6/13/01
WHERE FOR ART THOU ROMEO?!
Yes, thats right. Where is my Romeo? Where is the guy who will climb balconies just to kiss my lips once? The one who would change his name and disown his family for my love? (Well, maybe I don't need anything THAT drastic..) I thought I found my Romeo..back in March..pfft, what a joke that turned out to be. Betrayed, hurt and ultimately scarred by one person...when did he develop such power over me?? That even now, when I couldn't hate anyone more than him...I can't get him off my mind?! I do not want him..he is out of my life forever, that is for sure..so it wouldn't matter if I still did want him. So..I don't want him. And I guess what I'm feeling is guilt more than anything else..or just the fact that I'm feeling like its unfinished business, that things haven't exactally 'ended' between us..I don't know. I'm just being stupid. Clinging on to something rediculous. I just can't take the fact that there is someone out there who just wants nothing to do with me...people tell me I've changed so much over this year..that I truly am a really sweet, lovable person now...so how can someone just plain out HATE me? It just doesn't make sense. I didn't do anything wrong..Whatever. Its over. Thats it. He wants to hate me? Fine. I'll remember what he did..and someday I'll return the favor. Thats a promise. |