I was not well..and knew it..being sickly as a child..young teen..and off and on in my adulthood..I just took this for face value..now in my middle years..I knew I would not be around to much longer..not that I wanted to die or anything along that line..but just knowing how my health was I could not expect to live a real long prosperous life..or did not think so..
I had a loving family..and grandchildren..and although I did consider my life a good life compared to those less fortunate..there was something I had not done yet..but what..??
The winter months were here and going..and I was just trying to get my bearings back from all the things that went on during the last few months..family gatherings and so forth..
My main objective was to take walk's in the country..steer away from the day's routine and thoughts by taking this time for myself..in doing this I looked at all the creations that God had give all of us..many I am sure never did see that little sparrow..or finch..or the rabbits..and squirrels running around..or the deer watching ever so intently..this I use to take for granted..but now I took at it all like wealth given to me each day..there was not a twig I did not notice..
I did not bare my feeling's to the family..just knew that there was going to be a change in some way..and I would accept this and know when it happened..I was walking through the hillside not to far away from my home when I came into a valley..though the temperature was a little on the cool side this day..the valley shown like glistening crystals..sparkling like stars..and the valley was green..and as I kept walking I saw the pretty wild holly bushes..the lush green laurel..and the wild azaleas all around..it was so pretty here and comforting..why had I not seen this before..
I just sat down on a stump and looked..there was a mystical charm about this place for some reason..and I said to myself..thank you Lord..for letting me be alive today to see these new and exciting places..
Now going into Spring I came to sit and reflect in my private little valley..the spring was growing and birthing all new things and it was a site to behold..the wild flowers..and wild little creatures all going hither and there for their new life abounding..I enjoyed it here so much..and wished I could always stay here..it was quiet and peaceful other than the little animals..and I always felt safe here..
In itself this place seemed like a different world..and at times I swore I could hear soft voices..or music..but never seeing anyone..I assumed it was the light winds blowing through the trees..
I missed my parents..now gone for years with God..and longed to see them..at times I would think back on the pleasant times we all had together..and longed to be a child again..being momma's little angel..to crawl up on her lap..or sit beside here as she read children's stories to me..oh that was wonderful times..and in the holidays we were always baking..and she taking time to show and tell me all her little baking secrets..I cried from the thoughts of not having parents..and each day said a prayer..for them and me..
I finally did come to the conclusion that it is far better to be loved if only for a short while in your life than never loved at all..and although I was crazy about my family I sure did want to see my parents..just one more time to be infolded in their love again..no matter how they had passed from this earth..all due to health and sickness..the loss of all gone grew it's daily toil on me in thoughts..
Hearing Sally Ann in my mom's voice I jumped..and then laughed out loud..knowing that my imagination was really wild now..best I be getting home anyway..had things to do there other than sit here and think of those I loved and missed..turning I saw Mom..there she was..the misty light around her..and she was as I remembered her in her healthier days..and there was grandmother..they both laughing..and picking some of the wild flowers and putting them in the old basket that grandmother always used..they both were so happy..and all I could do was stare..and run towards them with outstretched arms..they did enfold their arms around me now..and kissed me on each cheek..saying..you see Sally Ann when you pray and wish so hard..things do happen..there are so many things I could tell you but this is not your time yet..but now you know we are fine..happy..and always will be with eternal life here..this is heaven on earth..you found our little valley..but where was grandaddy..there he was as if the thought of him..brought him there..and he came towards me with his arms outstretched and hugged me tightly..oh it was wonderful..my loving family..all here and around me..even daddy was here now..oh this was so grand..I was so happy..and never wanted to leave..just to be with my family again..neither one said anything about me being in middle age now..and they loved and showed there love as they always had with no chastisement or thought..now I truly was home no matter how my life was or would be ..I was forever eternally grateful for this day...now in my elderly years..I still go back to the valley when I can..it still is as beautiful to me as the first time I was there..and as momma said..heaven on earth...and never mind that I wanted to stay there..in that lovely valley..we all know reality is..you do not go anywhere until you name is called in that great book above...
By Kyusha��1999
