Well now that I am off the island, I don’t know exactly what to think about what the last couple of months have been like. I was so confused and scared that I really don’t know how to react to being someplace that I am unfamiliar with. As I was leaving the island that I was stranded on for so long I was thinking of what has just happened. Have I really been saved? Could this really be the end? And I was also thinking of myself as a murderer. I had been apart of a lethal death towards another human being. I have killed someone. My emotions when leaving the Island were very mixed. I was filled with contempt and at the same time I was glad to be off the island. But I was still curious, for I was curious for what was in store for me. I am filled with happiness but at the same time I am scared with excitement.

I am going into this mock trial as a person who has to tell the truth. I am feeling very secure with what I have done on the island. I have done nothing wrong, and if the topic of Simon’s death does arise, I will not falter. I will say the truth for what I have done on the island was merely to survive and nothing in comparison to what all the other children have committed. Now that I have left the island and I looking back on what happened, then and only the do I realize how savage and brutal we all were. Reflecting back on what happened I realize that we were all in it for survival. Plain and simple. We needed to survive. I was one of the few children who were able to try to keep some what order while the rest of the children lost their mind. What I have done on that island was to survive as opposed to the other children. What they did demonstrates how they lost they sanity.

When I walk into court tomorrow I am walking in knowing that I have nothing to be afraid of, nothing for me to hide. I can walk in there and tell the absolute truth. Because when I was on that island I was a different person, but at the same time I was still myself. I was one of the only kids that stayed themselves. I was saved out of true luck and I am responsible for nothing that Jack or any of the other boys has commitment and I realize that now. Because on that island I was in a battle. A battle with fate and I won. I survived.