Yearning For Love Part 8

written by: Stina

Nick introduced me to his whole family and even invited me to dinner but I didn't want to impose, so I just went home. Jimmy and I drove down to McDonald's and got some food. The next day, I turned 18. Nick came over to visit and Jimmy blabbed it to Nick. Nick made such a big deal over it, it was embarrasing! "Come on! It's your 18th! That's like�THE birthday!" "Oh� I thought it was 16 and 21." I said, uncomfortable with all this attention. "Whatever. You've never had a party since you were 3! You need a BIG bash!" Nick said like a hyper 5 year old in a candy store. "No, no! Why are you doing this?! I'm an other year older, big whoop." "NO. Be at my house at 8:00 tonight. You WILL be there." "Fine, fine." I said, giving in, Nick was impossible!

I got home to find almost all of the food gone. "Jimmy! I understand you're 15 and growing, but we don't have enough money for you to eat almost all of the food in three days!" "I couldn't help it, I was hungry." "Jimmy, we don't have enough money for you to be that hungry, we just don't." "Oh yeah? But we have the money to buy you your heroin?!" he shot. "For your info, I haven't had it for a week, because YOU didn't want me to!" I sat down and started crying, I never fought with Jimmy my whole life, never. He came over and gave me a hug, he had tears in his eyes too. "Sorry. I'm just scared." He said I just hugged him tight, so was I. "What happens when we run out of money?" I thought. I told Jimmy about the party and that it was all his fault jokingly). He started laughing and so did I. We hadn't done that in a long time, too long.

I took a quick shower and changed then went to Nick's. I knocked on the door and Leslie let me in and led me to the backyard where there were Nick's family, Jimmy and some people I recognized as the guys that Nick sang with. They all sang happy birthday as I walked out. I smiled. Nick sat me in a chair and put a cake with candles in front of me, and I blew them out. Jane cut up the cake and passed some out. "Why would anyone do this for stupid, old me?" I thought. Suddenly I felt really sick. "Excuse me!" I said as I ran down to "The spot" and threw up in the lake. I sat down because I was shaking so bad. Nick came over and sat next to me. "You look really pale, are you ok?" he said. I just shook my head no, then I said "I can't get up, I'm shaking." I knew why I got sick, drug withdrawal. Nick helped me back up to his backyard and then Jimmy took me home. I thanked everyone and said sorry for ruining the part and the left. I felt pretty crappy but started feeling better in a week or so.

I stopped by Nick's house everyday because when I was with him, he would make me laugh like there was no tomorrow, especially when Brian was over there. Nick and I were back to being best friends, I was finally feeling good, Jimmy was still eating all the food, I just cut down my food so he could have more, my life felt like it was finally in place. Then it came tumbling down all over again.

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