I know what he's thinking before he even said it. He says he needs a break, but he's thinking "I want someone else." I know her name, and he knows I know - he's told me many times - but he won't admit that he's rather be off trying to get her back, than to have the aimless task of knowing me.
He says it's the past, but it's a past he so dreadfully wants, a past that he can't stop remembering, a past that he'd rather thinks about than face the present, and a past he's rather know than to look towards the future.
The past is what his mind consists of, and it's a dreadful reminder to me that he is unhappy because he wants what he can't have.
I could never tell him my thoughts, in fear that I'll lose him. I couldn't face that. I'd rather die than lose him. I don't think he knows my feelings to their full extent, and I don't think that he really cares either. All he wants is his past�..

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