'Untitled'
By: Lydia, 1999
POV: Scully, to Emily
Time frame: post "All Souls"
Spoilers for: "Christmas Carol/Emily" and
              "All Souls"
Thanks to: Tara (author of 'Ghostly Lullabies')
           for the inspiration. Tara's fanfic
           can be read at 'Twilight Time'
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Like a memory forgoten,
and circumstance unfurnished
by the grievannces we bear
I still see you.
Haunting my dreams and
solitary moments
with a face familiar.
Too familiar to be forgotten.
But the tears shed
cannot hold you here
any more than the desperate
actions he's tried.
And the pain I feel
is no more than such.
For it cannot bring life
where life has vacated
a heart never given the chance to live.
And my soul, never given the chance
to bond.

Like the whispers
you left me with
and the visions I still see
your vague presence has left me empty
of life and the capacity to bear it.
And the shallow place you
once occupied now finds residence
here.
Though I never knew you
I cannot let you go 
into the permanent sky
of sandbag coffins.  Because
you are the things that joy is made of.
And possibilities drag me down,
drowning me in a sorrow.
My sorrow, shallow suffering
for a mother never given the chance
to love.
And a child who never was.