I am
a woman.
I am a woman.
I am
a woman born of a woman whose man owned a factory.
I am a woman born of a woman
whose man labored in a factory.
I am
a woman whose man wore silk suits, who constantly watched his weight.
I am a woman whose man wore tattered
clothing, whose heart was constantly strangled by hunger.
I am
a woman who watched two babies grow into beautiful children.
I am a woman who watched two
babies die because there was no milk.
I am
a woman who watched twins grow into popular college students with summers
abroad.
I am a woman who watched three
children grow, but with bellies stretched from no food.
But then
there was a man:
But then there was a man:
And he
talked about the peasants getting richer by my family getting poorer.
And he told me of days that would
be better, and he made the days better.
We had
to eat rice.
We had rice.
We had
to eat beans.
We had beans.
My children
were no longer given summer visas to Europe.
My children no longer cried themselves
to sleep.
And I
felt like a peasant.
And I felt like a woman.
A peasant
with a dull, hard, unexciting life.
Like a woman with a life that
sometimes allowed a song.
And I
saw a man.
And I saw a man.
And together
we began to plot with the hope of the return to freedom.
I saw his heart begin to beat
with hope of freedom, at last.
Someday,
the return to freedom.
Someday freedom.
And then,
But then,
One day,
One day,
There
were planes overhead and guns firing close by.
There were planes overhead and
guns firing in the distance.
I gathered
my children and went home.
I gathered my children and ran.
And the
guns moved farther and farther away.
But the guns moved closer and
closer.
And then
, they announced that freedom had been restored.
And then they came, young boys
really.
They
came into my house along with my man.
They came and found my man.
Those
men whose money was almost gone.
They found all the men whose
lives were almost their own.
And we
all had drinks to celebrate.
And they shot them all.
The most
wonderful martinis.
They shot my man.
And then
they asked us to dance.
And they came for me.
Me.
For me the woman.
And my
sisters.
For my sisters.
And then
they took us.
Then they took us.
They
took us to dinner at a small, private club.
They stripped from us the dignity
we had gained.
And they
treated us to beef.
And they raped us.
It was
one course after another.
One after another they came after
us.
We nearly
burst we were so full.
Lunging, plunging - sisters bleeding,
sisters dying.
It was
magnificent to be free again!
It was hardly a relief to have
survived.
The beans
have almost disappeared now.
The beans have disappeared.
The rice
- I've replaced it with chicken or steak.
The rice I can not find it.
And the
parties continue night after night to make up for the time wasted.
And my silent tears are joined
once more by the midnight cries of my children.
And I
feel like a woman again.
They say, I am a woman.