Saturday, March 11, 2000 2:02pm
Yeah, I've decided that I'm going to start including the time in
my entries... Isn't that snappy? Also, I'm still planning on
revamping my site, however, I still have yet to decide how I want to do
this.
I had this strange dream. I was in my old high school (Hillcrest
High, or aka, Coformity Central). It was Valentine's Day (See how
evil it is? It attacks me in my dreams in the middle of March!),
and everywhere was a buzz. With the exception of me, of course.
EVERYONE had someone but me. I plodded about the school forlornly,
as everyone zipped about here and there in their excitement. For
some strange reason, a couple of classrooms had been converted into small
movie theaters. So I go in, find an aisle with no people in it, and
sit by myself. After only a little while, these girls come to sit
by me. I was thinking, "Oh! Could this be it?!".
I didn't dare turn to see who it was. Suddenly, I felt her leg brushing
against mine... Not in a sexy way... This was... Strange. It was
as if she were mocking me. I turned to see a girl who I apparenrtly
"knew" in the dream, but when I woke I knew I'd never seen her before.
She was none too attractive, and I'm not known to be very picky, and she
was HIGHLY annoying. Then, without saying a word, she began to kiss,
hold, and generally fondle me. Everyone was watching this strange
turn of events, and I really didn't know what to do... I mean, I couldn't
just say, "Ugh! Get offa me!" That would be rude, not to mention
heartbreaking. So I sat there for a few moments, trying to think
of what to do, whilst she continued to ravage me. Suddenly, my train
of thought was derailed when the girl began screeching at me, like I had
done something. I couldn't hear what she was saying, just that she
was screaming at me in a most furious manner. This was all too much
for one boy to take, so I decided to just get up and leave. I was
pounding down a hallway, when I saw the evil teacher from hell that I had
in 5th grade. She stopped to regard me for a moment, then grinned
malevolently before walking away... I woke up. I laid there
in bed for the next 30min or so, trying to piece together what it all means...
But, once again, I find that my bizarre dreams are just that, bizarre.
They make no practical sense what-so-ever.
Soooo... What else is new, eh? Hmm... Oh! There's this -cute-
girl named Sandy. She says that she knows me, but I cannot begin
to comprehend how this is possible. I keep hearing her name pop up
and I'm getting that Destiny feeling I sometimes get... But NO!
I will undyingly REFUSE that feeling! EVERY time I have followed
that feeling, I ALWAYS get hurt in the end. So nope. I'm not
going to even think about this anymore. Besides... I heard she already
has a boyfriend... Probably much more attractive, fit, intelligent, rich,
charming, and loving than I could ever be... Oi! She's just
so cuuuuute though! Bugger...
Tuesday, March 21, 2000 10:06 am
Well, "St. Paddy's" day came and went... I remember when I was
in elementary school, I used to purposely not wear green, and then make
sure that this fact was made apparent to all the girls in my class... I
never could get them to pinch me, though... *mutters*
I was up early one morning, flipping through channels. I found this
show on Nickelodeon (No, I don't make a habit of watching that channel...)
where these little kids were talking about what things might be like in
the future or whatever... They would say how they were going to do
all these cool things and what not... And it reminded me of when I was
but a small child... (No really, I was once.) I remember thinking
that life was just one cool ass adventure after another... And that I'd
easily find what I wanted to do when I was "grown up"... Now that
I am... (Well... Sorta...) I feel like that no matter what I may be doing,
(Well, apart from running my own club and/or being a published author,
neither of which will happen though, so the point is moot.) that I will
not be happy. I look into my mental crystal ball of the future and
all I see is lonliness and squalor... Too bad for me, I guess.
There was this girl on the show that was saying that "all the money should
be turned into candy and everyone be happy". And I was like, "Damn
straight!!!"... All the money in the world -should- be turned into
candy... Things would be so much simpler....
Well.... Aside from that... I guess nothing else is new.......... Nope.
*shrugs*
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