X-ENTRIES

GAMBIT

This is the first of what I hope will be a long running series, of Diary entries for the X-Men I thought I could focus the first one in Gambit, during his time in the Shi ar galaxy, during Uncanny X-Men #345

Disclaimer: All X-Men and related characters are Marvel s I m just fooling around with them I m making no money off this, so don t sue.. I m a student, so by default that means I m broke anyway This story is copyright to me, and if you wanna archive it, please tell me where it s going

Note: Since I haven t the slightest idea of how to handle Gambit s accent, and this is all written -as a diary-I ll just forget about it for now : )

January 31, 1997. 4:32 A.M.<7p>

I really can t take much more of this it s getting to be so I won t be able to keep up

Funny, never figured this pup to be the one to give up especially since we just saved the whole damn Shi ar galaxy from some Transformers rejects who wanted to absorb them , their kids, their planet, the works
So, why can t I feel as though we won?

Why have I spent the night away, digging graves for the dead, trying to give them a proper burial?
I m not so sure things don t seem so simple anymore

I don t want to think about why I am doing this.. I don t want to remember Things seemed so much simpler back when I was just a rogue thief, the very best in the world.. I could still be easily but the very reason I m doing this is to forget the sins of the past
And when you ve got a past as checkered as mine, when you have really served only one person, cheated yourself out of life s every problem then you learn that the sins of the past are really hard to let go, no matter if you get to be a saint in the present.

Time was, I d have just said : "To hell with it", and keep on going at where I was going. Only problem is, I can t shake this feeling that the road I was taking was leading straigth to Hell and I was happy to hitch ride.

So, yes, I may be seeking penance for my part in that Massacre.. and yes, not so long ago, I d have gone ahead with that "master plan" for the X-Men funny what love can bring a soul to do.

Yes, this greatest of charmers has fallen in love, no doubt about it And the worst thing is, this time it s for real

It s not the first time this cajun has fallen head over heels for a woman just remember Belladonna, my great young love crush but this southern belle really has left me gasping for air, she takes my breath away
It s not that I don t want to commit myself if that was the price, I d tell her everything I ve ever done, just to set her mind to rest, risking the very real possibility that she couldn t forgive me, which wouldn t be so hard, since I can t forgive myself.. Buit when I see her holding her gloved hand to Joseph, when they pass the hours away in the ship just talking and laughing I want to kill him, since he has killed me already, by taking my love

So how do I explain that strange moment of two days ago, when she said she d "alwaays loved me"? Spur of the moment? Sincerity? I m not sure, but as I said before, I don t know if I can keep this this uncertainty going for much longer

The sun is coming up thank God for small miracles.
Rest in peace Shi ar. And when you reach the afterlife, please say a prayer for the soul of this cajun, who has so populated that land by his own hand, and by his Sinister associates.

Journal Entry Ended. January 31, 6:08 A.M.

That s it. I hope you liked it, and please send me a message with your opinion BTW, this series is based on the fact that most X-Men, even those you wouldn t expect, keep a small diary of sorts
Best of luck
Lestat

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