I don�t want to Hope, cause Hope is just there To make disappointment harder to bear I�m too tired to stay here, I�m too tired to try Lord, let me escape, I just want to die
I don�t want to stay here anymore It�s getting too hard to conceal the pain that keeps growing on me I just want to be free If there�s another way, I don�t know it. I try to heal but all I can achieve is to bury the hurt And thereby unearth False security Cause when I feel I succeed � cursed Hope sets in and says to me Maybe the worst is over�
But then someone says or does or gestures in a way to trigger the pain Then it all comes back again. Damn you Hope: you lied to me Led me to believe I was finally free But now the hurt�s been let loose on me And it still feels as awful as it did on the first day that it came my way And it�s inside me, so I can�t run away And I don�t know how to heal And I�m too tired to try Just let me die My heart offends me � cut it out of my body.
I hate to go through this. Everytime a friend or a lover sets off a trigger Which brings back the torturing of my soul that I thought I was past I don�t think I can last � not even another day I can�t live like this Lord So let me die, or show me a way. -------------------------------------------------------------------------- Poetry Contents home contact me
