The next few days were even worse than the last. All I saw was Jeff and I being happy. I didn't know why, but I didn't trust my heart this time. Jeff hurt me and He'll never do it again. All this time, I guess I was destined to with Jason. This baby was his, not Jeff's. "Morning Sunshine." "Morning Jay." "How are ya?" "Better. My headaches gone atleast." "Let me cook you breakfast." "Whatever." I ate pretty quick considering I needed to do a few things. "Jay, I'm gone." "Ok, Be right back." "I will." Thank god! I was alone now.

"Hey Savannah! Wait up." It was Adam. "What do you want?" "I need to talk to you." "About what?" "About you and Jeff. Savannah, Jay's using you." "He wouldn't do that to me." "Wanna bet. Come here." He grabbed my hand as we went down the hall. We stopped at my locker room." "Listen." I listened and what I heard schocked me. Jay was using me. He never cared about me. "See?" "Yes, Adam, can you go in there and get my things?" "Sure, Wait out here." While he was getting my things, I tried to think about a few days ago. I remeber David holding me and then I couldn't remeber anything else. "Let's go Savannah!" "I'm comming." We then left to find Jeff.

"Adam, Why did you come for me?" "Jeff made me realize a lot of things. How Jay was using you and how much he loved you. Savannah, he really cares for you.." "But, I don't know how I feel about him." "Huh?" "I just need time. Even though we're engaged, I still need to think." We walked inot the room to find Jeff talking on the phone. "Grrr." "Savnnah. I'm so glad to see you. Did he hurt you?" "No, He actually kept me safe." "More safe then me?" "No, He just made sure I was taken care of, that's all." Adam put away my things as I got comfortable.

"How far along are you?" "About 6 months. The doctor said I was already 2 or 3 months pregnant before I found out." "Savannah, are you sure you wanna do this?" "Do what?" "Marry me knowing the baby's not mine." "Jeff, I love you. I want you to be the father of the baby, even if it isn't yours." Adam sat back and watched me as I looked at Jeff." "Adam,, you're my big brother. Nobody can or will replace you. You're the only brother and I have and will love." "I love you too Savannah. Group Hug!!!"

I laid down and wondered how I got to be so lucky. I had a broother who loved me more than anything. Adam is the one person I can tell anything too, and won't tell anybody what I said. Jeff, he was gonna be a father and a husband real soon. He didn't have to be there for me when he did, but he did. I just hope all of this gets better real soon!!!

Copyright 2000 by Sara Williams

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