Break Up. My life is over - again. The love of my life doesn't love me anymore. My tears are pouring again. I thought this time our love was sure. My heart is aching - again. That familiar physical agony that tears at me...unrelentingly. I cry. Why? Why do I let myself love? Only to be hurt when my other gets bored.
It's happened again, Just when I was sure that 'forever' was in store. Rude shock - I'm alone again. Again.
Is it foolish to dream of love? Is it dumb to think that it could ever be mine? I'm a naive, romantic dreamer - And that's why my life is over. Next time I will guard my heart. Next time I won't let myself fall in love. I've said that before - too many times. Those promises sound hollow now. Even I don't believe them. Not any more.
Am I doomed then to always suffer this way? Will love ever come - to me - to stay? You said you loved me - you lied. I cried. Why? Why do I let myself go through this? Over and over again. Again.
It might be hollow but it's my only comfort now. Never again will I let myself love. I will guard my heart and abandon the heights of emotion That comes so naturally to me... I will live like those who don't care about anything. Those lucky folks who are immune to pain and love. ......Now one in the same - love means pain.
I soared on Love's wings. Now I drown in My tears. I wish I hadn't believed you when you said that you loved me. I wish I had listened to those nagging fears - the ones I made go away... I wanted so much for someone to care that I let you into my heart. Now look what you did, desecrated the heart I let you live in.
I wish I didn't present to you; my heart, body and soul - like lambs to the slaughter... I can't look at my body - you touched it. It bears your mark - your scent. Forgive me body - I sacrificed you to satisy a craving for love that will never be satisfied. I know it now. I can't feel my heart you froze it. It bears love for you - it's been wounded by you. Forgive me heart - I knew your innocence yet failed to stop you from falling. I was a careless guardian. I know it now. I can't know my soul - you stole it. It bears your stamp - your name. Forgive me soul. I caused you to bond with a virus - that now eats at you. To remove it I must wound you too - yet another scar... I was a fool. I know it now.
I'm allowed to feel your pain but I am not the victim because I should have known that no one out there would love me. They only pretend - then The mirage fades away - when When they get bored. My Love lingers on to taunt me. I deserve it because I should have known Should have learned. From all the times before.
