introspecting
i spend the daytime
conjuring
images after sunset
horrifying permutations
your vanity against my self-respect
ghastly interrogation by strangers
your friends from another planet

i live this shackled life
floating in this house boat
this unattended hole at the bottom
the surging waters are un-dammed
i'm unequal to this fight
your senses against my
you rush me
i pour out another handful

this realization is difficult
but dear girl
we shall stop the tide
do a rewind to the past
when life was a song
and this mind was an ignorant kid
slavingly mental we go on
redefining priorities
just on an urge
no goals set to achieve