How do I begin..people need to know they cannot always go by trust..or by what may be said..take nothing for fact..not even on a hand shake as it use to be!!
I was not and had not been in good health for years..the thought of leaving this old world and bills under toe for my loved one's was a wrenching thought..I had worked so hard and so long until I fell sick..just incapacitated to where I could hardly get out of my own way any more..but I kept up the fight and for appearances sake trudged on..knowing that God would take me one day before I was an old man..
To know you will die before you time is a sad thought..but knowing I was right with God made these idea's easier for me. Now to let you know the stress and shame of some people..
Thinking the old home place was to big and so much upkeep..I figured if I bought one of those modular homes..it sure would be easier on my woman..and easier on me too!..So with a day of feeling somewhat on the brighter side..and knowing I could stand the ride..we rode for an hour to a little place where all these nice homes were set up to buy..well I did finally give up climbing in and out checking this and that..but the wife was pleased..and seemed to be all for this on a choice of mine alone..but then she would go to the ends of the earth for me..and had she not even liked the idea..she probably would not have said much..I honestly think she really did not want to go through all the hassle of moving and leaving her home..our home..but it wasn't like we would not be here..we would be just a couple hundred yards away from the old place..well we signed the papers..did what was necessary and thought all would be fine..that was nearly three months ago..and what a nightmare it has been...
First it could not be delivered..and when we called to make arrangements it would be here the next couple days..well the next couple days turned into weeks..finally with my calling the finance company and saying I did not want the modular home they did finally deliver the beautiful home..and days late from the day they promised..
It was a hard and torturous task of getting that home here to the mountains..but with a lot of work and careful consideration by all involved it was here..set up and tied down..nice..yes..!!! Of course having our own furniture it was nice to have things we did not have to buy extra..now all that was left was to be connected..well that was not an easy task either..the sales company with all their people..young and at times and not to concerned.. would pass the buck so to speak from one to the other..and you never could get a straight answer..only with threats of telling them to come and get the home was there any answers at all.. connected..and that only to a question..
Why could they not be honest..why lie on silly things as sending out a check..or returning a call..through all this the little wife never did go to the extremes of getting to upset..me well that was a different story..I would get so mentally upset..that I would have anjina attacks..and wonder if I would live to see another day..what a mess is all I could think..
Well now that home has been here for a week now..the thoughts of getting into it are nice..and the thoughts of having something with less up keep is great..but also the thoughts of really getting into the darn thing is becoming a slow reality on our part..while buying the thing..and signing your life away they are all hunky dory..we took out an escrow account to where I could use the extra money to do this little work..you know..the connections..some dozer work and having a septic put in..now the bills were submitted to be paid..yet have I to see a cent..nor a check..and have called..threatened you name it..there is always the saying ..it's in the mail..Right!!!..We all know that story..or I will hand deliver it myself..or the checks are only cut on Wednesday..so there is always a good headway of not doing anything 'blame it on someone else'..as of today I has been in the bed all day..The pain is bad..and I am scared..the thoughts and aggravation on buying this darn trailer are at the point to where I wish I had not set eyes on the box..now for the worse..all because of health and the love of my wife I thought this would be easier on her..I know I will not live long enough to enjoy this place..nor the thoughts of it at any rate..my life is ebbing slowly and I want some revenge..how can I do this..should I sue these people for lack of feelings..or for not caring how the other person thinks or feels..or loves..or dies... well as the walls close in I see the light going..was all this stress and strain worth it..my breathing in labored now..sorry my love I am leaving you in this mess..but you know I will be waiting above the clouds for you..lovveeeeeeeeee youuu.....
By Kyusha��1999
