ATTITUDE
"Attitude is a small thing that makes a big difference" that's what is written on my note pad. I never did figure out what it was all about until I started losing the people I cared about because they couldn't stand my attitude. Sometimes I don't understand myself and I can only leave the questions unanswered. Everyone I meet is always trying to figure me out. Actually I think I've pretty much got myself figured out for this week any way. I asked myself the other day "Why do people do things that they know are wrong or will make no difference?" Sometimes we get ourselves hurt and to get rid of the pain, we take our anger out on the next person that comes along. I think it's kind of stupid of us, but we still do it anyway and unfortunately for us we don't get to take these things back. We sometimes end up hurting ourselves even more. I'm one of those people who can't seem to get mad the right way. I get mad at my friends with good reason. And all they say is you'll get over it because they know I hate keeping malice. The best I can do is not talk to them for an hour or two before I start feeling guilty. Sometimes I even say hurtful words and within two minutes I'm feeling as guilty as sin and I'm unable to have a good night's sleep. Now I wonder why I bother trying at all.