Oh what a strange lot..I had not been in this backward community twenty four hours yet and could sense and feel that these people did not like me already..but then I was feeling down graded a lot anyway..this was probably just my own insecure imagination..I knew I had to come here..this was going to be my new life..my other past life was something I dare not remember..the heartache and hurt and the physical abuse I had endured to long..now this was my time..and I had to do it right..for me and for my children
I had a dear friend that was living near this little mountain outward cast place..and I could not for the life of me wonder why I had listened to my friend of years..she but all assured me that I would love it..but would I ?
I had been married..now divorced..and with children two of them now to care for..I knew that I could not at all do this in my town..I had to leave..my use to be husband would never leave me alone..and make my life miserable..and although he did not want me..he sure as the devil did not want anyone else to have me either..
His family had money..and where I come from money talks..what a shame they never could realize how sorry he really was..but they being parents never did see any wrong with James..he was the perfect son..perfect husband..and above all the perfect dad...well if they knew it would absolutely kill them..this wonderful circle of love they gave him..they were not young any more..and being there only child..spoiled rotten..and given all his life..I had not the heart..I will always love them..but only love can do so much..and I knew they blamed me..
Sarah my long time friend came running out the door as I pulled up in a big U-Haul truck..everything I had and could take was with me..and the boys...we all tired ..dusty..and hungry..I was ready to just sit and rest.."I was getting worried Sarah was saying..I expected you hours ago..as she hugged me..her clean fresh smell made me feel better already.." you guy's get in here..rest..and get cleaned up..I have cooked a big meal..plenty to eat..and then just make yourself at home..you all look worn to the bone"..We were to say the least..the trip had been hard..and me never the one for long distance when it came to driving sure knew I did not want to try this again..
The Colorado mountains were fantastic..the Rocky Mountains..finally I was here..and the scenery was like a picture book...I had never seen anything like it..oh they were just unbelievable..I slowly walked to Sarah's front door still looking out towards the western sky's and seeing all these huge rising mountains..and the smell of the home cooked meal made me just absolutely famished..I did not realize I was that hungry..the boys Jason..and Richard were good kids..but they too..were tired..and after all these days of traveling I know that they were sore..and hungry as well.. my first concern would be to get them settled in..
Sarah was fumbling around in the kitchen just going on about this and that..and telling us all where to find towels..soap and so forth.."you boys go get cleaned up and refreshed and you'll feel a lot better..Pete will be here in a minute..and you can talk with him"..Pete was Sarah's only child..and with her husbands death the year before..Pete sure had taken a lot of the responsibility of being the head man running the ranch..not that he could not do it..now at twenty years old he was known for being honest and true to his word.. this is what Sarah had written to me in the year of her husbands death..she was so proud of Pete..this was all that she had left of their life together..she and her husband..I had always wished Sarah had at least one more child..but she never did..and knew that Pete would always be her shinning star..
I could not get out of the old big tub...just laying there in the warm bath made my body feel so much better..the hot water soothing my weary body..tomorrow would be a better day..it just would take time to get my life together but I knew I could do it..I was going to make this work for me with all the gusto I could muster..this would be my new stepping stone..getting out of the tub..the night chill hit me..and just tired from the full day I knew I would rest well tonight..
By Kyusha��1999
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