MUDDY WATER

Joshua J. Johnson, 24 Nov 98

There's a place inside

Hidden deep within

Where fears reside

And all my hurt begins

A hollow black spot

Where tears fall within

I can feel my heart as it sinks

Deeper within me

Closer to the emptiness

Ever consuming

I reach out for it

But I can't quite grasp it

My soul grows tired

Ever enveloped in darkness

Longing for a light to shine through

Lift my spirit above the muddy water

That has filled my emptiness

I hide my eyes

Not wanting to see

I shield my heart

Not wanting to feel

I close my mind

Not wanting to know

I long for joy

I long for laughter

But pain instead fills me

Joy replaced by tears

Laughter by anger

The muddy water boils within me

Consuming me from within

© Joshua J. Johnson, 1998