- I don't want your
love no more
- It's far too much to
bare
- So if you wanna go
just go
- From this point
on
- I don't
care
- I don't
care
-
- I can remember when
we first started going out
- How you would cut
out of work early to make it to my house
- And we would screw
like banshees on my fake leather couch
- Can't even count how
many times I sweated your hair out
- Or how many times we
were fucking and I love you slipped from
- my
mouth
- The whole time never
really understanding what love was about
- But I love you
sounded good in between moans of passion
- And the sounds of
Anita Baker in my stereo blasting
- As you road me like
your strong brown stallion
- Then just at the
point of climax
- When you drove your
nails simultaneously into my chest and
back
- And even though like
hell that shit hurt
- At that very
moment
- We were the only two
people on earth
- I remember when you
couldn't sleep unless my arm was around
- your
waist
- And when I couldn't
make it through the day unless I saw your
- face
- How quickly those
times have been erased
- They have been
replaced with arguments and tension
- With both of us
wanting to talk
- But neither really
wanting to listen
- Now
I
- Truly understand
what it sounds like when the doves cry
- It is the sound of
an argument when the insults fly
- It is the sound of
two confused lovers who have lost their
minds
-
- I remember when I
thought this pure unadulterated bliss
- Would make even the
most devout homosexual rethink his
-
preference
- Now we storm through
the house and slam doors like adolescents
- There's no more
hugging and kissing
- Our love nest has
transformed into hell's kitchen
- And I'm wondering if
we ever loved at all
- Its far too much
stress to argue over problems we can't
solve
- I remember before
all this madness slipped into our house
- That a kiss would
make us forget what we were even arguing
-
about
- Now you sleep in the
bed
- And I sleep on the
couch
- And were just
hanging around waiting for the lease to run
out
- Our hearts have
grown hard
- And our stares have
cold
- This is not the way
we intended for things to go
- In retrospect it was
the mutual degeneration of a relationship
- But at the time we
blamed each other for all of this
- It was your lack of
trust
- And my lack of
understanding
- That has us both in
the living room with suitcases packing
- And we become
another statistic
- Of an unsuccessful
black relationship
- You tired of me
lying
- Me tired of you
prying
- Both of us simply
tired of trying
- I remember like it
was yesterday what you said
- The words still ring
true
- No
one
- I mean no
one
- Will ever love you
the way that I do
- You said it so calm
and softly
- But I've been
fighting ever since to get that spirit off
me
- And when it was
finally over
- And I was about to
walk out the door
- You
said
-
- I don't want your
love no more
- It's far to much too
bare
- So if you wanna go
just go
- Me and our
baby
- We don't
care
- We don't
care
-
- What, what a fine
time to tell me
- There is life in
your womb and soon I'm to be a daddy
- My heart
simultaneously fills with love and hate
- I want so badly to
embrace
- But my hands won't
move to touch you
- I'm overcome with
the realization
- I won't have a
wife
- I'll just be another
motherfucker with a baby's mother
- Then my better since
kicks in
- It was me who chose
to make love without a condom
- It was me who said I
would never leave even if we hit rock
bottom
- It was you who said
we could work our way through any problem
- So now we have
reached this impasse
- And there's no time
to waist
- Cause abortions
outta the question
- And I refuse to have
someone call my child a mistake
- That's when you
stopped my tirade
- Told me you know I'd
be a good father
- But we could not
bring a child into a house where all we do
is
- scream and
holler
- We were wrong when
we thought we could make it through
-
whatever
- And a child is not a
good enough reason to stay together
- And as you turned
and walked through the door
- You
said
-
- You don't want my
love no more
- It's far too much to
bare
- So I've got to
go
- Just know
- From this point
on
- I'll always
care
- I'll always
care.
Copyright Mar 1999
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