put our feet up to read a seriously good novel...but if all that makes me lazy....then yes...I am guilty
