Here it is, the cynical little love rant as promised...
I'm sure some of you are expecting an "I hate Valentine's Day because I'm single" sob fest. That's not how this is going to go, and for the record, I hate Valentine's even when I am not single. I don't like the concept of a holiday designed to guilt people into being affectionate while making anyone who is single for any reason feel pathetic. However, this is just a pre-rant; for the main rant I feel that I might as well focus on the heart of the issue, love itself.
You may wonder how I have anything against love. In a theoretical sense, I don't, but in a real sense it scares me to death. I'm sure love can be a beautiful, wonderful thing when it is shared by two people (in fact, I'm counting on it or I would just become a monk [Southern Baptist Monk...]). However, when love is one sided it is hard to imagine anything worse.
I'll never forget the first (and probably only) time I fell in love. I actually told this person (Clarissa, some of you know the name well), and it just rolled off my tongue. It was actually an accident. It just slipped out in normal conversation, but I meant it. Needless to say, this was unrequited (if you want the full story, e-mail me), but the point is that saying it and meaning it the FIRST TIME were easy. Since then, neither have been possible.
That was how I learned the cruel reallity of one-sided love, and it has stuck with me. There have been women since then that I thought maybe I loved, but I just couldn't decide. There have even been those that I thought, "Maybe if I say it, I'll mean it and everything will be ok." I've never been able to convince myself that I'm in love or to let the words go."
Basically I learned this:
Don't let yourself fall in love, and if, for some reason, you make that mistake, by all means, KEEP IT TO YOURSELF.
Love is much to dangerous to be telling everyone that even if you aren't in it, you should pretend just because it's the 14th day of the 2nd month. Besides robbing us of our money (except for those of us who are single), this holiday encourages us to give up our care-free innocence much too early. Let children think dating is gross a little longer. There's no reason to rush into love, cause the damage from the first time (if it's bad)can last a lot longer than those cheap chocolates...
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